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About Me  jiaqian → fangirl. insane. beware. → am a little twisted, and a lot disturbing, but once you look past the insaneness, i'm quite interesting. → this is a mostly a place for me to wax horrible poetry and post cryptic rants that no one will understand but of late it has evolved into yet another angsty diary. but the last time i checked, that's what blogs are for. →also, lots of typos since i'm normally high (on life, not crack!), tipsy or depressed when i write my posts. seriously. → profanity galore. honest raw emotions. are you squirmy when it comes to emotions? → slightly unhinged. dancing on the edge yet in control. perfection is overrated. The likes ♥
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Credits Layout design by Eefennie. edited by mua. | Saturday, January 19, 2013 happy new year guys :) i have disappeared for a while. i needed time away to think about things, and to recover from my dip in the murky pool of emotions. a great many things happened in the past few months. i applied to two universities, and am waiting for a reply. i went to smtown, the best concert of my life. i worked on a fan account, but lost steam. maybe i will continue. i finally saw exo!! almost cried over it too. life in taylors is over! i finished my exams on the 4th, and quietly left the university behind. no love lost there, but i'm not too keen on my new future either. it's a scary thing, knowing that your life will change in a month, but not knowing HOW. am i ready for life abroad? will i even go for a life abroad? i don't let myself dwell on that too much; it'll keep me up at night otherwise. i just came back from korea,which i will blog about after i sort out my pictures! i saw epikhigh with my own eyes. epik high. tablo. never in life would i have expected to see them, but here we are. met up with gesa and candice too! we've been promising each other for years, and now we've finally met up. this korea trip was surreal. (in fact i am writing this blog post from the plane back to kuala lumpur, and if we believe the captain, we're 35 thousand feet above ground) i do believe i'm over much of my slump. it came from the feeling of helplessness of struggling over my degree, and now that i've more or less opened up new options for myself, i feel better. i've also opened up a whole new dam, with a torrents of new confusing feelings, but i can just let nature run its course with that. i am hungry for change, so i shouldn't fear it. i keep reminding myself to stick to my resolve of no regrets. i never regret, and so i can enjoy. i feel so much better now. thank you to everyone who cared over the past few rocky months. i know i've been frustrating, and i can't even begin to tell you how grateful i am with your kind and encouraging worlds. i think all of you were the only reason why i made it into this year, and i wish i could return the favour to you ten fold. some of you live halfway around the world and could technically not care about some username on the internet, but you made the effort to reach out. you were the highlight of my weeks, and you've long ceased being just a username- you are a person to me, just as precious as any friend who's beside me physically. in fact, i probably talk to some of you more than i talk to my everyday friends. thank you. here's to new beginnings and new crossroads. cheers. epik till the death of me; 9:37 PM |