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About Me  jiaqian → fangirl. insane. beware. → am a little twisted, and a lot disturbing, but once you look past the insaneness, i'm quite interesting. → this is a mostly a place for me to wax horrible poetry and post cryptic rants that no one will understand but of late it has evolved into yet another angsty diary. but the last time i checked, that's what blogs are for. →also, lots of typos since i'm normally high (on life, not crack!), tipsy or depressed when i write my posts. seriously. → profanity galore. honest raw emotions. are you squirmy when it comes to emotions? → slightly unhinged. dancing on the edge yet in control. perfection is overrated. The likes ♥
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Credits Layout design by Eefennie. edited by mua. | Thursday, August 27, 2009 gah. is it bad that upon knowing that my sister will be going to australia in february, only three thoughts flew through my head: 1. how am i going to buy my albums now? no credit card! 2. if i buy an album and she buys an album then we'll have two D: 3. can my parents even afford to send me after they've sent her outstation? in that order. priorites. i haz them. ・・ [♥] ・・ anyways. i've decided to set goals. i never set goals. because i know that i won't meet them. but i've become a little more determined lately. or i will be. soon. my plan is to have all the fun i want now, play out my system before hunkering down for a serious year. but we'll talk about that later since its august and i can play till december. i just haven't decided what goals to set yet. i could set the usual stuff people do: lose weight! exercise more! but my aunt keeps complaining about me disappearing before her eyes and says that if i lose any more weight i'll look like one of those aneroxic models. according to my bmi, i'm underweight already but we all know that that doesn't really apply to asians. of course i see myself as perfectly sized but whatever. disillusioned self and all. i think i'll try to draw the line between fantasy and reality a little more. i will spend more time on real life things like family and friends. i'll note down everything next year into a scrapbook like those lj scrapbook09 projects. movies, outings, books, memorable moments. everything. i will make my life seem more worthwhile. i will make it better than this year. no more floating. epik till the death of me; 9:21 PM
► and now for the first time ever, real life stuff, complete with real life pictures. seriously now, four years and 600 posts and i have never mentioned real life friends or posted about real life happenings in detail with pictures. so anyway, went out. with friends. somewhere. (you can't expect me to have too many breakthroughs at once right? i have pictures; you don't need to know where they were taken) because of the H1N1 influenza thing going around, we can't go out to play ㅠㅠ 
this is not the right way to play basketball D:
 
and this is the result.
all in all, the day was good~
i hate this camera. the quality is crappy D:epik till the death of me; 12:56 AM Wednesday, August 26, 2009 ohmygod do you know how accomplished i feel now? tidied up the profile for epikjunior comm. and this. my pride and joy that took me forever to compile: ☆the epikjunior fanfiction masterlist its a list of most of the epikjunior fanfiction ever posted. what have i gotten myself into...? epik till the death of me; 11:10 PM Friday, August 21, 2009 AHAHAHAHA i'm not quite sane right now? (but really, the ones that are really insane are the ones who think they're sane so this means i know and admit my demise into insanity therefore i'm am perfectly sane? :D) props to you if you followed that sentence. if you did, maybe we should be bffs. and lol i'm totally ignoring all of my fandoms except for my newest little obsession: 2pm. or rather, one day. because OMG JAEBUM CHANSUNG JUNSU AND JUNHO believe in aliens. so precious~ now they join eunjiwon and hyunjoong in the I.SHIP.ALIENS list. sjoidoij you've watched wildbunny? specifically episode 5 of wildbunny with sunshinejokwon and seulongongong? :D video's got me moving my hips but i still can't move better than even taegyeontaecyeon. but EH. 2pms providing a lot of eyecandy lately. and a lot of lame jokes, especially comments involving nipples and t-panties (or as the whole world calls them, g-strings). and taceyeon has cemented his place in my heart as my #1 2pm member xD speaking of eyecandy, heartbreaker gd with white hair... MM~ now that, baby, just won you back a bit of your dignity. i haven't found gd appealing since... idk, red sunset? he was ~fine~ during last farewell but his fashion sense started commiting minor crimes them, even got himself a DUI (dressing under influence) xD still, gotta admit GD is big stuff, because everyone who's into kpop is buzzing about his album. hate it? love it? i only dig you're my heart- heart- heart- heartbreaker~ only because i have no idea how right round goes? now lee jiae's cupcake and aliens, that's a nice relaxing song. plus CUPCAKES. ALIENS. two of my favourite things right there. AND AND AND! kdramas? pfft. jdramas the way to go. even if they're pointless and plotless. doesn't matter; plenty of eyecandy and -_-" moments thats just light and fluffy enough for a casual evening. epik till the death of me; 12:52 PM Sunday, August 16, 2009 you're pissing me off sweetheart :| epik till the death of me; 9:25 PM Thursday, August 13, 2009 okay so i think its time i got my life in check? my philosophy in life is really very simple: fuck it. why stress today when i can watch that cute video of hyuk being an idiot? horrible philosophy if you have dreams of entering medical school but perfect if you're like me and wish to float through life like a kid high on crack. i'm great at distancing the bad stuff, wrapping it up and letting it nest in the back of my head until it gets bored and finds someone else to bother. i guess thats not quite working anymore. sure, life was great for the past two years. i blocked out everything negative and just faffed through the days, happy and giddy. but now lifes changing more than ever. i suppose its time to be rooted and responsible and all that shit i hate? in a few months my sister will be in australia so for a few years i'll be the only child at home. my grades are slipping but this i don't mind. my mom is complaining about me being distant and uncaring compared to my everperfectsister who asks about my mom's day and is an exact duplicate of my mom's personality. most importantly, i'm losing touch with reality. and.. i have no idea what i'm talking about anymore, so i'll just go onto... the main thing that's bothering me: my dad's serious about going to vietnam this time and fuck, i'm not going to survive there. no. possible. way. international school is so tempting but the surroundings aren't. i don't mean to offend; its just that my dad is working in a countryside-ish place, not hanoi or the other big cities. and what about my epic bodyguard verse?! and that alien thing?! its all collecting dust! And then Donghae is there, right in his face. Breath warm and moist against his skin. "Let me love you. Save me." epik till the death of me; 9:17 PM Monday, August 10, 2009 ATTENTION REAL LIFE FRIENDS. I NEED PICTURES. everytime we take pictures together, its always with your camera and i never get the photos from you guys so i have no document of our outings. SEND ME STUFF. epik till the death of me; 11:57 AM |