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About Me  jiaqian → fangirl. insane. beware. → am a little twisted, and a lot disturbing, but once you look past the insaneness, i'm quite interesting. → this is a mostly a place for me to wax horrible poetry and post cryptic rants that no one will understand but of late it has evolved into yet another angsty diary. but the last time i checked, that's what blogs are for. →also, lots of typos since i'm normally high (on life, not crack!), tipsy or depressed when i write my posts. seriously. → profanity galore. honest raw emotions. are you squirmy when it comes to emotions? → slightly unhinged. dancing on the edge yet in control. perfection is overrated. The likes ♥
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Credits Layout design by Eefennie. edited by mua. | Saturday, March 26, 2011 → i spent earth hour talking in the dark to my mom. we had a bottle of soju in one hand and a dog craddled in the other. i think it was an hour well spent ♥ omg i love 참 이슬 (chamiseul) i don't even know why. the taste is like a lighter, sweeter version of sake (I ♥ FLAVOURED VODKA TOO, ACTUALLY). apparently chamiseul is the mildest soju possible, for "lightweights". i had chamiseul fresh, just 19.5%, so i guess it's fine. but as i'm writing this... OKAY NOW I THINK I'M STARTING TO FEEL THE EFFECTS? still quite sober though, because look, ~COHERENCY~. i'm going to try 처음처럼 next time, because apparently it's sweeter. → i like going through pictures on facebook. it says a lot about someone's social life. for example if you look at mine it'll clearly say NONE OTL i need to seriously work on my socializing skills. → MY JAZZYFACT AND 10CM ALBUM ARRIVED IN THE MAIL TODAY. I'M SO HAPPY ♥  the suju m album... is not mine. i'm expecting three more albums to arrive sometime this week. → I AM GOING TO WRITE A 1000 WORD ESSAY NOW. i wonder if it'll actually work, since i actually do kinda feel buzzed right now. oh well, i think i'm sober enough. epik till the death of me; 10:23 PM Wednesday, March 23, 2011 it's 2AM right now, so i probably shouldn't even be awake. but you know me. when you tell me to sleep or i won't be able to wake up tomorrow, i'm all 
I HAD A DREAM THIS MORNING. I WISH I DIDN'T WAKE UP.
almost falling over, you use a hand to prop yourself against the wall. but instead of the cold hard wall, you find warm flesh. startled, you look up, and find yourself looking at him. he gives you bewildered look which melts into a smile and you want to pull your hand back and apologize but no, you can't, because time has stopped and you realize you feel his heartbeat. da dum da dum da dum. his hand slips over yours and you widen your eyes. he has a girl, the words flash in your mind. danger danger. out of reach. no entry zone. giving you a grin, he hugs you close and breathes in your hair. fuck your girl. now there's only you and me.on an unrelated note, ... i was playing epik high songs on youtube and suddenly it skips to we no speak americano. grooving anyway n___________n epik till the death of me; 11:54 PM Sunday, March 20, 2011 just came back from ss3 :) 
i'm a little too tired and lazy for a picture-riddled post, so i'll just halfass this!
it started off with the sorry sorry remix, with someone being lifted up into the air. when that someone lowered his head and it turned out to be donghae, oh maaan did we scream.
dont don was fucking sexy, especially the part where zhoumi appeared on vocal, henry on violin and jungmo on guitar. the fuck jungmo appeared for 15 seconds. why the hell would he fly all the way to malaysia for 15 seconds? anyway, donghae and eunhyuk were strapped onto wire and they flew up into the air, shooting fireworks from their hands!
yesung keeps cockblocking eunhae gdi.during no other, donghae walked over to hyukjae and just as hyukjae was about to hold his outstretched hand, yesung ran over and slipped between eunhae, separating them. eunhae held hands anyway. sungmin and eeteuk were strapped to wires and they "flew" in the air with blue balloons and threw confetti down at us. it was eunhae heaven all the way~ and shiwon latched himself onto most of the boys like an adorable leech. lots of kyuwon going on during good person. shiwon tapped kyuhyun's ass and they fooled around a bit. shiwon also kinda... bear hugged eeteuk and didn't let go for a veeeeery long while. during rokkuko donghae was like a kid on crack. the other boys pushed him to the floor and attacked him. then hae run around like a mad man before eeteuk and shindong pulled him back and forced him to sing a few lines. during the middle eeteuk, hyukjae and sungmin lay on the ground. shindong plopped homself across the three of them and after some hesitation heechul joined the human sandwich by lying on top of all four of them. before they sang all my heart, they did a tribute to kangin where kangin appeared as a ~holograph~ it was kinda heart wrenching but bby boy's gotta do his time for all the accidents that he caused. the suju boy air-played an instrument while kangin appeared next to them and hovered, almost touching them, but not. solos →it started off with ryeowook singing the chinese version of one spring day with sungmin on guitar. great vocals, but ho hum performance. →then eeteuk charmed us all with kiss goodbye. his voice is gooood and his pronunciation surprisingly good, too! /melts into a puddle. →kyuhyun sang 新不了情 with such accurate pronunciation~ he stood in front of me the whole time, but his BACK was to me gdi. →the eunhae duet. i wanna love you. the EUNHAE DUET. needed more guy-guy interaction and less girl-guy ones. i love the song but eh, seeing your bias grope the same girl isn't pleasant. THE BEST PART IS HYUKJAE DID DOWN. HE WAS AMAZING. HIS SHADES WERE SO HOT OMG AND THAT DANCE IN FRONT WITH THE HOODIE. Y SO SEXY, BOI? →shiwon did his greatest love of all (?) gospel song thing. i wasn't paying attention. →i think i just blocked out sungmin's solo, if you leave, because he danced with not one, not two, but THREE sexy ladies who groped him all over and then dumped him. → zhoumi looks so feminine! i don't know why, but he seems a million times more girlish than last year. and again i must stress, his beautiful lower half. that crotch xD i don't even know what his solo was. it's a chinese song, and he's goes kinda heechulrisque crazy in it. oh okay, wait, apparently it's 瀟灑小姐. →and now let's spazz about henry. oh god henry. henry is so fucking adorable i don't know how anyone can not maul him if they were close enough. he started off with a paino version of baby baby before launching into the normal one, and aksldjklasjdklas fuck i love this boy. he's so hot and sexy i wanna chew him to pieces. ... why yes, i have weird ways of expressing my love. veggie suju wasn't as exciting as i thought it would be :| kyuhyun pushed mushroom hyukjae over and poor hyukae couldn't stand up. kyu watched him flail on the floor for a while before helping him up. at the end, cabbage yesung took off his outfit first, and poor poor hyukjae had difficulty struggling out of his, so his nice adorable bandmates did what any other nice adorable bandmate would do... they bullied him :P but oooooh i got a ball from shindong! at the closing, donghae kept singing bruno mar's the way you are! he's so precious omg why is he like this. when it was jungmo's turn to introduce himself, donghae snatched his mic and went, "hi, i'm jungmo. nice to meet you." that little troll xD henry gave a shout out to malaysian fans on twitter and claimed that 70% of the tweets he receives are from malaysian fans. heechul, that BIG troll, introduced shiwon by saying, "this is horse!" and then pointed at sungmin and said, "this is pumpkin!" Labels: fan account epik till the death of me; 12:37 AM Saturday, March 19, 2011 i'm so happy these days n____________n i have finally learned how to let loose! and yes, i've been doing all those silly immature things that i was too stuck up to do once upon a time. it's nice, being able to go crazy every so often. i have amazing friends. 
i have an amazing family.
i have amazingly adorable pets.
college is great.
I HAVE A SUPERJUNIOR CONCERT TONIGHT.
life is great.
all the while i was writing this, i felt guilty because of all the crisis going on around the world.but i must learn to get past that. i do not build my happiness on anyone else's expectations. i am respectful, but that doesn't mean that one more person should be miserable. if anything, i should be more appreciative of everything around me and feel even happier, because at least now i know how to love what i have, and not learn how to love when i have lost. epik till the death of me; 10:55 AM Monday, March 07, 2011 so let's take a step back and pretend that i had just taken baby steps into teenagedom, that i'm not teetering on the edge of maturity let's pretend that i'm a carefree soul that's confident about the world letting loose my hair and flashing easy smiles let's pretend i let out the wild child in me took that first drag of the cancer stick got sucked into the draw of the pulsing music and flashing lights chose late nights out over burning the midnight oil let's pretend that i'm artistically inclined that i like to paint perfection on paper and capture imaginations with musical notes let's pretend i didn't give up on track and went on to win athlete of the year maybe pretend i got interested in makeup and shoes that i go around with long dark lashes and red pursued lips that with a wink, i leave a long trail of heartbroken boys behind me let's pretend i'm not lonely pretend i'm not stuck living in the shoes of the good girl that i don't wish for some dating experience pretend that i sometimes wish i was wilder that i knew how to be more of a girly girl- a tinge of makeup, glossy hair, trendy clothes let's pretend i'm not wishing for something more Labels: wordspit. epik till the death of me; 9:02 PM Saturday, March 05, 2011 before. 
after.
cut almost 5 inches off my hair.it's the shortest it has ever been since i was 12. ps. omg you little fuck i am sending you ~signals~ because i don't dare to talk to you. and your signals, though at times fuzzy, are confusing the heck out of me. don't catch my eye and smile if you don't mean anything, darn it! am i scaring you right now ;A; sorry, i'm socially challenged D: epik till the death of me; 12:20 AM |