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About Me  jiaqian → fangirl. insane. beware. → am a little twisted, and a lot disturbing, but once you look past the insaneness, i'm quite interesting. → this is a mostly a place for me to wax horrible poetry and post cryptic rants that no one will understand but of late it has evolved into yet another angsty diary. but the last time i checked, that's what blogs are for. →also, lots of typos since i'm normally high (on life, not crack!), tipsy or depressed when i write my posts. seriously. → profanity galore. honest raw emotions. are you squirmy when it comes to emotions? → slightly unhinged. dancing on the edge yet in control. perfection is overrated. The likes ♥
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Credits Layout design by Eefennie. edited by mua. | Saturday, March 31, 2007 oh damn. donghae can break dance so good! epik till the death of me; 2:34 PM Friday, March 30, 2007 I have friends over for a sleepover. So how can I still be writing this? Well, I have two computers. They are happily using one while I'm blogging/foruming/youtubing on this one. When will suju's new song H.I.T be out? I'm impatient. epik till the death of me; 11:45 PM Thursday, March 29, 2007 "hey cat, eat!" Sanitary boy. Feed yamchae, stroke yamchae, eat the same thing he just fed yamchae, feed and stroke again. Yes, i mean donghae. I miss the boy. I haven't been able to come online for a few days. AHHHHHHHHHH my sis just bought snow dream! hankyungs luyuyouyue program aired on tuesday. I screamed when i heard this."there are 3 ranks of dance classes in SM, A, B and C. When i first entered SM, i was in rank C. Within half a year, i was upgraded to rank A. There were only 3 people in rank A, me, DONGHAE~ and eunhyuk."See? this proves who the three best dancers are. shindong should be in A too. epik till the death of me; 8:58 PM Sunday, March 25, 2007 I saw Five in Black at a store today. I expected it to be RM50, at most RM70, but 145?! Come on, Dbsk's fanbase are around the age of 13 to 20, meaning we do not have money to buy stuff as expensive as that, like the all about dbsk DVD which costs a whopping 350 or a cassiopeia membershuip(RM120). Anywya, the CD was put beside rokuko, Jangliin, ChooseyLover(it has one song, yet it costs75), miss you, step by step. All these Cds arrived earlier than i expected. It took 3 months for Jungbanhub to reach msia. I seem older than my true age. How many times have I heard that? Maybe I do like acting older when i meet strangers or when I'm online. I adopt an alter ego when i go online. I'm no longer JQ, the frustrated 14 year old whos stuck in a class with overly smart people and forces a smile on her face everyday because she hates revealing sadness in front of people, but madelyn, the carefree 14 year old who fangirls and types things that makes people think she's 17. Eech. I'm emotionally unstable right now so I predict a very long post. At least I feel like writing, but I have writers block. I hate this. I always think of a million things to write but don't have access to the internet at that moment so I have to wait till i can and by then, i completely forget what i'm about to say or is just too plain lazy to write it. epik till the death of me; 8:06 PM Saturday, March 24, 2007 I hate my computer. Wait, i can't anger her(i dubbed her drama queen. she has anger problems.) I hate my modem. I can anger it all i want, i want a new one. Five in Black. I want it. Buy it for me. I like Promise. Light(his name, i can't remember, i can only remember Kenichii. L is so freaking adorable) from deathnote reminds me of hankyung. doesn't he? Interview with donghae.
Its funny how they discuss donghae so seriously. I love it hmm.i have this theory, that that eunhae thing is merely a diversion, a decoy if you may. kihae is the real deal.it's just that kiBum is really a private person and takes pains to appear detached from the group to protect kihae from growing into a kangteuk-like mania. Donghae also does his part --thus the perpetuation of the eunhyuk donghae pairing. Eunhyuk is a good friend to help them out.yes, yes *nod* But there are times that kihae isnt that careful and thus the kihae shots---those rare, fragments of evidence of kihae luurvv which is as i have observed mostly paparazzi shots/ out of focus/ unlike the eunhae ones or kangteuk ones. Actually, your theory is very plausible. :D Kibum is like the most private person ever.he's on crack, and I love him. XD *SQUISHES* donghae crack kills I got all those from the kihae livejournal (I linked it in my blog. go there) epik till the death of me; 10:27 PM Sunday, March 18, 2007 Dbsk's japanese songs are beoming more sensual. I hate them. epik till the death of me; 11:27 AM Saturday, March 17, 2007  ohmygod im so giddy why? well, because of THIS GUY!
I'm telling you, he has the same effects as crack would on me. I just picspamed AF just for the fun of it. Wanna see? http://asianfanatics.net/forum/index.php?showtopic=252120&st=850&gopid=3645259&#entry3645259 need to go into rehab for donghae overdose. He's like a drug i can't give up.Then again, do i really want to give up hae? epik till the death of me; 3:54 PM
► 140th post. i thought this blog was going to be an one time thing. Who knew it could survive this long? Like in Asianfanatics-> madelyn93 ,Group: Members+ ,Posts: 260 , Joined: 5-September 06. Who knew i could be into suju for so long? I actually feel like I BELONG there. madelyn seems like your situation is quite bad x_x get well soon madelyn's speakers~ madelyn93> Welcome back! Everyone here sure missed and do remember you. =) madelyn93 :lmao, i haven't seen anyone else here that's 13 ;O mostly everyone is older, glad i found you haha : ) hahaa ;DD & omg .. we have too much in common ; Ooh no, i just read what happened ! where do you live?!that's crazy > i hope things are okay though =] See? Like my real friends care about my speakers or computer being busted. I need someone who shares my interest. Non of my friends like kpop, in fact, they shush me when i even mention Kpop. It'll be like, "superj-" "stop. no suju!" I don't even bother to explain who suju is to most of my friends. They can't even swallow dbsk and i want them to like a 13 member boyband? They ask whos suju, i go "oh, you wouldnt know. its a korean thing" and they just leave it at that. Sigh... i should get new friends. Noone reads my blog right? Then i can blab all I want! i just found the best site ever! http://community.livejournal.com/donghaeya/>< epik till the death of me; 2:39 PM
► 140th post. i thought this blog was going to be an one time thing. Who knew it could survive this long? Like in Asianfanatics-> madelyn93 ,Group: Members+ ,Posts: 260 , Joined: 5-September 06. Who knew i could be into suju for so long? I actually feel like I BELONG there. madelyn seems like your situation is quite bad x_x get well soon madelyn's speakers~ madelyn93> Welcome back! Everyone here sure missed and do remember you. =) madelyn93 :lmao, i haven't seen anyone else here that's 13 ;O mostly everyone is older, glad i found you haha : ) hahaa ;DD & omg .. we have too much in common ; Ooh no, i just read what happened ! where do you live?!that's crazy > i hope things are okay though =] See? Like my real friends care about my speakers or computer being busted. I need someone who shares my interest. Non of my friends like kpop, in fact, they shush me when i even mention Kpop. It'll be like, "superj-" "stop. no suju!" I don't even bother to explain who suju is to most of my friends. They can't even swallow dbsk and i want them to like a 13 member boyband? They ask whos suju, i go "oh, you wouldnt know. its a korean thing" and they just leave it at that. Sigh... i should get new friends. Noone reads my blog right? Then i can blab all I want! i just found the best site ever! http://community.livejournal.com/donghaeya/>< epik till the death of me; 2:39 PM Friday, March 16, 2007 I MISS YOU INTERNET! Whoever invented the internet*why didn't you patent it?* I LOVE YOU! 7 days... The longest time I've been without internet in 3 years. Wow, that sounds bad.Well, lightning struck my house, breaking parts of the roof, a few pipes, killing one of the computers, the modem, the speakers, the connectivity card on this computer... I hate lightning. You know how they say lightning never strikes the same place twice? Liars. My modem has been struck THRICE. For some reason, it took the Tmnet guy A WEEK to come and fix it. I've been drawing to keep me busy. So far, I've done epik till the death of me; 8:24 PM Monday, March 05, 2007 Im so jealous. my friend went to leehom's concert and she phoned me and left the phone on, tempting me. and he was singing my favourite song at that time! he'll come next year... epik till the death of me; 9:21 AM Saturday, March 03, 2007 July birthdays 10 - Edison Chen (1980) 10 - Gong Yoo (1979) [Actor] 10 - Han Eun Jung (1980) [Actress] 10 - Han Eun Kyung (1980) [Actress] 10 - Hee Chul (1983) [Super Junior] 10 - Seung-Hyun (1981) [M5] You're not serious? EDISON CHEN? I got it from this thread. http://www.soompi.com/forums/index.php?showtopic=111704 they forgot one> 10 - madelyn93 >__< epik till the death of me; 4:36 PM Friday, March 02, 2007 I wonder, who defines how 'cute' or 'handsome' or 'pretty' looks? During a chinese dynasty, the fatter you are, the more beautiful you are because apparently obesity signifies wealth. In some parts of Africa, the longer your neck/earlobe/lip, the prettier you are. Less than 100 years back, bound feet were pretty. Now, you have to be cute or beautiful(read:big eyes, full lips, big breasts-normally fake-). Girls torture themselves an awful lot for guys, don't they? The more i read or watch about suju/tvxq, the more human they become. Now, to me, they're just overworked boys who lost their childhood to moneyhungry Sm. What spurred this? Three days without internet access, if you'll believe it. Exam stress=one very emotional me. I think an awful lot during the days before the exams and I was looking at the pics of hae looking horrible with eyebags/pimples and i was wondering what sm was doing to the boys. Then i watched dbsk at an interview and the camera zoomed over the reporters and i was momentarily shocked. Theres a hellalot of reporters there. The poor boys sleep for less than 5 hours a night, after a day of nonstop photoshoots, radioshows, gameshows, interviews, performaces and basically parading themselves for the world to see, to wake up the next day with MORE of the same stuff to do. Why did they want to become stars? epik till the death of me; 10:48 PM |