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About Me  jiaqian → fangirl. insane. beware. → am a little twisted, and a lot disturbing, but once you look past the insaneness, i'm quite interesting. → this is a mostly a place for me to wax horrible poetry and post cryptic rants that no one will understand but of late it has evolved into yet another angsty diary. but the last time i checked, that's what blogs are for. →also, lots of typos since i'm normally high (on life, not crack!), tipsy or depressed when i write my posts. seriously. → profanity galore. honest raw emotions. are you squirmy when it comes to emotions? → slightly unhinged. dancing on the edge yet in control. perfection is overrated. The likes ♥
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Credits Layout design by Eefennie. edited by mua. | Saturday, May 24, 2014 it's been a hell of a month. not to be cliche, but i feel like this really captures it- it was a rollercoaster of a ride. if last year was full of change that i embraced eagerly, this year i was offered change that i rejected. i think i was on a spiral downwards ever since we broke up. ah no, ever since i broke up with him, because i'm a cold bastard that dropped it on him without a hint. i'm sorry for not being able to deal with my inner turmoil better. i can't help but think that thanks to him, i've learned that i really do appreciate being alone. then came hurdle after hurdle. the leg gave me problems again after a full four months and with it was doctor after doctor after doctor. i literally kneed my laptop and broke the screen. i was alerted of some complications with my study map and was told i possibly couldn't graduate. even little things, like getting baekhyun's photocard felt like a rotten cherry on top my melted sundae. come at me, life, how much more can you throw me down? but i'm a firm believer that when bad things happen, it'll happen in a row, just so sweet things can seem sweeter. and likewise, when i'm happy, i'm always always cautious, because it means something bad will happen. life tests us like that and i remind myself to appreciate the happiness when it comes and to never lose hope when it's gone because it will come back. it's a motto that has got me through many, many dark days. or maybe i just consciously try to make it better for myself? in my fit of anger, i threw out the backpacking idea after my parents disapproved of my plan to work in cafes for a few months after graduation. they wanted me to fly back immediately after graduation, leaving me little time to say goodbye to everything that i've built up over the past two years. where i thought i had another 7 months to properly love melbourne and its people, i am now left with barely five. in five years, the holiday will end. and my parents didn't get that. i understand where they come from but from my point of view, once i go back, i go back. student life officially ends. so that's when i mentioned that if you wanted me to go back, then let me travel. my original plan was a month, which i renegotiated to two weeks. korea was a no from them, so i suggested japan. and to my surprise, they said yes. i just booked the tickets. it's official. me, the girl who gets lost wandering in the grids of tiny tiny melbourne, will be heading off alone to explore the kansai region. i ended up with 12 days, not 14, but that was of my own doing. due to costs, i decided to cut nagoya out of my trip (i did spend two weeks there before after all). now i have something to look forward to and i think it'll be my obsession for the next 5 months. i've already spent more time planning it than doing my assignments. (oops.) i'm so excited you can't even believe but also really scared. but i can do it. if there's anything i love more than anything in the world, it's travelling. epik till the death of me; 8:38 PM |