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Credits Layout design by Eefennie. edited by mua. | Saturday, December 14, 2013 i didn't do a year end meme last year and i'm not sure why. actually i do. i was a little too lost. but this year, so many things has changed that it would've been impossible for me not to do one. it's amazing how your life, your personality, your view of the world can completely change in one year. this will be my longest wrap up yet. 1. What did you do in 2013 that you’d never done before? i went on a holiday with the girls to south korea, said hi to tablo. i took a plane alone, flew off to melbourne to study abroad. i was homeless; slept on couches and took the bus. i got a boyfriend. i lost a boyfriend. i went to a strip club. i got a lap dance. i walked the streets alone at 3am and have never felt more free. 2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions and will you make more for next year? i think my resolution. was probably to be happy because last year was such a shitty year, and i think that i really, truly am. 3. Did anyone close to you give birth? my favourite cousin gave birth to a baby girl. 4. Did anyone close to you die? . my grandmama passed away after a long struggle. this will be my biggest regret of the year. i said goodbye to her at the hospital before boarding the plane and i knew that it would our last meeting. a week later, she was gone. 5. What places did you visit? i went to korea, taiwan, singapore and in a week, hongkong. 6. What would you like to have in 2014 that you lacked in 2013? i can think of nothing physical that i want, but i want to be more selfless. i am a self absorbed person and while i'm making a conscious effort to try to making the world about me, it's a slow process. 7. What dates from 2013 will remain etched on your memory, and why? march 26, when i flew to a new beginning. 8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? i achieved so much this year! there are the little things, like forming a PR club and gaining the trust of my lecturers. it pleases me so much to do well academically, especially when i love my courses. would it be cliche if i said that my biggest achievement was fighting my demons? 9. What was your biggest failure? i can't even think of anything i failed and regretted. 10. Did you suffer illness or injury? this year was relatively pain-free. sickness is mostly mental and when you're happy, it stays away. 11. What was the best thing you bought? my 3ds! pokemon x is fun. 12. Where did most of your money go? rent and living expenses. rent is a bitch. but mostly food. even if i skimp on everything else, i don't mind splurging on food. 13. What did you get really excited about? i was excited about going to korea with my best buds! it was really really fun ;A; i missed it. and ofc, i got excited about starting anew in a new country. it was equal parts fear and excitement, tbh! i was excited about my internship but lol that fell flat. 14. Whose behavior merited celebration? tlist in general. i'm really proud of them. if i started naming people, this would take forever, but i'm genuinely glad and happy for all of you. even if you think you've had a crappy year, you've made it so far! if that's not something to be proud of, what is? jailbaits, you've graduated high school! uni peeps, finals is over booyah! working tlist, here's to another year of (questionable) productivity! and of course, my babies, debbie - for being a bubbly ball of fluff even when there are shadows chasing you. you are very brave. suimei - for working hard on achieving what you want, and doing it with a smile. amanda - for always being positive and carefree. i envy how you go for what you want and still work for what is needed. 15. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? if anyone would make me appalled, it would be my own wrongdoings. i can't judge anyone when i'm doing the same. i suppose in a way, i thought some people were open minded but they turned out to be pretty traditional. i can't say i blame them. it's just a bit disappointing. 16. What song will always remind you of 2013? eureurong eureurong eureurong dae ~ 17. Compared to last year are you – Happier or Sadder? happier! Fatter or thinner? chubbier! Richer or poorer? poorer :( 18. What do you wish you’d done more of? have fun- get drunk, date more, go clubbing. 19. What do you wish you’d done less of? ponder about life and just let loose. 20. How did you spend Christmas? will spend it in hongkong! 21. What was your favorite TV program(s)? i didn't watch much tv this year. 22. What concerts did you go to? a concert featuring beast, 4minute and gna. ss5. a jay park showcase. 23. What were your favorite films of the year? maybe ... miracle in cell no 7. i didn't watch many films this year. 24. Did you fall in love? no. 25. What did you do for your birthday in 2013? i went to taiwan the day before. the day itself i went for a 5 hour long karaoke session with the girls, then uncle jang with my high school babes. they hid in my kitchen with cake and surprised me, then we had a sleepover. 26. Did you make new friends this year? lots! i made maybe over 100 new friends from all over the world in australia and tlist! i met so many new and wonderful people on tlist! 27. What did you want and get? i get everything i want. 28. What did you want and not get? i can't remember, which means that i must not have wanted it much. 29. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? seeing exo instead of missing out on them every. single. time. 30. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2013? kawaii. i went all out this year with the korean inspired fashion. 31. What kept you sane? tlist. i can't stress this enough. thank you. 32. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? kim jongin. lol fancy is a light term. 33. What political issue stirred you the most? gay marriage. child marriage. 34. Who did you miss? while i was in melbourne, my beautiful friends. 35. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2013. i am learning how to love others and most importantly, love myself. it's a slow process, but we're getting there. many people have said that i'm insecure and tbh the first time i heard that, i was shocked because i thought i was being strong all this while. then i realised that i am insecure, and after the realisation, i worked towards just building my confidence. epik till the death of me; 11:14 PM |