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About Me  jiaqian → fangirl. insane. beware. → am a little twisted, and a lot disturbing, but once you look past the insaneness, i'm quite interesting. → this is a mostly a place for me to wax horrible poetry and post cryptic rants that no one will understand but of late it has evolved into yet another angsty diary. but the last time i checked, that's what blogs are for. →also, lots of typos since i'm normally high (on life, not crack!), tipsy or depressed when i write my posts. seriously. → profanity galore. honest raw emotions. are you squirmy when it comes to emotions? → slightly unhinged. dancing on the edge yet in control. perfection is overrated. The likes ♥
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Credits Layout design by Eefennie. edited by mua. | Sunday, May 20, 2012 WARNING: LOTS OF PICTURES OF ME. every so often i feel guilty for not being a "normal" blogger and this is the result of such guilt. note that whenever a post like this comes out where i actually talk about my life, i am swamped with exams and assignments, so this is me procrastinating. first up, went to jay park's showcase last saturday! kiesha won tickets and she was an absolute sweetie and she gave me a ticket. she even offered me a photo pass. i do lub her. i was so uncharacteristically colourful that day! but i bought those pink pants a while ago and i've never worked up the nerve to wear them. i thought, what better place to dress ridiculously than at a kpop concert?   this was my third time seeing jay, and second time meeting him up close. he's certainly changed since i last saw him two years ago. back then his arms were white and free of tattoos (just one on his neck!). he was very shy and he seemed uncertain of his every move. maybe it was because i met him real early, the morning after a night of celebrating Junior's birthday, but he was dazed and seemed unimpressive to me. then, he was just coming back from america too. this time round, his confidence radiated off him in buckets. i was amazed and really impressed by his everything. he's succeeded in korea, and as korea forgets about the hate they had for him, it did wonders to him. jay, see what a bit of confidence does to ya ;D my exo k album arrived! it's a lot flimsier than i thought. production costs were probably pretty low. but the pictures are gorgeous and the whole design is unique.  i got my fringe cut for the first time ever!  immediately regretted it because i found out soon enough that it only looks good for like, an hour after you wash your hair. then it becomes flat and annoying and it gets into my eyes. i've never had anything like a fringe before so i'm really not used to it. to give you an idea of how long the front of my hair was, look below. this was my gdragon seaweed hair impression pre-haircut! yes, that's a brush in my hair.  did you notice that all i did was repost all the pictures that i already have up on twitter/facebook. it's hard to have anything left to say when you tweet about 100 times a day. anyway! i want to apply for AIESEC's Global Development Program. it'll be such an amazing experience! i'm eyeing the Poland program where we teach english to kindergarteners, but it'll have to depend on the timing. i can only go during my hols, which is from jan to march. if i can't go for that i want the Taiwan one, because it's to help the animals! you love me- my loves lie in animals and children. i'll have to go through an assessment first, but so far i see that they emphasize on language skills, which i'm pretty confident about. finally, a day when my slightly accented english comes into use! oh yes. I'M GOING TO KOREA. with my lovely fangirl babes. booked the flight yesterday, from jan 9th to 16th. i'm really really really excited. spent the entire night looking up guesthouses and such. fuck, this is such a dream come true i can't believe it's happening. epik till the death of me; 12:17 AM Sunday, May 06, 2012 small science lesson before i begin my post we all know that our brain has an autopilot function. after the brain recognizes patterns and a continued trend, it stops detecting things. this is how illusions work. we've tricked our brains into not seeing or not seeing what is there. it's a way of our brain to keep from overworking itself, to keep the brain from using space and energy unnecessarily. it keeps our brain efficient. that's great and all, but i think i've become too efficient. i realized that my mind is on auto-pilot 70% of the time. it wants to multitask constantly. as a result, i glaze over everything. give me a long block of text and i'll just skim it over and pick up the important points. it takes a huge effort for me to focus on the finer details and actually read it. i have attention problems :| even as i type this article it's difficult to keep my attention focused on this. i'm typing this, but reading an article at the same, and listen to korean radio. korean doesn't come as naturally to me as english does, so i'm actually focusing more attention on the radio content than i am on this post. and yet this post is creating itself. the thing is, i'm surprisingly accurate even when i skim through things. my mind works fast- i do things really quickly. i make split second decisions, i can pull a speech out of nothing even if it's about a topic i don't know about. i also always wondered about why people take so long on personality quizes. i zip zip zip and rate myself on the scale of 1 to 10. if you have to think about yourself, is it because you don't know yourself well? but i digress. most of the time however, my speedy choice will still be the choice that i would choose even after careful contemplation. i gain on speed and barely sacrifice precision. however i lose details. as you can see, somewhere during the post (possibly between the first two words of small and science), my mind derailed and focused itself on more pressing things like exo. this made no sense. yes. goodbye now. epik till the death of me; 2:37 PM |