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About Me  jiaqian → fangirl. insane. beware. → am a little twisted, and a lot disturbing, but once you look past the insaneness, i'm quite interesting. → this is a mostly a place for me to wax horrible poetry and post cryptic rants that no one will understand but of late it has evolved into yet another angsty diary. but the last time i checked, that's what blogs are for. →also, lots of typos since i'm normally high (on life, not crack!), tipsy or depressed when i write my posts. seriously. → profanity galore. honest raw emotions. are you squirmy when it comes to emotions? → slightly unhinged. dancing on the edge yet in control. perfection is overrated. The likes ♥
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Credits Layout design by Eefennie. edited by mua. | Saturday, February 27, 2010 just came back from a 4 hour lunch. it's my great grandmother's 90th birthday. i met this relative of mine. she's my... grandmother's older brother's daughter. and she passed topik level 4! she studied in korea for a year or so and ugh, i'm so jealous! D: we attempted to speak in korean but everyone else was making too much notice for us to talk much so we gave up. and, look! you know those brain maps that are so popular right now? i made one for myself haha :D this is what boredom does to you.  epik till the death of me; 5:44 PM Friday, February 26, 2010 and now, happy news! :) EPILOGUE tracklist! 오 예~ 드디어!!!!!!!!!! ♥ *기대기대기대기대기대* put a lot into the album booklet for epilogue! words by mithra & photography by yours truly photography! ♥ god, i need new epik high music like you wouldn't know. all the epik music, especially remapping have around 200 plays each o.o and YESSSHHH recevied Everything is Illuminated as a gift! thank you thank you thank you! ♥ epik till the death of me; 10:51 AM
► personal opinion - fuck off fuck. i'm just full of resentment right now, so this will be a fullblown rant. i was hating on jaebum earlier, but after reading the articles, i'm hating on the fans instead. what the fuck are wrong with the fans? fans are asking for 2pm to DISBAND if jaebum is not coming back. and when wooyoung was reported top be crying, comments went along the lines of "who cares if woo cries, JAY IS NOT HERE AND THATS ALL THAT MATTERS." damn it, he is just a 23 year old kid who hates his job. why do you want to force him into this misfitting idol mould? seriously, return - community backlash, media attention, rabid fans who like you because you take off your clothes don't return - no more training, true passion: bboying, people respect you for your bboying skills, time with family GEE, I DON'T KNOW. when the news was relayed to me last night, i honestly felt nothing. we all expected it right? i said before, jaebum is becoming more like an urban myth; did he ever exist? he actually ranks in the lower half of my list and frankly, i completely got over him leaving probably a weeks after because my favourites were still in 6pm. it was obvious that he's enjoying it more bboying with his crew. and then the news of fans leaving the fanclub reached me and thats when i felt something. they're hurting the remaining six and when my Ultimate Bias Junho is threatened, I will be pissed. they worked so damn hard for this. why should they have to throw it away because of a foolish leader and an unprotective company? speaking of companies, i don't really think its jyp's fault. he's just a convenient target to direct rage onto. he KNOWS that jay leaving meant career suicide, not just for jay but also homicidal for the whole of 2pm. fuck fuck fuck DON'T LEAVE THE DAMN FANCAFE. WHY PROTECT ONE RELUCTANT KID WHEN YOU CAN PROTECT SIX OTHER CRYING INNOCENT ONES? onto other (equally bad) news: - HAHAHAHAHA SM LETS WATCH YOU SINK. avex, smart choice! - get well soon, hyukkie T___T all my biases T_____T epik till the death of me; 10:30 AM Monday, February 22, 2010 i've had a worrying number of people ask me about my sexuality. which is kinda lol-worthy, except some of them... are kind of serious :| i'm pretty sure i'm straight. ... 90% straight anyway. okay, maybe 70%. i mean, when top kissed hyori at the 08' mnet music awards, i was more jealous of top... and i may have this impulsive need to buy things for a certain someone of the same sex. but that doesn't prove anything, i say! so i support love in all forms. (well, except incestious love. and beastiality. and love for french fries. because thats lethal) is that so wrong? i like boys alright? and perhaps boys that look like girls. but i digress. look. boys boys boys!     
on a side note, my love for junho has grown to obsessive levels.he is now my current ultimate bias. if i ever meet him (when i meet him) my main goal will be to make his ears turn pink. when he's embarrassed, his ears turn red. isn't that absolutely adorable? comes in handy for detecting crushes, too :D spread the junho ghei love!   MY FAVOURITE!  epik till the death of me; 11:14 PM Sunday, February 21, 2010 i don't play with fireworks because i like having all my limbs intact, thank you very much. and i don't gamble because i lose 9 out of 10 games. and with the superjunior tickets and my korean lessons, i really can't afford to lose any cash! anyway,  got this off -would you believe it?- my mom's blog. if only she would stop mentioning me in her posts :| damn it, her blog has a waaaay bigger following than mine. each post gets at least 10 comments D: epik till the death of me; 9:51 PM Wednesday, February 17, 2010 and why do you do it?ps. to the person who asked for hyukjae/junho scandalous fic, i started on it, but i got distracted. now i have a hyukho cass mv au, a wooho anyband au and a junho/doojoon timeleap au. all wips, and quite possibly never to be finished xD i have the attention span of a goldfish T^T Labels: wordspit. epik till the death of me; 9:43 PM Monday, February 15, 2010 australia has claimed another one. sis just left for sydney. and on her desk, she left a gift. epik high's [e]. she knows that i treasure epik high more than anything. and i've been wanting this for sooo long. sigh. and now i'm all moody. i suppose 5-1=0 applies to family too. from the time between my last rant about my sister and this one, we've been getting along really really well. maybe its because she no longer had to go to college or work, but she wasn't grumpy anymore. we did some retail therapy together, even though i find shopping pointless and it was actually kind of fun. i think i'll miss her :| epik till the death of me; 10:18 PM Sunday, February 14, 2010 새해복 많이 받으세요! :) happy lunar new year and happy valentines day~! i went for indian food today and when we entered the place, the diners blatantly stared at us. i don't think they expected us chinese to dine there on cny. it was really festive though! all these indians were wearing red shirts or chinese patterned shirts. the owner was wearing a cheongsam. a lot of the babies were dressed in cheongsams too. so if the indians were wearing cny attire, so what were we wearing? ^^ tshirt and jeans. haha. and! and! one good thing about looking older (someone guessed my age at 20 the other day *SOBS T___________T*) i get offered alcohol wherever i go. sometimes restaurants have free drinks for ladies, like the mexican restaurant i went to today. free margaritas for ladies. woot! they tasted awesome too. even downed my sister's share xD epik till the death of me; 11:02 PM Wednesday, February 10, 2010 idea taken from someone in my f-list. to the boy with the curly hair, i could fall in love with you. you seem to be perfect, and with the sweetest attitude to match. too bad you're out of my reach. love, to the boy halfway around the world, make up your mind, kid. and stop stringing us along. love, to bbangjeom, cheer up, sweetheart. screw life and smile a little. contrary to what you think, the world doesn't hate you. so smile and remember that someone cares. love, to beijingfriedrice, idiot. and happy belated birthday, you fool. love, to snsd fanboys everywhere, look, i'll gladly fangirl snsd with you, Labels: letters. epik till the death of me; 10:56 PM Sunday, February 07, 2010 sigh. i am trapped by my own lies. serves me right, i guess. i can't even post what i want. ┐('～`；)┌ LOOK! EMOTICONS! ┐('～`；)┌ ヽ(´▽`)/ ヽ(´ー｀)ﾉ （ ﾟДﾟ） （ ´_ゝ`) Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ (´･ω ･`) ♪┏(・o･)┛♪ ㅇㅅㅇ epik till the death of me; 10:06 PM Friday, February 05, 2010 south korea has run out of ideas for shows. here are a few examples of shows from recent years: - junjin becomes a "father" and takes care of three unruly wild girls. (rudest girls i've ever seen) - celebrities are sent on a wild boar hunt. (and who was surprised when the show was cut after two weeks despite featuring hyunjoong, yonghwa and hara?) - fake marriage? (come on, admit it. we were all skeptical when it started) and now... a reality show based on blood type personalities starring u-kiss. called VAMPIRE, of all things. i'm a type B and so is dongho, the adorable maknae. watching the show, the kid (i'm his nuna wtf) is so similar to me it's scary. he basically doesn't care when his hyungs start squabbling. he unpacks his bag by dumping his clothes on the floor. he tries to talk everyone into doing things that he wants to do. i don't believe in blood types (can you split the world into four categories?), but reading up on the other blood types, i think B fits me best because i am neither tightly wired and detail-oriented (A), responsible and organized (O) or eccentric and interesting (AB). everyone knows blood type B has the worst attitude. koreans pretty much avoid type B men. in other words, sucks to be me xD Type Bs are: easygoing, creative, original, flexible, idividualistic, people-oriented, animal-loving, globally-oriented. on the flipside, they are: forgetful, irresponsible, self-centered, critical of appearance (but not their own) basically, type Bs are impulsive individualists who often create their own path in life. they are very strong and optimistic. Which i suppose is true, since i hate going down the trodden path and always make a point to support the underdog. but hey, look at the other Bs! top, junsu (from both 2pm and tvxq), changmin (tvxq), yoona, to list a few. all beautiful people :D epik till the death of me; 8:54 PM Thursday, February 04, 2010 this isn't right, wooyoung says as he trudges behind junho, snaking through the crowd of people eager to get home in time for the new years. yes, but it isn't wrong either. junho gives him a backward glance and beckons at him to move faster. come on, before they find out. wooyoung clutches his bag to his chest and hurries after the younger boy. he looks around uneasily, afraid that one of the passerbys might leap out and drag them back to the hellhole but no one even notices them. i don't think we should do this, he says hesitantly. if they get caught, they could be sentenced to much worse torture. he's heard the stories. no one ever made it out alive. we won't get caught, so hush. junho's voice is firm and he snakes his hand into wooyoung's to pull him along. wooyoung wonders where junho gets his confidence from. he's been so broken by the System that he doesn't have a single thread of confidence left in his body. at the thought of the warden's tendency to explode with rage and their love for Tasers, he fights back a shudder and sticks closer to junho. it isn't until they've reach the town of H73N9x that they relax. or at least, junho relaxes. wooyoung continues to fret. what if what if what if? junho fingers the crisp notes in the bag with wonder and grins at wooyoung. we escaped. at least we escaped. junho lets out a barking laugh that grows into hysterical laughter and soon he's on the floor, laughing out tears. wooyoung can't if it's because he's happy or sad. wooyoung looks at the greyish-red sky and thinks that things will never be the same again. 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