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About Me  jiaqian → fangirl. insane. beware. → am a little twisted, and a lot disturbing, but once you look past the insaneness, i'm quite interesting. → this is a mostly a place for me to wax horrible poetry and post cryptic rants that no one will understand but of late it has evolved into yet another angsty diary. but the last time i checked, that's what blogs are for. →also, lots of typos since i'm normally high (on life, not crack!), tipsy or depressed when i write my posts. seriously. → profanity galore. honest raw emotions. are you squirmy when it comes to emotions? → slightly unhinged. dancing on the edge yet in control. perfection is overrated. The likes ♥
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Credits Layout design by Eefennie. edited by mua. | Monday, April 30, 2007 Everything about him screams thug. I have to admit; the whole bad boy image is a total cliché, yet I can’t help myself. I’m a total fool for bad boys. Honestly, who isn’t? Okay, so I wrote this for fun, with GD on my mind. Then i realised, no, GD is not thug, gd is more wannabe-gangster. More fluff than tough, you know? Tempo, on the other hand looks the part. There aren't enough BigBang things out there. I watched all of the subbed videos on youtube. I need more. epik till the death of me; 5:20 PM Sunday, April 29, 2007 I'm happy. I made a GIF! I'm such a dork.  I made it small so it could be my avatar. epik till the death of me; 10:16 PM Saturday, April 28, 2007 owh mai gawd. Another post. Third post of the day to be exact. *hits self with toy hammer* I studied! -defensive- Oh sure, the subject of my studies is how to use photoshop but still. Its still learning something right? *little voice at the back of my head mumbling something about the exams being two weeks away* SHUT UP LITTLE VOICE THAT SOUNDS CREEPILY LIKE DONGHAE! wait, beanie-wearing-spacecadet isn't creepy, hae is lurve~  asdvjsdjfsdfo Adorable little epik till the death of me; 10:45 PM
► Ah~ I just hate myself. I promised myself i would spend the afternoon studying. Yeah, studying the How do you do? Nice to meet you, everybody. Today is saturday! Donghae is my boyfirend. ^^ Yes, this is a crap post. Ignore me. epik till the death of me; 5:28 PM
► Epik High's fan is so nice, but its MV is so freaky. I still get chills whenever i listen to it. Here's the Eunteuk version. Teuk is love~ Its the only way I can listen to it without getting a little paraniod. Theres a little dog who comes to my house everyday and now thinks he's my pet. He can squeeze through the grill on my gate so no matter how many times i carry him out he comes abck in. It drives my three dogs loco. He won't leave, though its not like we're sending out a stern message for him to leave, feeding him everyday and rubbing his tummy whenever we're free. I just checked, he's still lying down outside the living room window.  Hi puppy! epik till the death of me; 3:14 PM Friday, April 27, 2007 Hi, I'm back again. Dammit blogger, remember me! I blog everyday! Logging in each time is annoying~! I have no idea what to write. be back later. Why do they bother calling some of the BB mvs Bigbang mvs? Its all GD and tempo anyway, with a bit of taeyang. GD is adorable. I wanna squish him. Squishy. What am I talking about? Its 12.30 now. Meow. Lack of sleep getting to me. zzz Good night. epik till the death of me; 9:07 PM
► I'm screwed. My exams are almost here. My parents are going out of town for 5 days next week. They're gone today and tomorrow too. I have absolutely no self control so I know I'll be spending those days here in front of the computer. I havent started studying! Screwed. Can I kill myself, please? Even more reason to kill myself. *Dies laughing at own stupidity*  epik till the death of me; 10:30 AM Wednesday, April 25, 2007 *Yanks bitch away from Gd* I'll resume my job, thank you. GD! Ah, GD!!!! I can bet I'm the only person in my school who likes bigbang. I can bet I'm the only person in my school who KNOWS bigbang. 
Itching to photoshop So1 out of the pic and me into it. But I'm not a camwhore or a photogenic person so.. T.T
love~epik till the death of me; 8:27 PM Tuesday, April 24, 2007 Obviously I'm not a good bigbang fan. I was watching the "She Can't Get Enough" Performance where they have an onstage outfit change ^^ and there were these  I'm a very bad girl. The performance should be rated R. This picture loaded. I'm not laughing anymore. ='( 
Theres worst photos, but I won't show them. They were openly parading Tempo's undies. Haha.epik till the death of me; 10:42 PM Sunday, April 22, 2007 GD's This love is so nice. Its basially a remake of Maroon5's This love. Some say he stole the song, I say he made it better. It doesnt matter that J doesnt want you, because I do. I'm crazy. I cut out hae's parts from most of the songs. haha. epik till the death of me; 1:37 PM Saturday, April 21, 2007 I read about the accident the night after the accident and I was trembling so much i couldnt type properly. I think i scared my sister. I just stood up without saying anything and went upstairs to cry. It took me a while to click on the youtube link to the news on the accident. i couldn't bring myself to do it. i was trembling as i clicked play, i was already holding back tears from seeing kyuhyun on that stretcher. my friend came up to me that morining and said suju was in an accident and i thought she was joking. I've calmed down alot, but the pics of kyuhyun made me cry all over again. sigh... the malaysian entertainment newspaper had the accident news, but what made me angry was that it mainly focused on the eunhyuk-junsu incident. sm has the right to freeze suju and put them on hold after all these things happening. i just hope they don't. What made me the angriest was my friends. So you don't care about suju, i don't mind, nbut do you have to keep asking "so is he dead yet?" I got so angry I left a huge bruise on her leg. And she's always hurting me, unintentionally or intentionally. Pushing me, hitting me, slapping me. And she wonders why I'm cold to her? I've been quiet at school, just thinking about the boys and other things, yet my friends keep annoying me. "why are you acting weird?" "Listen to my ghost stories!" I hate ghosts and if you saw you loved ones being carried on a stretcher onto an ambulance, you would be quiet too! I feel like pushing wuzun off a cliff, see how she feels. then maybe she'll understand how it feels. Oh, and heechul closed his cy. BigBang is so nice. Especially the G-ri love. One last question: Have you participated in all the kyuhyun projects? show him some love! epik till the death of me; 7:49 PM Wednesday, April 18, 2007 Some guy named 60row insulted TVXQ, Sgwannabe and Big Bang in a song. Of coursed I'm pissed, I love all 3 bands. He just insulted the bubblegum pop genre, the hip hop genre and the ballads genre. Okay, so tvxq was marketed as an acapella band, they even have their names listed on the international acapella society list, but i bet they're the only "acapella" group to have a 100k strong fanclub. And thats just people in the fanclub. Sg is so innocent. Why rag on them? Because they have a few top hits and you don't? Aish~~ a few songs have been stuck in my head for days. What songs do I like? Songs that I can't help playing over and over again. Dbsk- Begin, Proud, White Lies Superjunior- Tic Toc, Dancing Out, So I, HIT KRY- Hansaramaneul SG Wannabe- Nae Saram Big Bang- B I G B A N G, Dirty Cash(omg this song is the best!) Eru- White snow Shinhwa- The Street, Once in a Lifetime CSJH- My everything, Dreams Come True BoA- Dotch, Girls on Top SS501- 4Chance(i'm addicted!) Younha- Audition Fly To The Sky- Condition of my Heart Kangta- Persona Battle- Icarus SmTown- Red Sun Rain- Handshake, Friends Se7en- Wajo part 2 Anything else? I forget. epik till the death of me; 7:57 AM Tuesday, April 17, 2007 Big Bang. 5 boys, GDragon. T.O.P(Tempo), Seungri, Taeyang and Daesung. All fuent in English, one speaks japanese, one speaks chinese. Oh my. I simply love their offcial site. The web master obviously put a lot of thought into it. Its so nice, give it a visit, especaially their profiles. When your mouse passes the back prefiles of the boys, they turn around. Click on them and they walk forward. So cute! epik till the death of me; 9:42 AM Sunday, April 15, 2007 SECTION 2 - HAVE YOU EVER + Fallen off the bed? : Never~ + Broken someone else's heart? I don't think their hearts were broken, hurt and with a bruised pride, yes, broken heart, no. + Had your heart broken? Nope. and i thank god for that. + Had a dream come true? No, because my dreams are impossible to achieve. I mean, marrying Donghae? tsk. SECTION 3 - CURRENTLY... + Wearing: Black all over. + Listening to: Big Bang- B I G B A N G. I love that song. SECTION 5 - LAST PERSON YOU... + Talked with on the phone: I refuse to reveal his name. -its a he, you hear that?- + Texted: Same boy i just called. SECTION 7- FAVORITES + Show: Superjunior Fullhouse! SECTION 8 - DO YOU.. + Like to walk in the rain: LOVEit.<3 + Prefer black or blue: Black all the way. + Stay up late or sleep in: I'm a nightowl. + Spring or Fall: Fall, i loves those leaves! + Happy or sad: Happy, DUH. SECTION 10: FIRSTS. + First piercing/tattoo: when i was 4. I'll never get a tatoo. SECTION 11: LASTS. + Last time you cried: Just now, korean mvs make me cry :') + Last phone call: Hours ago. SECTION 12: CURRENT. Current mood: Giddy from all that Donghae Current annoyance(s): The fans who don't believe in donghae. SECTION 13: WHO LAST... 1. Made you smile: Donghae 2. Saw you cry: Noone sees me cry. Never. SECTION 16: ANSWER TRUTHFULLY... 1. Do you like anyone right now: yeah, donghae. 2. Do you believe in love at first sight: My love at first sight is atrraction for a few weeks, then nothing. 3. Do you fall for the wrong guy: Wait till i fall for one, then I'll tell you. I'm bored. Help me. I love the BIGBANG official site. Its so cool! epik till the death of me; 2:29 PM Friday, April 13, 2007 Donghae was caught swearing. To directly quote what i said in AF: I'm not disappointed at all. ITS JUST A LITTLE SWEAR! Who can say they never sweared once in their life? donghae probably has had less than 5 hours of sleep and was flying here straight from some interview or other to another performance or show. If we as fans won't forgive him, WHO WILL? anyone other 17 year old would be completely dependent on their parents but celebrities debut at an early age, have insufficient sleep, have to worry about stalkers and antifans, perform almost daily, have to watch everything they say, have hordes of fans screaming for them, pushing, nudging, doing anything to touch their idol. YOU would curse too. The thing is, the people who personally heard him swear had already forgiven him. We should too. "I'm extremely dissappointed in Donghae after reading that "Swearing-to-fans-incident". He's my favorite SuJu. I love his voice and dancing skills. Well, 2nd fave next to Hyuk Jae in Suju. But now...? Getting irritated is understandable. Getting angry is Forgivable but to Swear? It's totally dissapointing" Girl, you call yourself a fan?! Like I said, I'm not disappointed in donghae at all, I'm not angry at the girls who nudged and tugged at him either, I'm disappointed in the fans who critisised him. I was so angry this morning I was TREMBLING. When I saw the clip, i was like, oh well. Then i read the comments. Whatthefuck is wrong with you fans?! The poor boy apologised for gods sake. You pitiful antis with no life, please, look at yourself. Spending your energy hating someone is so dreadfully tiring, isn't it? epik till the death of me; 10:47 PM Saturday, April 07, 2007 Sm is having a competition. I spent hours browsing through the entries. I especailly love these 4 boys. They're hella good! One sounds like Jaejoong and looks damn hot, one wears kibum red rimmed glasses, one sounds like junsu, one looks like yunho. Oh, they're brilliant! epik till the death of me; 10:45 PM Thursday, April 05, 2007 13 boys together is great, but you know what i love? When hankyung, heechul, shiwon and kibum can't perform, donghae normally takes over kibum's and hankyung's parts, those plus his own=A LOT OF SINGING PARTS! Either sungmin or kyuhyun or sometimes donghae takes over heechul and shiwon parts. I LOVE THEM BOTH! actually, i love them ALL. Wanna see the clip im talking about? Hae keeps singing. epik till the death of me; 9:29 PM Wednesday, April 04, 2007 NII photoshoot is LOVE! Theres so much shihae, a bit of eunhae jealousy, Kyu sings Timeless and many many cute things! Theres a part where it was just shihae wearing a shirt saying FRIENDS. At least write WITH BENEFITS if you don't want to write LOVERS. shiwon looks over to hae. hae looks over to won. they look a little while longer, notice the caneras focused on them and immediately stops. AW! DONGHAE SINGS! Until some ass of a girl interupts him and interviews him. He said something about the clothes being pretty and that he likes it. There were no subs so i couldn't catch the rest(he keeps saying hanmyung which means one person, but i dont know what he said). MY GOD HE'S CUTE!!!! THERES LIKE 2 MINUTES OF HAE!AHHHH~! Get me a shirt that says FRIENDS. epik till the death of me; 9:20 AM Tuesday, April 03, 2007 i don't get moved to tears easily, but this clip made me cry. Its just a live performance of Endless Moment, but with Heechul and Donghae missing. Donghae's dad just passed away and Hecchul got into his accident. Everyone looks so sad... epik till the death of me; 8:49 AM |