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About Me  jiaqian → fangirl. insane. beware. → am a little twisted, and a lot disturbing, but once you look past the insaneness, i'm quite interesting. → this is a mostly a place for me to wax horrible poetry and post cryptic rants that no one will understand but of late it has evolved into yet another angsty diary. but the last time i checked, that's what blogs are for. →also, lots of typos since i'm normally high (on life, not crack!), tipsy or depressed when i write my posts. seriously. → profanity galore. honest raw emotions. are you squirmy when it comes to emotions? → slightly unhinged. dancing on the edge yet in control. perfection is overrated. The likes ♥
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Credits Layout design by Eefennie. edited by mua. | Monday, December 31, 2007 In a few minutes, this year will be over. Ah, let me think about what I accomplished. . . . . Nothing. Perfect. Just the way I like it. epik till the death of me; 11:30 PM
►  Oh fuck. Brian Joo approved me for facebook. Of course, he approves everyone, but still epik till the death of me; 9:29 PM
► watched the SBS BBxWG Minidrama. sohee. please. you have hands. eat your own food. ALEX. OMG YOU HOT CANADIAN! shit i would so dump sunye for yoobin. sunye is pretty, but yoobin is just... sexier? and YAH what kind of crappy ending was that??? Why do i feel the NEED to punch sohee whenever i see her? The KBS Music Festival is no doubt the best thing I've ever seen on tv. made me so happy I couldn't even sleep. I lost count of how many times I cursed, especially during the HAEHyukDong performance. I said fuck when i saw gd, when i saw donghae, when i saw sg, when i saw jaejin. and kangin. and ryeo. and when the sluts, i mean, girls came out and danced to horrible songs. and when wondergirls went offtune about a million times. when seungri danced BECAUSE HE JUST FREAKING CAME OUT OF THE HOSPITAL. when suju performed. and when JYP performed, because i made a mistake of looking at his crotch and is therefore scarred for life. GD almost made me scream. that stripped shirt baby hat ensemble. SHIT. i could understand every word of the musical~ yay~ oh, and they put a hot tablo teacher fantasy in my mind. english literature can never be the same again. KANGIN IS THE HOTTEST THING! i fell in love with him after watching that! after that, i saw him in a totally different light. I almost screamed when i saw him, but i couldn't because it was past midnight. i want a hot teacher like that. i want a hot classmate like that. i also want a hot flasher like that. please epik till the death of me; 8:55 PM Saturday, December 29, 2007 I don't really like the Suju thread anymore. Every few days, someone comes in with another rumour and i have to spend time setting them straight. yeah, like donghae is really getting married next year. idiots. epik till the death of me; 9:20 PM Wednesday, December 26, 2007 SHIT. SHIT. WATCH THESE Super Junior - 이차선 다리(A four-lane bridge),Music Space 071225 Super Junior - 애인있어요(I have a love), Music Space 071225 OMG HYUKJAE SINGS??????????????????x mvzsdnrfgzsdilfjweo;asdjwefksdzl;kasrzdfljxghvjk' THAT MADE ME SCREAM AND SCREAM, oh, and i slammed on the keyboard so hard a few keys got stuck GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH THEY WERE GREAT! caps can't say how i feel now. i would bold it if i could why am i so happy? kill me please? i think i'm crazy. OMFG. and just when i thought i couldnt get spazzier, i watch I HAVE A LOVE HAEEEEE *SQUEALS* JUST JOIN KRY ALREADY HE CAN SING! SHIT. FOR GODS SAKE SING MORE HAE! YOU KILL ME WITH YOUR VOICE. AUDIO RIP AUDIO RIP. i hate you suju for making me spazz excuse me. i tend to spazz when suju does a great job. go ahead. ignore me. i'm still high over buying bigbang's hot issue. epik till the death of me; 9:09 PM
► I bought hot issue for myself as a christmas present~~~!!! set me back a few months of allowance too. BUT WORTH IT! .jpg) hey, anyone bought it and actually assembled this?: .jpg) Its the 3D figure of GD. its not even a flattering picture of GD, and it has the BUN. the bun has mannyyy pieces. I had a hard time choosing between this album, the first mini album, SS501's 44chance(i don't even like them), two different SGwannabe albums(sooo tempted) and Shinhyesung's 1st album(i like dongwan better) Anyway, i bought the album, looked at everything, then put it back into the plastic. i don't think i'm ever gonna play it ^^ epik till the death of me; 8:21 PM Tuesday, December 25, 2007 merry christmas~ epik till the death of me; 12:22 AM Monday, December 24, 2007 I'm spending christmas eve AT HOME ON THE INTERNET. geez, get me a life. Holler if you're like me Its eerily silent out there. Where have all the carollers gone? My parents are out, so there aren't even any comforting sounds of the tv. Theres something pathetic about being home on holidays. Christmas cheer is dying. I sense that yearly angst rant coming up, but i refrain. remain merry. remain merry. We didn't even drag the tree out this year. I'm a buddhist, but still, we drag the tree out previous years, just because it looks pretty. epik till the death of me; 8:45 PM Sunday, December 23, 2007 
So hot.
1. V.O.S- Maeil maeil. Love2. Bless- December 32th. Love-ier 3. Alex from Clazziquai. Canadian. Speaks english. Cooks. Soothing voice. Perfect. 4. Wanted & Leejung- Kajima kajima kajima. Stuck in my head. Damn. 5. Tablo- Nocturne. ENGLISH. 6. Tablo & Pe2ny- Track 01. Eternal Morning. Track 12. eternal Mourning. 7. Kyuhyun & Min Kyeonghoon- Miduhyo. A song on constant playback -get the quote from promise u?- 8. Happy Hae=happy me. epik till the death of me; 3:29 PM Saturday, December 22, 2007 I went to the SM auditions the day before yesterday~ Didn't audition, just went to give support to my friends. .jpg)
Spent the day rolling small little glutinious rice balls for the Winter Solstice Festival. I bet I'm one of the very few who bothered to keep alive the tradition, much less REMEMBERING the tradition.
 They're yummy =) .jpg) I got a little creative, you see. I made swirls, leaves, flower petals, but my grandmother came over and ruined everything. =( .jpg)
TVXQ! .jpg) Look at all those balls~ .jpg)
Cooked tangyuen. .jpg)
Finished product! epik till the death of me; 5:12 PM Tuesday, December 18, 2007 I'm back! I CAAVEDDDDDDDD. i bought the repackaged version C~~~~~~~ it was cheap! and hae was calling to me. BUYMEBUYME SO YOU CAN STARE AT MY HOTNESS EVERYDAY! I HAD TO. after drooling for 48483024903 minutes over the pics, i realised it doesnt have the two new songs. GAH. sm sure knows how to earn money. i'm guessing only version D has kaljung and the girl is mine? i also bought suju T's album. heechul was too pretty to resist. WHAT HAPPENED TO MY SELF CONTROL????? oh, and suju was in the taiwanese newspapers! i was in the plane when i read it, and i let out a little shriek, scaring the poor guy beside me ANd the final thing i bought... YUNHO AND MICKY Designed tshirts! They can't draw. seriously. epik till the death of me; 8:59 PM Saturday, December 15, 2007 HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETIE XIAH! to celebrate i bought a keychain of you! still in taiwan. the hotel has crappy connection I saw K one and Alan kuo just now. haha Its not even that cold here I bought suju repackaged version C even though i already have the original. I bought the yoochun and yunho designed shirts too. RM 65 each. so much cheaper than msia. Geez, i need better self control epik till the death of me; 11:53 PM Thursday, December 13, 2007 i leave in an hour. to taiwan. Happy early birthday junsu epik till the death of me; 11:41 AM Sunday, December 09, 2007 Somehow I found myself at 星光帮 (Xing guang bang)'s signature session. My friend had to go to singapore. She had their cd; she wanted their signatures. I offered to take it for her, because I watch the show sometimes, and i had nothing better to do. Before they came, I did my homework. At least I tried. I listened to the album a few times, so I could recognise the songs, kinda. I only managed to match their faces to their names the day of the signature session. So we went. The place was only 5 minutes from my house. They were suprisingly friendly, a lot of interaction with the fans. Too bad I'm not a fan. And of course, they could sing, better than half the artists in the industry now. Peter, i love his name PETER PAN, signed first. And he smiled and shook lightly. 林宥嘉 signed his name Yoga, like wtf?, and his grip was really brief. He used his left hand to shake. He stared at me while waiting for peter to finish signing. He has really huge eyes, and its somewhat unsettling. I told周定伟after he shook my hand,“我也喜欢东方神起！“ he replied“阿，真的吗？ 那你要加油噢！“ Why he asked me to 加油 i have no idea. My friend was like, "djksfasdjslj YOU SAW THEM LIVE> YOU HEARD THEM SING. YOU TOOK THEIR SIGNATURES AND SHOOK THEIR HAND. YOU SPOKE TO HIM ABOUT DBSK?! GOD, YOU SPOKE TO HIM. HE SPOKE TO YOU." She went all the way to Batu Pahat, a full 4 hours drive away, to meet them. She should have reached by now. Pictures. I randomly picked the screencaps i made, so it may not be the best pic.      epik till the death of me; 10:01 PM
► I'm pissed at the internet. I'm pissed at all forums. GAH epik till the death of me; 12:10 PM Saturday, December 08, 2007 REASON WHY I HATE YOONA: 1. SHE SANG WITH HAE. 2. SHE'S ALWAYS ALL OVER HAE ON SUKIRA 3. SHE STARRED IN ONE TOO MANY DONGBANGJUNIOR MVS 4. SHE MANWON-ED WITH SEUNGRI 5. SHE WENT ON SPONGE WITH HONGKI 6. SHE'S NOT EVEN THAT PRETTY *narrows eyes KEELKEELKEELKEEL TOGETHER WITH FAANA AND RAIE AND THE REST OF FANGIRLS WE KEEL all of hae's fans hate her too, so we won't be suspects ^^ i want her head on my desk by tomorrow i wouldn't mind so much if it was any other girl. tifanny is good, she looks like hongki. sooyoung, though she hosts a daily show with min and wants jaejin in unstoppable marriage, is okay too. I don't like the mv. It lost the traditional lovey fuzzy interaction between the sm cast epik till the death of me; 9:05 PM Friday, December 07, 2007 GAH I NEED ETERNAL MORNING SOLO INDIVIDUAL. If my friend sees this she'll give me a whole lecture on how i NEED water, oxygen and food. I don't NEED that kpop CD or song. I WANT it. Screw her. Want very much=NEED. I NEED INDIVIDUAL LINKS OF TABLO+PE2NY. epik till the death of me; 4:08 PM
► His first sms: Are you free on the 30th? His second sms: Wanna go sunway? His first call. Ignored. His third sms: Is there something wrong with your phone? His second and third call.Ignored. His fourth sms: OMG WHY AREN'T YOU REPLYING?! His fifth sms: i may have missed your sms. I'm talking to ten other people. His fourth call. Ignored. His sixth sms: Are you asleep? His seventh sms: So do you want to go out on the 30th. His fifth, sixth, seventh, eighth call. Ignored. Me: Me go out with any group of people that involves you? Over my dead body. You don't get very subtle hints, do you? No wonder my friend put you on her call block list. You're this close to being a stalker. Pause. Finger hover over send button. Message deleted. Message actually sent: Sorry, my brother is coming home on the 29th. I can't go anywhere. I think I'm too kind. epik till the death of me; 4:02 PM Thursday, December 06, 2007 The other day I was hanging off a tree -why was i hanging off a tree?- Oh yes, I was trying to rescue a sweet old lady's cat. So anyway, I risked my life for a cat and suddenly I slipped. I was hanging off the tree by my fingers and I was losing my grip! Oh no, I fell! So thats how I would die. Death by feline caused fall. But instead of impact, I felt hands wrapping around me. I look up into the most beautiful eyes I've ever seen. Eyes belonging to a sexgod named Jaejoong! His beautiful eyes look into mine, and he opened his mouth. The most angelic voice I've ever heard started crooning a love song. I tried to duet with him but due to my lack of singing skills i simply hum along. He gasped, "I've never seen someone so kind and beautiful. Risking her life for a kitten! We must get married!" i agreed immediately. He was like a prince charming straight out of a fairy tale-actually straight out of an anime more suitably describes it. He bears so much resemblence to anime characters it scary- we don't have evil stepmothers, but we do have evil cassiopeans. Love prevails all and people stop objecting after they see how much we're in love. We get married and have tow little kids who look like Inhwan(Jaejoong asked why they look so much like Junsu, I look away) and live happily ever after. He gave me THIS. 
Obviously I just watched Enchanted. I've never been a great fan of fairy tales. I always try to pick faults in the stories. Because everyone breaks into a song and dance in the middle of newyork city. Hongki is an exception. He's SPECIAL. Maybe i should start believing because who knows?
someday, my prince will come.epik till the death of me; 12:16 PM Tuesday, December 04, 2007 I seem to have a flair for picking out books that have homosexual content in it. Or maybe there are just too many out there. My mind tells me its a message from above. I tell my mind to shut up. On a somewhat related topic, I write yaoifics of 13 boys I'm crazy over. I make them kiss and breakup and do things I shouldn't be knowing about. sometimes theres even character death. That should be enough reason for me to visit a psychiatrist. I aspire to become a psychiatrist, because insane minds are much easier to screw with. I can make them think they're chickens. epik till the death of me; 8:02 PM Sunday, December 02, 2007 It worries me a little. I'm such an introvert. Whatever happened to that girl who went out at least twice a week and chatted for hours on the phone? Now, even two minutes on the phone is rare, and i haven't been out with my friends since the holidays started. I agreed to go out with my friends this tuesday, only because one of my fangirl friends told me a movie was nice. They wanted to go iceskating. I hate iceskating. Its a small rink, and you share it with about 100 other people. Oh wait. I just cancelled tuesday. I'll watch enchanted with my sis instead. Sad how I choose hanging out with my sister more than my friends? epik till the death of me; 10:27 PM
► a boy from xingguangbang sang dbsk's hug in chinese during his competition. he even danced. how cute. epik till the death of me; 10:07 PM Saturday, December 01, 2007 OMGGG the ft island mv~!!!!!! HONGKI IS CHANNELING HIS INNER ALIEN! or something. JUST LIKE DONGHAE donghae's alien teachings must have gotten to hongki Seriously, does Hongki have to steal EVERYONE's crush??? The girl is awfully pretty. who is she? and why does SOMEONE have to take a picture of hongki with a girl in every mv? not to mention fight scenes. BUT YAY WONBIN! ME LOVE THE BIN. ^^ epik till the death of me; 10:41 PM
► Today in korean class we revised the ...면(if) Teacher asked me, 김준수만나면, 뭐하고싶어요? (if you met kim junsu, what would you do?) I answered 키스해요(kiss) She was horrified. "안돼요!!! (you can't!) Maybe when you're older. 뽀뽀can, 키스를안돼요!!" I bet she thinks I don't know the difference between kiss and bbobbo, and that i made an innocent mistake. Please. I know the difference. Why would I want to 뽀뽀 Junsu when I can 키스해요 with him? If you don't know the diff, 뽀뽀 is innocent, a closed lips kiss or a kiss on the cheek. 키스 is tongue and stuff. Eeteuk explained it in great detail on a clip, saying his first 뽀뽀 with his girfriend ended up a 키스. epik till the death of me; 8:42 PM |