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About Me  jiaqian → fangirl. insane. beware. → am a little twisted, and a lot disturbing, but once you look past the insaneness, i'm quite interesting. → this is a mostly a place for me to wax horrible poetry and post cryptic rants that no one will understand but of late it has evolved into yet another angsty diary. but the last time i checked, that's what blogs are for. →also, lots of typos since i'm normally high (on life, not crack!), tipsy or depressed when i write my posts. seriously. → profanity galore. honest raw emotions. are you squirmy when it comes to emotions? → slightly unhinged. dancing on the edge yet in control. perfection is overrated. The likes ♥
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Credits Layout design by Eefennie. edited by mua. | Friday, November 30, 2007 Heard of 민경훈 (Min Kyeong Hoon)? He's the lead singer of Buzz (or buzzy buzzy, as Micky so nicely wrote in his thank yous. why did he thank buzz anyway?) and is really hot. Looks aside, I love his voice. He sounds rockish, like jaejoong and heechul. Anyway, he has a solo mini album out. IMO it sounds like any other buzz song. And why wouldn't it be? He's the solo singer for buzz, and this solo album is just him with a new band. Ooh, and i downloaded Sgwannabe's new album too. If they released their albums here, I wouldn't support downloading. But, NOOO. the only sg album available here is with the photobook, and that costs around 150, 200 with their signature. epik till the death of me; 12:32 PM Thursday, November 29, 2007 ITS HYESUNGIE'S BIRTHDAY! HAPPY BIRTHDAY~ epik till the death of me; 7:35 PM
► my sister's blog Go for a small picspam of tvxq's concert. But don't tell her you got the link from here, because I'm not supposed to know she has a blog XD I LOVE CHRISTMAS! I'm in th midst of downloading tons of christmas song sang by my favourite korean artists. That way, I can stay true to the "I only listen to korean artist" thing ^^ epik till the death of me; 11:49 AM Sunday, November 25, 2007 OMFG IM IN CHINA PRESS. LOLOLOLOL nnot sure how big the actual photo is, since I'm in singapore and all i have to go on is the pic from the website, but I recognise myself =) I knew I'll be in the paper or something, because I'm in the second row of the vvips. Reporters were everywhere. epik till the death of me; 11:07 PM Saturday, November 24, 2007 THE CONCERT. I CAN'T TYPE. I'LL TRY. I HAVE TO LEAVE FOR SGPORE IN a few hours. i have to sleep. damn.They started off with Phantom and a few other songs. After that, the aquarium effect. OMFG. SO COOL. They dropped a veil to make it seem like water, a girl came down, suspended. they put really cool bubble light effects. then junsu swung down slowly from top and rescued her, but her hand fell from junsu's grip and she fell. so cool. then the rest of the members descended. They sang a ballad. Highness made me forget what song. Junsu took over Yunho's dance in the front part of O. Poor susu was so tired. Yunho didn't dance most of the fast songs. His back =( Balloons ROCKED. They came out in little cars. They actually operate the cars themselves. Changmin was just in front of me so i saw him the clearest. He handled the car like a pro. The car barely fit in the stage. He zoomed up and down it. LOL. Junsu was in front of me, but WHYWHYWHY didn't he turn to look at us? He just faced the LG rockzone. damn. micky.. just a few feet in front of me. I DIE. Changmin was in front of me for half the concert XD! Junsu's solo. FUCKING HOT. There was rain poring down and everything. Baby slipped on the water though =( Micky's solo. I LOVED IT. One last cry is hot. Changmin's solo. He was too far away to see properly =( Jaejoong's solo. OMFG CAN ANYONE BE THAT HOT? PERFECTION. Yunho's solo. A random cute boy popped up and started rapping, then yunho popped up. HE DANCED. despite his bad back. Jangriin went offtune a couple of times.She's nervous. But yay her! You're performing internationally now! THE LAST FEW SONGS~~ Everyone went crazy and ran to the bars -screw secu- and started filming. It was CRAZY. DBSK WAS SO CLOSE! JUST IN FRONT OF ME! Junsu sat down! There was yoosu and jaechun! all caught on camera! my really clear fancam! Junsu and Yunho did a couple of really funny dances. Yoochun and Jaejoong hugged to pop a red balloon. Changmin jumped rope with a couple of back up dancers. Failed after third attempt. Then he let the dancer wrap the rope around him and drag him away. I'll be back on tues for more updates. Singapore now Labels: fan account epik till the death of me; 11:57 PM
► A few hours later, I'll be at TVXQ's concert. I have VVIP seats, RM 803. I'm worried that I'll be late. because I'm following my friend, I have to wait for her to go. We can only go at 5.30.Judging by how many cars there were on the street, we won' be there till late. epik till the death of me; 11:17 AM Friday, November 23, 2007 On the day of their release, Big Bang is already topping music charts. Three songs from their new minialbum "Hot Issue" is in the top ten of Cyworld Music Chart. "Last Farewell" is 1st, "Fool" is 2nd, and "But I Love U" is 5th. Not only that, "I Don't Understand" is 12th and "Crazy Dog" is 15th WHO DOES THIS?  Crazy little talented babies =) the next 1tym? listening to last farewell, it could DEFINATELY be the next lies. the short preview yesterday didn't show its addictiveness. oh dear, that'll be stuck in my head all day OKAY, SAW THE NEW PICS AND OH MY, GD! sexy little boy. he's a hae, pulling off both cute and sexy at the same time. i'm struggling to categorize the boy, sexy, cute, sexy, cute? epik till the death of me; 12:33 PM Thursday, November 22, 2007 sometimes i'm just overwhelmed with the need to write; not pen on paper write,but typing on keyboard writing.you know how some artists can only use one media for art? Only on canvas,or using only acrylics, or just chalk; he can't create his art if he used something else. Well, that's kinda like me. I HAVE to use the computer to get out what i'm saying, i can't write it out on paper. I had an injury to my wrists once,and it still hurts when i write too much, so i hate writing on paper. Another reason is that i kinda lose control of my hand when i write.my mind thinks this,my hand writes another,normally a shorter,less frilly version of what i think. Maybe its because i'm too lazy to write,or its because its a natural instinct to protect my wrists from hurting. One more reason is because my handwriting tends to be illegible when i get in a mood to write.i don't write fast enough for my liking so i scribble to keep up with my brain.i like to reread what i've written,and i can't even make out my own scrawls. Of course,there are downs to being such a picky writer,mainly being i cannot access a computer whenever i get an inspiration.i am merely a teen with normal house rules,and using the computer at midnight(thats when usually i feel like writing)is simply unacceptable.i have no choice but to lay awake in bed,trying to ignore the ideas forming and nagging in my head,until i fall asleep nearly an hour laer.come morning,i forget whatever i thought of and they are never shown to daylight.when i DO get to the computer,i am too distracted by forums and pretty boys to write nonfandom stuff.the only things i write are forum replies and 1000word fanfics. How am i writing this though? i wrote all of this in my phone. Yes,its a 2 inch screen. I'm often forced to do this. i type all my fanfics here before i forget them,draft them and synchronize the messages to my computer later. The maximum letter count for a message is 1600 letters,and i often type enough to fill two or three messages.Needless to say, my thumbs hurt often,imagine your thumb moving across 9 tiny buttons about 5000 times. Still, its better than my entire wrist. Buy me a laptop? epik till the death of me; 2:22 PM
► Its almost christmas! I realised that when the opening bars of a familiar christmas song started playing in a shopping mall. Looking around, i noticed a few other stores got into the christmas spirit and had decorated their stores with red and green snowflake filled themes. Is it just me, or does the holiday spirit dies a little each passing year? Anyway, i love christmas,which is weird,since i never celebrate christmas. I just like the idea of christmas-giving,forgiving and all that. Christmas charols and decorations just make me happy. I spent last christmas on a snow mountain in korea that didn't have much christmas spirit,but i played with a bit of snow,hence letting me have a white christmas,so i wasn't complaining. This year, i guess i'll spend it like every other year, a family lunch at a hotel, and home after that. I wish we exchanged gifts and such,but the most we do is drag out the christmas tree(We're buddhist,but i insist on the used each year. Christmas trees are pretty) Anyone wants to give me the perfect christmas this year? I'm free ^^ epik till the death of me; 2:21 PM Wednesday, November 21, 2007 You girls think there'll be a winter album this year? i don't think so. snsd and superjunior has just released their own albums, and sm doesn't really care about dbsk any more since they're in japan. so many people, there were 34 on last count, that plus 9 SNSDs. i'll be surprised if they ddn't split them into two groups and release two songs. if there was a song, it'll be released by now, or at least there'll be news of photoshoots and recordings and such. i really hope they do, its a sm TRADITION. they just can't break it! epik till the death of me; 11:34 AM Monday, November 19, 2007 I was up till after 3 talking to my sister, talking about our usual subjects, DBSK, Superjunior, venturing into other more serious topics, money, our future, education. Not normal topics a 14 year old talks to her siser about. Is it not roof that Im more mature than my peers my age? Its frustrating not having anyone understand what I'm talking about because they deem what i say too deep. The person i talk to most is a 24 year old, go figure. epik till the death of me; 1:45 PM Sunday, November 18, 2007 MKMF sucked. I'm not exactly happy, not for Bigbang, not for Suju, not for Epikhigh, but yes for Ft Island, the only winner that i think got the right award. not to be mean, but its true that a lot of artists won by default simply because shinhwa boycotted it. shinhwa and dbsk pulled out, cancelling all performances, forfeiting all awards(explains why CSJH won the dance award and Leeseunggi won ballad) so the fans protested and such. without the dbsk/boA performance it sucked even more. All the people i wanted to win for a particular award didn't and instead won an awrad i wanted another person to win.Bigbang didn't win best hiphop, epikhigh did (sure, they deserved it because their music is ever evolving and improving whereas bigbang is just bigbang, but i'm biased, so..) i wasted my entire afternoon sitting in front of the computer and TVANTS just HAD to buffer when anyone i like comes up. No one noticed that Superjunior wasn't exactly happy? They were just like ho hum. Daesang's the BIGGEST award of the year. i expected tears, smiles , ANYTHING> not motionless expressions. compare their reactions to DBSK's crying fest last year. What made me laugh was Shiwon's mouth pulling into a perfect =( anyone saw that expression? epik till the death of me; 12:19 PM Friday, November 16, 2007 Here is how blue tastes like: So i opnede the bottle and revealed like 234432423423423 seals, then I smelt it. It smells like perfume, not good nice smelling ones either, butmore along a car freshener smell. Then I TASTED it. Listen up, everyone, because BLUE tastes like perfume with dissolved sugar and a million chemicals. It gets better after a few sips, but it still tastes like those cheap lollipops you eat just halfway and throw. I'm not even going to THINK about the amount of colouring, flavouring and preservatives going into my body now. epik till the death of me; 2:46 PM
► So I went to daorae just now, and Daorae ahjushi gave me a DBSK concert poster. Before I left, he thrust something into my sister's hand, "Here. free." What was it? I looked, and HOLY SHIT. DBSK CONCERT TICKET!!!!!!! Anyway, it says PIT LEFT and complimentary is written on it. I'm in such a dilemma. i was planning to go with another friend and she's in the process of buying our tickets, but she hasn't bought them yet. if this is the mosh tickets, of course its way better than the one i plan to buy, plus, left pits=YOOSU. but if i go with this ticket, she'll be left alone and i feel bad. sigh... Well, anyway, Daorae Ahjushi! ILOVEYOU! I am your number one fan. I will help you advertise! I went to eat kimbab just now and it was delicious! The seaweed was even coated with a slight coating of sesame seed oil to further enhance the taste and aroma. I tell you, this PWNS sushi. epik till the death of me; 2:30 PM Wednesday, November 14, 2007 I'm a lucky person. A lucky and ungrateful person Go on and click, it'll make you think Okay, I admit I'm a little sappy now. Might be the vodka. epik till the death of me; 10:33 PM
► Oh yay i bought another bottle of blue liquid! Not alcohol this time, don't worry ^___^ Its in a cute blue teddy bottle. I have no idea what flavour it is, because on the bottle(its all in korean) its written: BLUE. I'm not sure how blue tastes like, but I'll tell you as soon as I drink it =) epik till the death of me; 2:21 PM Tuesday, November 13, 2007 Because fangirling deserves an entire new post. MARRY U MV IS OUT! AFTER AGESSSS OF WAITING. Damn, I can't stop fantasizing about a eunhae marriage. nyeh. the boys in white suits with nice fancy animation. Oh, who am i kidding. the boys in white suits are enough a reason to fangirl. its different from what i expected. i expected a eunhae wedding. OH DKLJSL:SK:KS: DONGHAE. WHY YOU SO HOT. you turn my brain to mush. WHY IS THERE SO LITTLE HAE? SERIOUSLY> WHY DO THEY NOT SHOOT HAE WHEN ITS HIS PART. OMG WHY DOES KIBUM LOOK LIKE A NERD? A CUTE NERD Am i the only one who thinks heechul, hankyung and wookie looks weird? Oh, have i fangirled about anyband? This is probably the smartest marketing decision they've ever made. They targeted classical, pop and hiphop fans. The songs are so catchy. And the MV is cool! Rebel junsu is too hot. Guitar stealing tablo is love. BoA is beautiful, as always. And Bora's piano skills are nice. epik till the death of me; 8:39 PM
► Blue drinks are defiantely not good. I woke up with a blue tongue the next morning. I was in Point B! searching for some DBSK miStick(which I think isn't produced anymore because theres a new kind of box without DBSK on it) and I found a can of SPAM! SPAM is canned meat, if you didn't know. So i told my sister to read out the ingredients, and she was like, "ERIC?" "ERIC IS IN THE INGREDIENTS?" "No, Eric is on the CAN." She thrust the can under my nose, and yup, eric was on it, in all his hotness. YAY ERIC AND KOREANS' FAVOURITE CHILDHOOD FOOD, SPAM! epik till the death of me; 8:38 PM Saturday, November 10, 2007 I'm running out of fanfic ideas. Read them please? I'm on every page. I'm the user madelyn93 Link >>> SJFH seriously, if you don't have an account, sign up for one. SJFH is one of the best Suju forums around. 300th POST! I should not be drinking whats in my cup now. 1. Its alcohol. We all know its bad to drink. 2. I'm FOURTEEN. I'm pretty sure thats illegal. 3. Its BLUE> Blue coloured liquids do not belong in tummy. What the heck. You know I love flavoured vodka. It leaves my tummy warm and fuzzy. epik till the death of me; 8:51 PM
► LG shine TVXQ concert edition. To buy or not to buy? Decisions, decisions... ANyway, I have only one day to decide because I'm getting a new phone tomorrow. epik till the death of me; 8:12 PM Thursday, November 08, 2007 Fear.. Something I have not experienced for a very long time. Thats great, you think? I'm becoming pretty emotionless. I have not felt joy, fear, or excitement for ages. I had to go for acupuncture lately for the pain in my wrist. Thinki 6 to 8 needles sticking out of you, connected to a machine that sends electrical pulses into you. A nightmare for needle fearers like me, right? I felt nothing. Joy. What has made me happy? There should be a lot of thins. A fieldtrip with my friends yesterday, knwoing we're going to taiwan... Nothing. Lust, something else unfamiliar. I have not had a crush on someone other than a celebrity for two years. epik till the death of me; 1:51 PM
► my heart aches. it aches for the future of superjunior. it aches for every one of the poor members who are played like puppets. it aches for henry who is merely a victim in this whole business. lets be optimistic and believe-as hard as it is to- that leesooman isn't an idiot, okay? any day now, sm will announce they canceled the decision. being optimistic is a million times better than killing ourselves over this. I am amazed at how unbelievably dense Sm can be. You want money. fans=money. Making fans boycott SM=no more money. If dbsk didnt leave sm, i'll be surprised. Anyband cf is out. Junsu plays this rebel graffiti artist. Tablo steals a guitar. They attempt to send messages to the "No talk, No play, No love" nation through their phones. Damn. epik till the death of me; 1:33 PM Tuesday, November 06, 2007 Happy anniversary darlings~ Who can tell me the difference between the new and old version of marry u? Seriously. The girl is mine strangely reminds me of ss501 갈증 is nice, has a catchy beat. Its remix is even nicer. Why? Because of one sentence: Lets go down to your basementHow wrong that sounds. Yeah, Hae, if you asked me, I'll agree in a flash! epik till the death of me; 11:11 PM Thursday, November 01, 2007 oh yes, my suspicions have been comfirmed. SNSD sounds the same in all 11 songs. Their voices are annoying. Download the album and hear for yourself. Exactly the same. Bump by minwoo is love. bump by Suju is 374237904234823042304x the love. epik till the death of me; 10:35 AM |