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About Me  jiaqian → fangirl. insane. beware. → am a little twisted, and a lot disturbing, but once you look past the insaneness, i'm quite interesting. → this is a mostly a place for me to wax horrible poetry and post cryptic rants that no one will understand but of late it has evolved into yet another angsty diary. but the last time i checked, that's what blogs are for. →also, lots of typos since i'm normally high (on life, not crack!), tipsy or depressed when i write my posts. seriously. → profanity galore. honest raw emotions. are you squirmy when it comes to emotions? → slightly unhinged. dancing on the edge yet in control. perfection is overrated. The likes ♥
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Credits Layout design by Eefennie. edited by mua. | Wednesday, August 31, 2011 amen, luan. preach it. i hate group projects. really. group projects were invented so that we can learn at an early age that the only way you can get anything done is if you do it yourself. it is also a good practice for when you enter the workforce, and you get lumped with not only your own workload, but also the mistakes of your coworkers and boss. we all know that group projects don't work. don't give me buts or any other explanations. it doesn't. if you're one of those people who support group projects wholeheartedly, well, i've got news for you: you're the kind of people that no one would want to group with. there can be only one reason that people like group projects, that is, you can push most of your work onto someone else. great for you, but please pity the poor people like me. for every single group project since i could remember, i was always the one stuck with most of the load, or the hardest part of the project. reason #1: i'm the default leader. unfortunately, i'm always paired up with quiet people, which means that i speak up first. that shows "leadership" and i get stuck with being the leader. being the leader, if i don't hand out parts to my members, nothing gets done. most of the time, even if something is done, i have to edit it personally due to shoddy work (sometimes) and bad grammar (most of the time). reason #2: "but your english is better." no. english skills do not have anything to do with this. if you want to be all nitty gritty about this, why don't we look at how well someone understands the topic? and the closest, thought flawed, way to look at this is exam results. well HEY your results are better than mine, so shouldn't you be the one doing the hardest part? and even if my results ARE better than yours, by pushing the harder aspects of the project to me, you are demonstrating precisely why your grades are lower than mine. if you continue to pass on everything that you find difficult, how can you improve? reason #3: i'm the only one that cares. motherfuckers, please give a damn. because for me, this project is the difference between a A or an A-; for you, it might decide whether you pass or fail. you need to ace this more than i do. _ not everyone skimps on their share of the work, i'm aware of that. dear group mates, i can't cuss you out to your face because we're friends. which is a bunch of bullshit- i should be able to point out what you're doing wrong because we're friends. but okay, you've done your share. i acknowledge that, and i thank you. my biggest beef with you is this: have some goddamned initiative. if i don't open my yap and remind you guys that ~HEY, THE DUE DATE IS LOOMING~, would any of you care? you say that you have a lot of assignments. well boohoo for you, but don't MY assignments matter? you think you're the only college kid in the world that's swamped with tests and projects? and while we're at it, let me talk about something else that has been bothering me. for god's sake, can you people be more professional? look. this accounts for 10% of our grade. i want it to be in times new roman, size 12, double spaced and justified. i don't want it in papyrus with 1.5 spacing and in size 14, with margins of 2 inch. i'm not being a perfectionist; i'm making this shit look professional. this is what people expect from an academic paper, yes? this is the basic format that every student should know. how the fuck is the lecturer going to take you seriously if you use a squiggly font or worse still, COMIC SANS? i'm glad i'm not a lecturer, because i would have deducted half your marks based on first impression alone. . . and now that i've gotten that out of my system, i can slowly start to work on my ever towering pile of projects. fml. 
Labels: rant. epik till the death of me; 7:22 PM
► sometimes my heart breaks like someone i love has been ripped by my side forever. then i realize it hurts not because of someone i love, but because it's devoid of someone to love. in plain terms, loneliness hurts. a lot. epik till the death of me; 1:22 AM Friday, August 26, 2011 
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god, i love korean hiphoppers. this is kinda funny in a sad way. i was searching for lyrics to Crispi Crunch's (you know.. the dudes who released a gay teaser?) 힙합이나 하고 다니고 ft. J'Kyun and New Champ. the lyrics were very sexually charged and i soon found out that it was a diss. remember tajinyo, the anti-fancafe of tablo that accused blo of falsifying his education? who could forget those little fuckers with nothing better to do. anyway, during an interview, one member (pictured above) said,
basically he was brushing off hip hop as "playing around" and belittling whatever hardwork these hiphoppers do. in response to this, the k-hiphoppers proceeded to indirectly respond to this statement through twitter. dok2: i should listen to something noisy like hiphop when i'm on the plane. before i go to the Philippines i'll do some hiphop or whatever. personally i thought this was a very dignified and fun way to return the diss. i'm surprised this didn't make it to the international fan base (or maybe it did and i missed it), so i'm just posting it up because i found it interesting. epik till the death of me; 6:27 PM Monday, August 22, 2011 today's newspaper had an article saying that watching tv for one hour would decrease your lifespan by 50 minutes. that is bad. that is very bad. i finish a drama every other week. i'm surprised that i'm still alive. then the article admits, somewhat reluctantly, that reading books for one hour has the same effect. apparently, your life is shortened not because you spent an hour watching mindless crap, but because you lazed on your ass for an hour instead of doing vigorous activity, or in other words, exercise. now, wouldn't it be easier to say that an hour of exercise increases one's lifespan by 50 minutes, instead of making an even worse name for television? if we follow the article's theory, sitting down kills you. though if the theory is true, then wouldn't one period of class shorten my life by 50 minutes? huh, that saying "studying = student+dying" must be true after all. since i'm nearing my demise anyway, i'll rather spend my days watching tv. it's my preferred way of dying n____n epik till the death of me; 9:48 PM Saturday, August 20, 2011 i tried searching for unstoppable high kick videos on the chinese streaming program ppstream, but it was removed. frustration level ... 20% to my horror, so was high kick through the roof. frustration level ... 50% so i tried to watch Nonstop 5 instead. all episodes were on youtube but MBC REMOVED THEM ALL. mbc you are a fucking bitch okay. why did you remove videos of a sitcom from 2004?? frustration level ... 80% all the subbed videos of nonstop 1, 2, 3 and 4 were gone too, along with practically all rainbow romance videos. frustration level... WHERE'S MY KNIFE IMMA CUT A BITCH. if you don't understand why i'm so mad, let me tell you that nonstop is the best fucking series ever, okay. i watched the whole of nonstop 5, and only half of nonstop 4 and 6, but i'm SOLD. nonstop 5 was the best of course. it had the smallest cast, but because there were so little people, the relationships were less messy. plus, i'm extremely biased because TABLO/HYOJOO COUPLE FOR THE WIN. plus, there was playboy minwoo, the dumb!leejung/abusive!hyesun couple, and the cutest ever jinwoo/sooah couple. there were 247 episodes, but it was 247 episodes of WIN. nonstop 4 had an even more amazing cast. it launched the careers of a lot of people. hyunbin, jang guensuk, han yeseul, mc mong, to name a few. nonstop 6, more famously known as rainbow romance, made me want to slit my throat lol. i would gladly push eunbi into shark infested waters, because her voice is worse than fingernails on a chalkboard. really. plus none of the young pretty idol cast (kibum, heechul, minki, heebon, euichul) could act. kibum smirked through the whole thing, euichul never said more than a sentence and heechul spread his flamboyance in every episode. i miss sitcoms like unstoppable marriage. that was 140 episodes of jampacked comedy. towards the end, the love triangle was SO riveting that the drama remains one of my favourite ones ever. the quality of comedy sitcoms are dying... the 2010 jokwon/ga in/doojoon sitcom all my love is so bad i wonder why there was an extension. more charming by the day was somewhat okay, but the stories weren't that interesting. high kick through the roof was amazing only because the plot turned to angst towards the end and oh, the suspense was so good. shit ending though. high kick 3 better not disappoint! i'm highly disappointed with the cast because where are the fresh faces? high kick 1 gave us jung ilwoo, high kick 2 gave us yoon shiyoon, and this time the new face you're giving us is... yoon kyesang? i'm glad krystal and leejongsuk are in this though. they're the drama's saving grace for me. epik till the death of me; 12:45 AM Monday, August 15, 2011 today is one of those days where i feel like shit and i don't know why. no, i kinda do. i'm pmsing like fuck and i'm a ticking time bomb of emotions. and when that happens, writing is therapy. so i shall rant. why is it that the more i go out, the emptier i feel? i find myself dreading outings with my friends. it's bad when i much prefer the comforts of a good book or a night of drama marathons, to a noisy girls night out. no one quite believes me when i say i prefer books to humans. i never shut my yap, so people assume that i love socializing. that's not quite true because i find outings a chore sometimes. i'm a extrovert that craves solitude. maybe it's because i'm so emotional distant from everyone that i've never formed a strong connection with any of my friends. when i go out with them i feel like my presence or absence wouldn't make a difference. tomorrow... i really don't think i can handle going out with so many people... but i can't skip this gathering. sigh. epik till the death of me; 11:33 PM Tuesday, August 09, 2011 i wish you didn’t reveal her supposed weight, cube. it’s fucking irresponsible of you. one, it shows that you’re not taking good care of your idols. two, hyuna is a role model to many young girls, and you’ll set off a wave of diets among insecure fangirls. three, i highly doubt that is her real height, and if this really is a whole bunch of bs, cube you need a new pr team. (i volunteer) the moment that the news was released, i had a friend tell me that she wanted to be 39kg. i wanted to throttle that friend, and i did try my best to convince her that 39KG IS A FUCKING UNHEALTHY WEIGHT SHE’LL PROBABLY BE MALNOURISHED. i went as far as to say that underweight people tend to have a lower immune system (trufax btw) and that they’re prone to brittle bones (also true) but no, said friend has her eyes set on 39kg. i want to smack some sense into her, really. everytime i try to tell her that she’s not in any way fat, she says, “easy for you to say… you’re thin… not like me.” cube is not sending a good message at all. _ and 2NE1's ugly. i don’t think it sends a good message, either. there’s the part about you beating yourself down, but where’s the part about you getting back up? 2NE1 has always proved themselves to be good role models, with songs like Go Away and I Don't Care oozing self confidence. and then bam, they come up with this. i wish they changed the last chorus to something more uplifting. maybe this line Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty could be changed to Just like her I wanna be free I wanna be free as in, i want to be free, and i’ve gotten to the point where i don’t let my self confidence be manipulated by pondscum like you. the feedback to this song was something like i can relate to this song so much. i feel ugly too… and i see girls gushing about how empowering the song is, but it’s not. ugly is about a girl with zero self esteem who pushes away the one guy who cares about her and tries to tell her how pretty she really is. i know we all have our moments of self doubt. but when someone compliments you, please listen. it might save your life. epik till the death of me; 9:13 PM Wednesday, August 03, 2011 hey, could you save me from this horrible feeling? epik till the death of me; 8:43 PM |