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About Me  jiaqian → fangirl. insane. beware. → am a little twisted, and a lot disturbing, but once you look past the insaneness, i'm quite interesting. → this is a mostly a place for me to wax horrible poetry and post cryptic rants that no one will understand but of late it has evolved into yet another angsty diary. but the last time i checked, that's what blogs are for. →also, lots of typos since i'm normally high (on life, not crack!), tipsy or depressed when i write my posts. seriously. → profanity galore. honest raw emotions. are you squirmy when it comes to emotions? → slightly unhinged. dancing on the edge yet in control. perfection is overrated. The likes ♥
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Credits Layout design by Eefennie. edited by mua. | Wednesday, November 29, 2006 I've just been scrolling through the Culture shock section of the forum I visit and i'm wondering, why do people stereotype so much? Stereotype example 1: Asians are smarter. make this conclusion based on the chinese living in America or any other non-asian country. Chinese living in non-asian countries are more hardworking, that's all. If you were living in a society where everyone basically looks down on you, you would work harder too, to prove those people wrong. We aren't born smart(oh how i wish i was!) Stereotype example 2: Asians are skinny. It's easy to explain this. We eat less crap then you do. Have you compared the size of your meals to ours? Your small meal is equivalent to our extra large. Besides, not ALL asians are stick thin, the people around me are NORMAL. And another thing, foreigners like to go "Ching Chang Chong" to us Chinese. When somebody mocks a language whether it be chinese, Indian, a African language, etc, it shows a lack of respect and that you're ignorant. So what if I'm not the same ethnic group as you are and I have another language? There is a saying, "Only a fool mocks that which he does not understand" To all those non-asians: Insulted by this entry? deal with it. epik till the death of me; 4:33 PM Tuesday, November 28, 2006 FIVE DAYS. I haven't used for five days. Wait, um, it's more like 3. I went to an overpriced cybercafe on Saturday when I was in the tourist trap Genting Highlands. The upside to not being able to use- I got a new computer! The downside? Everything in the old one is erased, including the 300+ Korean songs and the 500+ DBSK pictures... What did I do to past time during the computerless days? Well, I read my first Chinese novel. That's right. Me, a Chinese girl with a Chinese education, who converses in Chinese daily, have not read a Chinese novel before. The sad part? I didn't finish it. Chinese words distract me. I have so much more to say but I can't. I have to catchup with the news! 5 days and the forum I visit already moved 15 pages. Ta~ epik till the death of me; 11:57 PM Tuesday, November 21, 2006 I've watched Vacation. Yea, THE Vacation. The movie/drama DBSK stars in that I've been waiting 4 months to watch. Actually, I watched it two days ago. Comments? Part one, Cassiopeia- Yunho's story. His acting has not improved. The storyboard of this one is a typical romance thing. Part two, Beautiful Life- Dammit, why pick Heebon as the lead girl with Xiah again? And Max, as usual, doesn't have any on screen romance. Part three, The Way you Are- My god, Jaejoong got beaten up so bad! The blood EVERYWHERE... Part four, Eternal- My favourite one. Who knew Micky could be so hot? That's not why I like it though. It has the best storyline and the best acting. As a movie, Vacation sucks. But for four amateur singer turned actors, its okay. They're so cute in it! epik till the death of me; 2:04 PM Sunday, November 19, 2006 Sheesh. I hate foreign food shows that come to Malaysia. They make Malaysia sound so bad that I'm pissed. I'm not deeply patriotic or anything, its just that I don't want the whole world to think i live in a shabby no good place. They focus on the traditional parts and learn how to kill things with a blowpipe and cook with bamboo. Please. Half of Malaysians have never seen a blowpipe before. But Malaysia isn't very well known. I used to play online roleplaying games and it always goes like this. Him: Where do you live? Me: Malaysia. Him: Where? Me: It's above Singapore. Him: Oooohhhh THAT place. Never heard of it. Changing the subject~ From this weekend on, I won't even be in town for every weekend till the holidays end.. Next weekend- Genting. i hate that place. Next next weekend- Singapore. Okay I suppose. I just want to buy some CDs.. Next next next weekend- Going back to my parents hometown... Next next next next weekend- Korea~! But i'll be missing both Dong Zhi(a chinese festival) and Christmas... epik till the death of me; 2:53 PM Saturday, November 18, 2006 My sis and I were joking around while watching DBSK's banjun drama First Love. It should be my 4th time watching it and my sister's 3rd? Its not my favourite banjun since the girl hugs both Micky and Yunho and they both punch each other but there's some good bits. Hint: Yunho on a motorbike looking damn hot, Micky and Yunho playing basketball and for some reason, Park Myung Soo is in it. Anyway sample conversation of me and my sister. Me: Yunho on a bike! Gah! Sis: Damn, my boyfriend is hot.*refering to Micky* Me: Hey! The girl is putting her hands around my Yunho! Yeah well, I have no life. Lately my temper has been bad. Not bad exactly, I mean, I don't lash out at anyone. In fact, i don't shout or throw tantrums at all. I just keep it all in and let my face fall into a frown. This actually pisses my mother off more. Everyone justs annoys me. Every little thing they do, like talking. Or laughing. And I can't let it out so at night, i turn the radio up, grab my pillow and scream a little. My neighbours must be wondering. Anyway, i want to go to a concert. Any concert. Technically, my sister has been to one. She was in my mommy's tummy then -.- My brother has definately been to a few, like Michael Jackson's... Oh, did i forget to mention my mother was an entertainment newspaper reporter? That means she gets to interview stars. And no one is available to take care of my brother so my mom just brings him along to interviews and stuff. Sadly, my mom quit her job just after my sis was born so I didn't get to see any stars. SOB. epik till the death of me; 12:35 PM Wednesday, November 15, 2006 Dammit. Sitting still was never my strong point. Sitting still in a freezing room for two hours learning a foreign language, no matter how interested I am in it, is just plain suckish. Get ready for some Donghae craziness. DONGHAE DONGHAE DONGHAE~! His Korean name is really VERY easy to write. Dong as in Dong Bang Shin Ki's Dong, Hae as in saranghaeyo. I'm crapping again. =.= Anyway, him with his dog, Bada is just so freaking cute! And Eunhyuk's self cam thing.. Aish! Quote Donghae: "I can talk to puppies!" or how Eunhyuk introduced themselves. "Hi! We are EUNHAE!" Donghae *laughs* "Can we say that?" How about the infamous Eunhae scene in Superjunior mini drama episode two... Donghae helping Eunhyuk shave.. Donghae and Eunhyuk hugging as they sleep... Yeah well, friends reading this are probably disgusted at the gay pairings but who cares? Its just a twisted way for us fans to have a little fun. I mean, look at Jaeho. So sweet together, right? ^^ epik till the death of me; 10:42 PM Tuesday, November 14, 2006 Yesha, my two-year old 1.7KG dog, broke two bones in her left foot! She had an xray done on her foot. You can kinda see her struggling. "She was fierce!" The doctor said. "Bit me and another dog!" That's my Yesha.   Kinda freaky. Moving on~ Even though I scoff at all the girls who splatter makeup on their faces, wear bright pink from top to toe, overuse the word kawaii and basically act slutty, there's still a little bit of girly girl burried deep in me. Occasionally, I let that part of me out and I paint my nails or something. But you know what i really want? A complete makeover. Hair, makeup, clothes, the whole deal. I wonder what i'll look like dressed up... epik till the death of me; 1:32 PM Monday, November 13, 2006 I have so many things to say, but so little patience to write them all down. I'm trying to write some thoughts that flicker across my mind now, because all my friends' blogs have lengthy posts, unlike my 4-or-5-sentence-a-post blog. Lets see. First thought. Damn. Everything in my mind is Kpop related. -Watch the Balloons mv. Its freaking cute!- Trying to dig deeper... Um. Not working. My brain ceased to work after 5 hours of mindless net surfing. Oh, here's a thought. My poor baby dog is at the vet now.. I think she fractured her leg since she's been limping. Wee~ Second thought. I suck at languages. Its kinda sad for me to be better in English than Chinese since 1. Chinese is my mother language. 2. I went to a Chinese school. 3. I speak Chinese everyday. Sad case. Anyway, honestly? I haven't touched my Korean textbook since I came back from the last lesson. I'm too lazy to do it. You know I almost failed my Japanese exam? I got 60, I think. Then again, the only Japanese words I remember are Tohoshinki and Aishiteru. Type more? I wanna beat their posts in length! Wow, I checked my blog. My posts get more and more idiotic. I used to post smartass comments and stuff. Now I swoon about Kpop. Hey, its MY blog. Not yours. I can't wait for Korea. But I'm not very happy spending Christmas in Korea. But I'll be spending Christmas playing with snow! How many friends of mine can say that? I'm so killing my phone. It has a 500MB memory space (because I bought an extra memory card)that is the envy of all my friends who's puny 39MB phones can put oh, 5 songs? I have 30 songs in my phone, the choruses of 50 songs, 150 photos, 100 of them Korean related, around 7 games... All that, and I still have 300 MB free! Note to close friends: Jealous? I know you are. Dang. The laziness is kicking in. I'll continue soon. I think. epik till the death of me; 3:10 PM Sunday, November 12, 2006 http://youtube.com/watch?v=4UtnnWosjKE Hell, I don't get a single word they're saying but i just love this clip! The Suju boys are so cute with kids. They'll make excellent daddies*hint hint?*. Poor Donghae oppa, she won't greet you... Nah, I forgive her anyway cause she's sweet to Kangin. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7mFk8P_rclg Now in this clip also showing how cute they are with kids, the boy hurt Kangin! But Eeteuk was sweet and all, comforting him.. epik till the death of me; 5:59 PM
► I was cleaning my room -Side note to my close friends: Shocked? I know!- when I discovered my long forgotten memory box. In it was all the little trinkets and pictures that I'd collected over the years. Every single item contains a memory, mostly with my sis. Its kinda cute to see the stuff I did when I was still innocent(ie, hadn't discovered the joys of the internet yet). My sis and I still have a nice relationship, though I'll admit, if it wasn't for DBSK, we wouldn't have anything to talk about at all. Most of the stuff in there was dated more than 5 years ago, before my sister and I grew too old for dolls, so its was sweet. Of course, I got so caught up in memory lane that I stopped cleaning. In the end, my room actually ended up messier than before. I think I'll try again tomorrow. Or next week. Or never. epik till the death of me; 5:00 PM Friday, November 10, 2006 Its the last day of school~ Holidays for one and a half months is cool but it gets so boring. I wonder if I'll need specs by next year since I know I'll online every day. I'll get black rimmed glasses like Donghae's! epik till the death of me; 1:56 PM Tuesday, November 07, 2006 I'm such a dork. Not a good dork as in the case of the DBSK and Suju members, bu a dork-dork. For one, I love to read. And for another, my number one activity online is going to forums. I choose to talk to strangers over you. And the last thing that proves my absolue dorkiness- I'm giddily happy that I'm skipping school tomorrow to go to a friends house and I have Korean classes later. Yea, I'm happy because I'm going for two hours of language classes. DORK!(cute word by the way) epik till the death of me; 10:01 PM Saturday, November 04, 2006 Dramas.. Any kind of romance dramas bring me down. Because.. *looks around and whispers* I'm a hopeless romantic. My old friends can't believe this. "You like romance?" They ask me as if I just said I'm getting married to Donghae(Oh how I wish!). Ironically, they can't believe I haven't dated. Why is it so hard to believe I don't have a boyfriend?? I'm not some kind of slut who throws herself at boys, unlike SOMEONE. Ho hum. epik till the death of me; 4:31 PM Friday, November 03, 2006 Oh, dang it. I'm cursed for eternity. I didn't repost some message. If I'm found dead tomorrow, open my email inbox and put whoever who sent me chainmails in jail. What kind of friends curses other friends anyway? I'm sacrificing myself for the good of you people by not forwarding it! Thank me. Better yet, send me a thank you present. I like chocolates. epik till the death of me; 12:38 AM |