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jiaqian
→ fangirl. insane. beware.

→ am a little twisted, and a lot disturbing, but once you look past the insaneness, i'm quite interesting.

→ this is a mostly a place for me to wax horrible poetry and post cryptic rants that no one will understand but of late it has evolved into yet another angsty diary. but the last time i checked, that's what blogs are for.

→also, lots of typos since i'm normally high (on life, not crack!), tipsy or depressed when i write my posts. seriously.

→ profanity galore. honest raw emotions. are you squirmy when it comes to emotions?

→ slightly unhinged. dancing on the edge yet in control. perfection is overrated.




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    Tuesday, September 18, 2012
    ► again.
    i think i'm a bit depressed.

    it's not that serious, but i have all the symptoms:
    i can't sleep well - i wake up at least 3 times per night.
    i can't concentrate
    i lost my appetite - i actually groan at the thought of dinner
    i'm losing too much weight - see above
    i feel hopeless
    lost my confidence
    itched too much for a beer -still want one now
    and i've been so irritable for a while now.
    also i ache all over. my back my shoulders my head.

    last year was the happiest year of my life, and early this year i was still pretty damned  satisifed.
    ... and now.
    guess this shows how important your environment is.
    i don't like my university. i don't like my coursemates.
    every day i feel lethargic.

    exo becomes my escape and i'm needier than ever. maybe that's why i exploded into fandom again after so many years of cooling off.
    my ot12 bbys. you're the highlight of my life these days.




    epik till the death of me; 8:17 PM


    Sunday, September 09, 2012
    ► where to now?
    sigh. i'm a bit confused and lost right now.

    so i hate my university. no particular reason. or rather, there are a whole string of reasons. the main one being that taylors is a fucking mess, and the messed up administration has me hesitating in putting my trust in them.

    i just started looking into other universities and if i do transfer credits i will have to change my major... right now i'm a public relations and event management double major. i've been looking into partnership universities because i figured it'll be easier to change credits but they don't really offer what i want. pr is a course of its own, not under communications. it is usually with law or marketing, both of which i don't really want.
    and none of them offer event management.

    what should i do now?

    if i transfer credits, i'll be going overseas next year instead of in 2014.

    and i don't even know which country now.

    i need some serious course counselling now, but god knows taylors is useless.

    epik till the death of me; 6:15 PM