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About Me  jiaqian → fangirl. insane. beware. → am a little twisted, and a lot disturbing, but once you look past the insaneness, i'm quite interesting. → this is a mostly a place for me to wax horrible poetry and post cryptic rants that no one will understand but of late it has evolved into yet another angsty diary. but the last time i checked, that's what blogs are for. →also, lots of typos since i'm normally high (on life, not crack!), tipsy or depressed when i write my posts. seriously. → profanity galore. honest raw emotions. are you squirmy when it comes to emotions? → slightly unhinged. dancing on the edge yet in control. perfection is overrated. The likes ♥
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Credits Layout design by Eefennie. edited by mua. | Friday, January 30, 2009 epik till the death of me; 11:36 PM Thursday, January 29, 2009 if i ever get a tattoo, i want a tiny treble clef on my lowerback.
 epik till the death of me; 3:22 PM
► how. the fuck. are we friends? i went bloghopping among my small circle of friends and among their circle of friends and hell. it struck me again how different i am from them. i'm the complete opposite of their perfect friend and yet they accept. because i'm me. loud, brash, narcissistic me. someone said i look cold and am hard to approach. its nothing i can deny. i can be sickeningly sweet -helping out at orphanages, volunteering to help a teacher, being extremely polite and full of big, wide smiles- but i can also shut down -eyes cold and flashing, attitude haughty, snide smirk-. its just a matter of when you catch me. but i'm not all bad. i'm researching volunteer abroad programs. i'm eyeing one program where volunteers work at a penguin conservatory but that requires me to be 18. i can be the sweetest, most suppostive friend you want if i feel like it. i'll listen, i'll console, i'll tell you my own story to make you feel less alone. because we're all the same. screwed up individuals. i'm so glad i've been told by some i inspire them and that i helped them through a hard time in their lives and that i made them happy. they tell me i'm great and supportive and thank you. it makes me want to be nicer to them and i shower them with compliments and try, try, try to make them feel loved. so many of them are brilliant and beautiful and why can't they realise that on their own and i can help them at least boost their confidence. you, my real life friend will never see that side of me. epik till the death of me; 2:56 PM Wednesday, January 28, 2009 /sadness/ actually, more like /disbelief/ wonbin left ftisland. how... sudden. and. i'm amazed to see how fast the fans' faith has shaken. its hard to grow up in the spotlight anyway. the guy isn't even 20 yet. he can go to uni now. epik till the death of me; 10:53 PM Saturday, January 24, 2009 pieces of you (english version) the book at US$16.04 + shipping ($12.00 per order + $5.99 per book)= $34.03 converted, it'll be RM 123.02 WANT. VERY MUCH. PLZ. Labels: pieces of you epik till the death of me; 5:54 PM
► lol. let's scare the heck out of my friends. my mother's friend brought over a box of clothes that her daughter doesn't wear anymore and gave them to me. I don't think the mom actually checked what her daughter put in there because under the jeans on top were gothic lolita outfits. skirts so tiny they barely covered anything, lace, corsets, skulls, a pant leg (not a pair of pants, but just ONE LEG with lots of chains and skulls), tight tops... all very sexy stuff. and this is the safest outfit of them all. 
i had fun.epik till the death of me; 3:42 PM Friday, January 23, 2009 Cross country race today. ow head hurts. ow legs hurt of course, this is the perfect excuse to ignore the ever growing pile of homework in favour of the perfect remedy... junjou romantica is. so. much. love. SOOOO CUTE. i've been basically blowing off everything else to watch that darn anime. japanese anime, dramas and movies are scary; they suck in right in. i don't watch anime n general. i only like anime with big-eyed pretty boys. this (and ouran) has just that. plus, all that cuteness and hotness and lovin' mashed into each 30 minute episode. GAH. the story focuses around 3 couples who are connected to each other. they show these connections through various flashbacks and sudden leaps in the stories so sometimes it may be confusing but geez, this is an anime, not rocket science, so you catch on pretty quickly. they say the anime is just like the manga, minus the smut. epik till the death of me; 8:26 PM Sunday, January 18, 2009 OH SURE. CEMENT YOUR SLUT STATUS WHY DON'T YOU, HEECHUL? you know, kissing a boy on the mouth -your BANDMATE NO LESS. the one with the cute, innocent image- for the second time on stage in front of 21321309218321093 fans is not a good strategy to make the media stop calling you gay. you were complaining about it, remember? "Newsflash: I'm not gay." *proceeds to molest hyukjae* i think it was during some photoshoot? hyukjae said he loved you right after? oh who am i kidding. you're so gay you outshine rainbows. /taking bets on who heechul will kiss next./ Labels: superjunior epik till the death of me; 5:20 PM Wednesday, January 14, 2009 i read. and i wonder. what is their purpose? maybe i should. 
f-ing hot.epik till the death of me; 9:39 PM Tuesday, January 13, 2009 JAE+GUN. JAE+GUN. JAE+GUN. JAE+GUN. and new debutee dancing. MM :D (i like the way you got no shame, do that thing, so insane. yeah baby, new favourite sentence.) Labels: tvxq epik till the death of me; 8:44 PM Saturday, January 10, 2009 ♪ THE EPIK HIGH FRIENDING MEME! epik till the death of me; 9:27 PM Tuesday, January 06, 2009 I love it when my blog shows up in google. Wouldn't believe the amount of friends I've met that way. epik till the death of me; 8:25 PM Monday, January 05, 2009 ohmygod happiest girl alive is me. OH GOD. HEECHUL KISSED JUNGMO. ON THE LIPS. IN FRONT OF 271234781290 FANGIRLS. AT A CONCERT. YOU SLUT! the tease almost kissed sungmin too and he looked so damn PROUD. i just want to wipe that smirk away epik till the death of me; 6:39 PM Friday, January 02, 2009 and now you know why their words are so beautiful, so real. because its raw. its personal. tears. beatings. bruises. slit wrists. blood. death of their beloved and closest. lost friendships torn apart. betrayal. real emotions. real pain. real fear. is pain a price to pay for great writing? Labels: wordspit. epik till the death of me; 9:17 PM
► my brother gave me two obama t-shirts bought from america. they're so huge that they can only be worn as sleepwear but wtf there's no way i'm going to sleep with a grinning obama on me xD epik till the death of me; 7:23 PM |