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About Me  jiaqian → fangirl. insane. beware. → am a little twisted, and a lot disturbing, but once you look past the insaneness, i'm quite interesting. → this is a mostly a place for me to wax horrible poetry and post cryptic rants that no one will understand but of late it has evolved into yet another angsty diary. but the last time i checked, that's what blogs are for. →also, lots of typos since i'm normally high (on life, not crack!), tipsy or depressed when i write my posts. seriously. → profanity galore. honest raw emotions. are you squirmy when it comes to emotions? → slightly unhinged. dancing on the edge yet in control. perfection is overrated. The likes ♥
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Credits Layout design by Eefennie. edited by mua. | Thursday, May 31, 2007 YG is so unfair. I know GD is the leader and is freaking hot and talented and funny and that he's the favourite of half of Bigbang fans and that the sight of him makes my knees weak but why is the spotlight mainly focused on him? Like Forever with you, its just tempo and Gd. And all the songs he's featured in and all the shows he went on. But then again, so much GD isn't bad after all. AH I'm crazy over him. HE IS SO CUTE! And his hiphop dance~ His beatboxing~ His rapping~ His singing *legs buckling* And the dance battle in Goodbye Baby! I LOVE DANCE BATTLES. Oh, and the main reason I'm head over heels in love with him- G-RI LOVE! Whoop! Lets give it up for my gay couple obsession! And have you ever wondered why GD looks so hot as a girl? God, I not only like gays, I like gay cross-dressing hiphoppers! He has a lovely voice, completely different with Donghae's. Hae's is deep while GD sounds like a little puppy. They should switch voices. Hae ACTS like a little puppy and has the mentality of one while GD.. Okay, he acts like a puppy too, but he mainly acts like a wannabe punk. I LOVE HIM. Sigh.. *collapse to floor after a round of extreme fangirling* *wakes up, peeks at computer scren, see vid of onstage outfit change and faints again* epik till the death of me; 2:53 PM
► Why doesn't Malaysia have beautiful dream-like places? Don't we have any more to offer except for beaches? I don't want tropical beauty. I want fields. Wide open filled with flowers. I want something like Nami island or Cheongsam island. WHY DON'T WE HAVE IT DAMMIT. I hate this place. God, I'm so emo now. To cheer myself up...  DAMN. Bigbang seems much more human. You tend to forget DBSK are human, just like you and me. They're idols. Gods to some. They can't go anywhere without 128318237102730 people stalking them. With Bigbang its different. You can find new pictures of them partying with people every week. Unfortunately, GDs always with a different girl each time. We all think he has a girlfriend and we accept it. If some bitch declared she was gd's girlfriend. we'll believe it. But if someone, say Micky Yoochun, had a girlfriend, noone would believe it. Mah. i'm talking crap here. Song I'm in love with now: Couple by Sechskies. Why? Donghae and Big bang sang it, Junsu danced to it(You should watch the clip! He looks like Inhwan!!!), its catchy. epik till the death of me; 1:01 PM Wednesday, May 30, 2007 I'm actually meeting people through my blog! At least i'm achieving something. Will I ever fall to the sate where I camwhore and post pictures of my food on my blog? Unfortunately, it seems like people these days won't read your blog unless you do. Or at least ramble on and on about your day. But really, do you really want to read about their entire day? From their tiny conversations up to what they ate? Wouldn't you rather read about insights of their minds or their views, thoughts on something? People. I don't get them these days. epik till the death of me; 8:20 PM Tuesday, May 29, 2007 suju actually sings live okay. Not brilliant, they still sing off tune and their pitching goes off, but its not as bad as i expected. Maybe its because their songs don't actually require any singing skills. Too bad they lipsync so often. When the girls discovered clips of them singing live, they were like "wow, they actualy sing live?" epik till the death of me; 9:11 PM Sunday, May 27, 2007 I'm back! It was fun. Sure, the facilities sucked, but it was really fun. Actually, the group activities sucked, but the time spent playing at the waterfall trumped the stupid skill building torture. The boys went crazy when they went in the stream. I admit, I started the fight by splashing a little water on a boy, and he splashed me back and accidentally splashed another guy, who in turn splashed back and soon a full out war exploded. Imagine this: 40 teenage kids, mostly boys, splashing water at each other and screaming their heads off. Still, it looked like one of those teen dramas. You know, a guy and a girl run around, waterguns in hand, spraying each other? Everyone has their shirt AND pants plastered onto their bodies. I bet the guys had a field day. Did I ever mention that slippery rocks rule? well they do. We were climbing up some slippery rocks by the waterfall and he slipped and grabbed on to me a few times and i slipped and grabbed his hand a few times, "accidentally". In the end we just remained holding onto each other till we climbed to safety. God, when did I become such a pervert? Must be all those Kihae loving fanfics. They make me hyper. So anyway, I actually flying fox-ed! It was slow, too slow I think. But you all don't need to know that. All you need to know is I actually mustered up enough gut to jump off that two storey high ledge. I thankfully did not get any leeches. Nor did the insanely cute(in my mind, anyway) boy who i kept playing with. OH YES~! I found a livejournal entirely dedicated to suju yaoi fanfics! Enough fanfics to feed me for days! Bring me up to heaven now please epik till the death of me; 9:46 PM Friday, May 25, 2007 I FOUND THE CUTEST THING!!! CLICK--> http://www.iloveegg.co.kr The cutest thing in the world. Press the button that says EGG SONG. In 10 hours I will be on a bus to camp. I will not be sleeping until a few hours later. That means I will only get 6 hours of sleep. Oh joy. epik till the death of me; 9:25 PM
► I've told them that I won't be going in af for a while. I guess its done, huh? I'm over that place. I'll be back in a few weeks, I suppose. Tomorrows camp. After camp, holidays. I feel bummed though. The thoughts flew in his mind so fast, they tumbled over each other. He can barely form a complete thought before it flitted past again. To say he had a short attention span was an understatement. If you held his attention for more than 5 minutes, congratulations, because that’s 4 minutes more than I ever did. He would often start a sentence, then was distracted by another thing, a bird flying past, a leaf fluttering down from the tree, and simply trail off. He would watch mesmerised at the object for about 5 seconds, then get distracted again. He reminded me of an adorable little puppy, probably had the mentality of one too. epik till the death of me; 8:19 AM Thursday, May 24, 2007 Teehee. Isn't Battle's new song Hey yo cute? It sounds like 5 girls singing though. A little annoying and absolutely degrading, but hey, its Battle, we can't ask too much from a boyband the result of a contest. Thank god they eliminated Seungri. Fools. TellMe sounds almost the same as HeyYo. Now that I think about it,고장난 가슴 gojangnangasum sounds like a slow version of both songs. They sing the choruses together. Wonderful how they managed to ruin the song by rapping while one sings and hence making it sound like two songs playing at once. The instrumental is MUCH better. As if it isn't bad enough, now Asianfanatic hangs whenever I open it. THATS IT. I'm thorugh with it. But... 400 posts already... I have to stay till my birthday. I want to see if they remember my birthday. epik till the death of me; 8:37 PM
► Bomi Watsu, known to you as SpringWaltz, is nice,way different form Mygirl or Goong, but still nice.Mm... Shiwon with his exploding hairstyle. Plus, Daniel is hot, romantic and charming with that accented english of his. He mainly speaks english in there, and some other foreign language, Austrian maybe? Those sunglasses of his.. They look like the pair hankyung wore in Boys in City. According to a livejournal, its a pair of Dolce and Gabbana's. And it costs around 256 US dollars. Buy me one. epik till the death of me; 8:05 PM Tuesday, May 22, 2007 AF sucks. On the bright side, Teuks out of the hospital and Kyuhyuns recovering quick. Angelteuk is as BEAUTIFUL as ever! And hae was on sukira with him, wearing a singlet, showing off his sexy shoulders. Damn, All in Vain is addictive. It'll be better if they removed the annoying trumpet solo. Harudal is sweet. Loving you has the best chorus ever but the rest of the song is just normal. I want Bigbang cosmestics. I want "Big bang's Bud: My first fragrance" and theit lipgloss.   I already uploaded this for a forum so i'll put it here as well. Like I said, AF sucks. I think i won't be going there for a while. Finding new forum!! epik till the death of me; 10:34 AM
► I need a laptop. Seriously. I have a lot of thoughts that I'm just itching to wite down but when I actually get to the computer the feels gone and i don't feel like writng it anymore. Since I already wrote it as a reply for an email, i might as well post it here. What was your favorite song from DBSK? Their new song, Harudal. I LOVE IT. Which one of the members do you like the most? Ican't decide. when I first met them, i loved changmin, then i switched to yunho, there was a brief yoochun phase after watching vacation, i liked jaejoong for a while but now, its junsu. How would you describe every single member? Changmin- The magnae. Well, he WAS the baby of the group but now that they made him into a man, i don't like it. I prefer his baby boy image, instead of him dancing with hot girls around him. Junsu- Adorable little hot dolphin boy. In rising sun or hug I didn't really notice him. Then came Timeless. It was like "BAM" WHy didnt I notice this hottie earlier? Jaejoong- He's a dork. Don't get me wrong, I love dorks. I love how relaxed and funny he is. I was surprised to find out he is the funniest in the group because of his just-a-little-cold looks. I didn't like him at first. Yunho- Dancing machine. His dancing wowed me. I love him. I love him. I love him. Yoochun- Sexy voice. How can you not agree? His english is good? I love laughing at korean's english. I admit his english has improved. His rap in All in Vain actually made sense. epik till the death of me; 10:17 AM Friday, May 18, 2007 *takes deep breath* Isn't freedom sweet? Oh, wait, i forgot, you stil have a week. MUAHAHAHA! Okay, its not good to rub my freedom in other people's faces. Bad me. SO anyway, I have so much to catch up on I think I won't be typing for a while. why does the internet hate me so much? I have a million things to download and its moving at 3kb per second. I might as well write. I thought of a ton of things to write yesterday, but I'm too lazy now. I'm going to a counseling camp that includes all those jungle-y activities on the 26th and 27th of May. For those of you who know me may be going "YOU? ON A CAMP?!" WHAT? I can do all those night trekking, mountain climbing, flying fox-ing(which i know what it means, but i cant explain) and stuff. I just prefer not to. The plus side, we sleep in an air conditioned resort. Like I'm going to completely abandon civilisation and sleep in a tent? epik till the death of me; 8:31 PM
► I'm starting to think I don't like AF that much either. With all those new people coming and dominating the posts, its just not fun anymore. Especially those who claim certain boys as theirs and are their husbands. One said she had two kids with ryeowook. Theres a term for these kind of fans, i forgot, but I'LL just call them nazi fans. epik till the death of me; 8:45 AM
► Todays gonna be a quick one. All in Vain is so suitable for that show Fashion 70s. It doesn't sound dongbang-ish. The part where they rap together sounds kibumish, and thats not good because kibum can't rap. Haridal is better, its kinda nice. I've only heard it once so I can't say. epik till the death of me; 7:48 AM Tuesday, May 15, 2007 Kim HeeChul is a lot of things.
Kim HeeChul is an actor, model, singer, and if you really want to reach for it, a sort-of dancer. Kim HeeChul is never boring. credit: incoming @ livejournal *Giggles giggles giggles then collapses into laughter and dies* Man, i love this. I see people actually coming here! Yay, i feel so energised and refreshed! I shall write a 1000000 word post with 324234 pictures! post an anonymous love letter in the comments here to the person who's been on your mind. Now's your chance to pour out your heart and let someone know how much you really care. You can write to your secret crush, your longtime lover, best friend, or to any other of the special people in your lifeWho would be dumb enough to reply? 1106 people XD Hell, i would've tried if i actually had someone to crush upon. Oh wow, they're so poetic ^^ " It's absurd how I feel about you. You bind my heart and without knowing it, you render me useless for everyone else. You're always somewhere else, and I end up chasing after you, throwing all I have to the wind. Sometimes I know who you are; sometimes I'm just certain that who I am with at the moment is not you, and therefore, not good enough. I just hope I'll find you one day or grow up enough to let you go."*laughs head off* epik till the death of me; 9:19 AM Friday, May 11, 2007 I'm about to burst. I can't stop moving around. Even my mother noticed how jittery i was and released me to play the computer. I can't take it. This sucks. epik till the death of me; 9:05 PM
► Teukie called sukira! just hearing his voice made me happy. hi im teukiiiiiiiiiiiiie teukie! I wanna squish him. Hyikjae and shindong looked so happy to hear from him. they remind me of puppies.I have a lot to say. A LOT. but because of lack of time, i'll say them some other time. ByE! epik till the death of me; 9:02 AM Tuesday, May 08, 2007 IM SO JEALOUS! I refuse to read all the accounts of hb. I missed suju and epik high and bigbang and eru and fly to the sky and ivy AND BOA!!!!! its enough to make me kill myself. TT~TT TEMPO looked so hot. donghae looked like love. GD looked like a girl but stuil hot. STUDYING SUCKS. Bye for another week! I have a lot of compressed anger. epik till the death of me; 10:10 AM Friday, May 04, 2007 
Oh god. You know what I'm thinking, and its not healthy.
More inhwan. He's adorable!  
He's not inhwan, he's even BETTER.epik till the death of me; 8:36 PM Thursday, May 03, 2007 I wish I had a goong doll. Then i can pretend its one of the people who laugh at me for my k-addiction and go all ninja girl on it. It'll be like "TAKE THAT! *whacks then shakes hand around* ow ow ow. AND THAT! ouch. HAIYA! Muahaha! This is for the time you said dbsk was gay! And this is for the time you stopped me from talking about suju! And this is for the time you said donghae is cute! He's MINE!" Pent up frustration + stress + tvxq verbal abuse by friends = One scary me. Don't mess with me! epik till the death of me; 10:52 PM
► YOU CAN'T DO THIS TO ME! They rescheduled the exams, bringing it forward, making it next thursady. I HAVEN'T STARTED STUDYING! What am i doing now? oh, foruming. What? I'm STRESSED and UNDER PRESSURE. epik till the death of me; 9:49 PM Wednesday, May 02, 2007 Hey J look at me. After you left it ain't the same... I'm not what I used to be... It hurts so much u know?. I need you girl... Always ... All time... This Love- GDragon J? She's the girl that dumped GD. Fool. She's pretty, very pretty. Oh, and I know her birthday is september 19th, since i dont know, gd wrote This Love for her.Watch the This love mv. You'll see. Better yet, watch it with subs! The song goes like "my friends tell me to forget her... september 19s her birthday... blablabla." Watch the vid. You know how Goodbye baby-or was it forever with you?- ends with "i love you, baby, forever. " He says he was thinking of the fans. Yeah, we believe you, GD. epik till the death of me; 9:33 PM
► http://z7.invisionfree.com/SJFullHouse/index.php?showtopic=4647 This is one of my favourite fanfics. Caution: Its Yaoi. You aren't anti-gay or anything, are you? I love it. Promise me you'll read it? Its not REALLY gay, nothing bad.A little teaser? “Heechul, Hyukjae’s getting married,” Donghae slurs, head lolling against the window. You keep your eyes on the road, hands firm on the steering wheel. “It’ll be okay.” “He asked me to be his best man,” Donghae replies with a wide grin. You don’t know how to respond. “He told me it was because I was his best friend,” he tells you, and laughs. It grows louder and louder and increasingly hysterical, until you’re not sure whether he’s laughing or crying. epik till the death of me; 9:23 PM
► I wanna stalk moonbin and inhwan. My 6 year old boyfriend. ^^ I went as far as to download the 128MB file but you can watch it on youtube. According to chinese horoscope, people born in the year of the chicken aka me are most suited with people born in the dragon. That means I have to date either someone who's 5 years older or 7 years younger than me. I was like HAH! Why would i want to date someone my brother's age? Then it occured to me. JIYONG'S A DRAGON! haha. GDRAGON's a dragon. Yong means dragon so he's a dragon. haha. not funny? okay, i'll shut up. epik till the death of me; 3:22 PM
► I always wondered how those nuna fans did it. How can they like someone so much younger? I get it now, becasue i do too. But wait, I'm 14, how much younger can I get? Try: I'M IN LOVE WITH A 6 YEAR OLD! WAIT. Before you start thinking I'm a pervy nuna or anything, look at the pics. 
His name is Inhwan. He's Junsu's kid in Balloons. You've watched starking right? Little shinki? You haven't? YOU HAVE TO.
Okay, so 6 year olds are not your thing. How about a 10 year old? Moonbin aka Yunho's kid.
The boy is hot, no?
I'm such a stalker.epik till the death of me; 2:38 PM Tuesday, May 01, 2007 I BOUGHT MY FIVE IN THE BLACK. yay. I have the car sticker, now all i need is the car. Bigbang and Brians there in America already. If i wasnt half way around the world, i'll stalk them. I want to go to the Hollywood Bowl!!!!!! BUY ME A PLANE TICKET. It only costs RM6000 or so, thats all. The total trip wpuld costs me more than 10thousand. *sniff* Introduce yourselves! GD: hello this is Big Bang's leader, G-Dragon. nice to meet you TOP: hello im a rapper in the group and my name is TOP. Dae Sung: hello im Dae Sung, a vocalist of the group. Tae Yang: hello im Tae Yang, a vocalist and rapper of the group. Seung Ri: hello im Seungri, a vocalist and choreographer of the group -SEUNGRI CHOREOGRAPHS! Fact: Gdragon's origin?: 'G' for 'Ji' and Dragon for 'Yong' (YONG literally means dragon in korean**) SE7EN gave Seung Hyun his name TOP. Such a sweet hyung- PKL: Top, so then whats your least favorite food? TOP: i dont really have a particular food that i dont like.. i dont really dislike anything as long as it isnt something creepy PKL: you havent tasted dragonflies yet right? TOP: no i havent tasted anything like that yet GD: you know what, if you put yang geng ontop of that dragonfly, he would probably eat it~ -GD IS SO FREAKING CUTE- GD: i always like to hug seungri when i sleep cuz he's so cute~ and so when i try to hug him he starts going 'uh~~' like he doesnt want me to~ PKL: ok so Seung Ri, state it truthfully right now~ do you like being hugged when you sleep or no? Seung Ri: i like it~ GD: well if you like it, why do you make those facial expressions and then curl up onto the wall Seung Ri: see, i like jiyongee hyung alot but i'm the oldest child in my family and im just used to sleeping alone. so i get uncomfortable and cant sleep when someones tangled up in bed with me (sounds funny but thats exactly what he said~) so when JiYongee hyung first held me *immitates GD* and said "lets sleep together" i was just like, "ok..hyung.." LETS SLEEP TOGETHER. MUAHAHHAHAHAH. What a crap post. epik till the death of me; 4:18 PM |