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About Me  jiaqian → fangirl. insane. beware. → am a little twisted, and a lot disturbing, but once you look past the insaneness, i'm quite interesting. → this is a mostly a place for me to wax horrible poetry and post cryptic rants that no one will understand but of late it has evolved into yet another angsty diary. but the last time i checked, that's what blogs are for. →also, lots of typos since i'm normally high (on life, not crack!), tipsy or depressed when i write my posts. seriously. → profanity galore. honest raw emotions. are you squirmy when it comes to emotions? → slightly unhinged. dancing on the edge yet in control. perfection is overrated. The likes ♥
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Credits Layout design by Eefennie. edited by mua. | Friday, August 31, 2007 The sky is so polluted to the point that I can no longer go star gazing. Every night, the moon is covered by a cloud of haze, or maybe its just a cloud. Either way, I can't see the moon clearly. There doesn't seem to be many stars anymore. The other day I went out and saw a lone star, or a lone satellite? Satellite or star, I made a wish to it, a couple of wishes to it. Do you think it'll come true? epik till the death of me; 1:08 PM Thursday, August 30, 2007 New skin, everybody! I edited a skin, like debbie said. Changed the font colour, pic, width, basically everything except for the headers. Rawr. I think its plain and boring, but I was getting sick of the Suju one. epik till the death of me; 5:34 PM Tuesday, August 28, 2007 Isn't it sad that Jaejins prettier than Younha? -you know younha, the one i saw in korea.. the one that stood right next to me, wrapped in a blanket, shivering because its -7 celcius out there and she's in a skirt- If i told my friends younha is a guy, i'll bet they'll believe it. I've been playing with their minds a lot, showering them with pic of photoshopped dongbangjunior. XD epik till the death of me; 9:06 AM Sunday, August 26, 2007 My deadline on two projects is due tomorrow. I just finished it 2 minutes ago. Both of them. I've never procrastinated that much before, considering both projects were given two months ago and I had a 9 day holiday in between. epik till the death of me; 11:11 PM Saturday, August 25, 2007 I had something to say, but it completely flew out of my mind. Oh well. Theres nothing like fan girling to bring people together. I have friends from all over the world- US, Japan, Germany, Britain, Canada and they're all of different ethnicity. I have a mongolian friend, a philipino friend, a thai friend, a japanese friend.. Its amzing really, how our love for kpop has brought us together. Hm, I sound like a mushy.. something. epik till the death of me; 10:07 PM Thursday, August 23, 2007 Insa has to be the most beautiful song ever. Its the only song that can bring tears to my eyes when I hear it. Millionaire's first love is such a sweet, beautiful, innocent love story. Nothing anyone in reality will experience, but thats why we watch it, isn't it? For that few brief moments where we imagine ourselves to be her, to be as blissful as her. I know now that there are people who feel like me, who think the same way i do. I feel weirdly comforted by that. Tablo is love. He has a masters and a bachelors degree in english literature and creative writing at stanford, meaning he speaks perfect english. I love accents. He is funny and absolutely adorable. Tablo+variety shows=one very hyper me. I was so hyped up after watching him for an entire night I actually couldn't fall asleep after. But relly, korean variety shows rock. XMan has got to be the best of them all. WHY CANCEL iT??? heroine 6 is okay, not too fond of the couple choosing, but the catch a mosue game is cute. Starking is usually amazing, depending on the gueststars. Loveltter.. sucks. Speed english in stargoldenbell is CUTE. epik till the death of me; 3:40 PM Wednesday, August 22, 2007 "You're oversugared." I agree. XD i entered a bookstore and made a beeline for the kidie section. I LOVE THOSE BOOKS. Big words, colourful pictures, furry pictures and even lift-and-see pictures! -I even wrote a fanfic on kiddie literature and donghae. look in sjfh >< - Look at what I found! Jay is nimble,Cue illustrations of fox jumping over candlestick. I can write that, thankyou. I love that though. Then I picked up Dr.Seuss. Personally I find his books creepy. They were the source of many childhood nightmares. A quote from one of his books: Theres a wocket in my pocketJust imagine: mummy, whats a zlock? or a wocket? Employ me to write your books, please mr.seuss! epik till the death of me; 7:36 PM Tuesday, August 21, 2007 Now I know intelligence is a criteria I search for in guys. epik till the death of me; 10:00 PM Monday, August 20, 2007 Okay, spending my entire night reading crack LJs=NOT GOOD. Bigbang's manager in the documentary sucks. ITS SO NOT THEIR FAULT RIGHT? I thought they did just fine in the se7en-Se7en~ oh Se7en. He is so dassaalasl hot- concert. *adds manager to the ever growing people-to-push-off-cliff list* I've been meaning to write a smart intelligent entry, but unfortunately by the time I get done with all the forums, I'm usually so hyped up I fail to think properly. All i wanna do is fangirl. Whee~ Random fact, I wore the first dress I've worn in 3 years yesterday. This calls for celebration! The dress will now go back into my closet and stay there till i take it out three years later. I promise myself, sometime this week, I WILL actually sit down and write an entry NOT related to kpop. I draft a lot of them in my brain, they just never get the chance to be written down. Wanna read my fanfics? =D I keep writing them. epik till the death of me; 10:27 PM Thursday, August 16, 2007 GD composed/wrote two songs. TOP wrote/co-composed a song. asdfhdihfdhdfiahadhf epik till the death of me; 8:16 PM
► For the past few days I have been playing the part of a good girl and didn't sneak online because exams are here and i feared my mom would take away my online privilages. Thats like taking away my lifeline, the most cruel punishment available. Hopefully, those few mornings weren't wasted. NO time no time. I'm gonna be late for school. OMGG Bigbag's new mv, Lie. Addictive. GD composed it. the little bun on gd's head. me no like! TOP in shopping trolley=LOVE. how did daesung becoming so hot? im sorry, but i love you. thats all i gotta say. well, everythings gonna be alright, isn;t it? I even memorised what gd said? omgnolife. epik till the death of me; 12:04 PM Monday, August 13, 2007 Yesterday I went to see TheCross at timesquare. I have both thier signatures and even shook their hands! Its a custom in Korea to sign the fan's name as well. Siha's grip is strong, while Kyunghyun just slightly touches your hand. Will go into detail once the exams are over.  SUJU WITH PUPPIES~~~~ epik till the death of me; 10:48 AM Saturday, August 11, 2007 I'm in a very WTF-y mood. Rawr I feel like talking a whole bunch of crap but as i write this i notice the clock ticking in the corner and I am reminded of the fact that my exams are on monday and I've only read about 5 pages of Science. Plus, the whole tomorrow will be spent watching TheCross at Timesquare. Tell me again why I'm going? I can't even tell Siha from Kyunghyun. But I've been listening a lot of interviews of thecross lately. I can't shake this crappy feeling so I shall try to do it by typing a list of random things until I feel better. 1. LEAVE FOR VACATION~~~~~~~ SO MUCH HAE. IT JUST KILLS ME. 2. I wanna try Korean strawberries 3. I read fanfics 8. Shit. I'm not going to feel any better even though I type a million of these, aren't I? 9. Pummelluff. Sounds cute =) 10. WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~~~ Okay, time to tear myself away from the comp and study. (Read as: listen and have a singalong session to Se7en and Dongbang songs) Yeesh. I suck. epik till the death of me; 7:51 PM
► Hyukjae confessed to liking someone on his cy. I thought it would kill me, but I'm surprisingly clam. I've actually grown to accept male celebs i like with girls. I've finally become a TRUE fan =) I'm happy for him. I support and respect his decisions. He's 21. Its about time he got a girlfriend. epik till the death of me; 4:41 PM Friday, August 10, 2007 DBSK is spazzerific. For example, Changmin sleeptalks. And he actually replies when he ask him a question. HE REPLIES IN HIS SLEEP. Minnie's comment on this? CM: No, I'm normal. Let's say I'm normal and move on. Please. (laughs) rawr, baby. ^^ epik till the death of me; 9:10 AM Thursday, August 09, 2007 how do i get myself into these things? I am now  Hongkn in part 2 of the mv. in part 2 of the mv, it shows that his destiny will change if he chooses MinHyoRin-the other girl- instead AND, FT ISLAND signed a contract with uniform brand 'SMART!!!!! AND, Bigbang is releasing a minialbum on 16th of august and theres a whole lot of yummy pics that i uploaded for AF BUT I AM TOO LAZY TO UPLOAD AGAIN SO TOO BAD. PLUS, there are kyuhyun pics! Havne't seen the boy for months. Again, uploaded it for AF BUT I AM TOO LAZY TO UPLOAD AGAIN SO TOO BAD. heechul has conjunctivitis and had difficulty carrying out activities. Kim HeeChul has myopia. If he never wears spectacles, he can not see the person in front of him clearly too. However, he is unable to wear contact lens now because of sore eyes. epik till the death of me; 12:08 PM Tuesday, August 07, 2007 The new FT mv. Anyone watched it? ITS 9 MINUTES LONG. Well, thats because its Cheondung+Hansaraman. RAWR its slow. But i've read the translations. student/teacher relationship? *shakes head* BUT MINHWAN. OH GOD SO HOT. HOOOONGKIIII. He's going to be my favourite soon.I see HOT DJ WONBIN AS WELL~ Its to be continued, which makes me impatient. epik till the death of me; 9:05 AM Sunday, August 05, 2007 Hello, miss Eunjung, meet my fist. Okay, so I'm totally bitter about Supersummer. I'm surprised she's not lying in a hospital bed somewhere considering the brutality of Korean fans. I don't wanna watch Supersummer anymore. epik till the death of me; 2:57 PM Saturday, August 04, 2007 When will the Bigbang documentary be aired? I don't watch MTV often and after searching LONG ANG HARD on the mtvasia website, all i found was this: Tv schedules 10/8: bla bla bla . . .21:30 Big Bang so i assume its on every friday at 9.30? but i also found bigbang at 2100 on saturday, 17:30 Big Bang on sunday, 900 on monday, 12:30 Tuesday, 15:30 wednesday, 18:30 thursday Everyday has different timeslot. Are those repeats or different episodes? has anyone seen any commercials about it? epik till the death of me; 10:22 PM Friday, August 03, 2007 The clock is ticking, on and on. Its late I'm not sleepy yet So I've been thinking My mind keeps thinking It never stops Its tiring Can i just get peace of mind? Too many fanfics make me moody They blur the line between reality and fantasy I envy their writing I want to write like that But I fail desperately. I put pen to paper My mind stops thinking My hand freezes up What do I fear? I fear acting weak in front of others I fear being rejected I fear the end of the world I fear silly things that bug me all night leaving me sleepless Making me tired the next day I'm so tired of humanity So so tired I even dread reading the news The crimes committed leave me sick to the stomach The pollution of the world I can't bear to watch Why do i care so much? Why do these things distress me? I'm not making sense. Just let me be I want a long vacation Does this scare you? I sound depressed I'm not Its just this one moment of helplessness Now I've let it out I feel better All i need is a long much needed break Ignore this post Pretend you've never read it No comments No questions Nothing I'll go to sleep now Good night epik till the death of me; 10:53 PM
► Its not possible to be that cute as well as that talented as well as hot. NOT POSSIBLE. But its true. FT is perfect.  Hongki, lead singer with the voice that just melts my insides  Wonbin, the guitarist/rapper. Dammit those muscles.  Minhwan, the drummer. I LOVE DRUMMERS  HOMG. JAEJIN, THE BASSIST. I just wanna pounce on him. HE'S BEAUTIFUL. Yeah, i know theres one more guy. JUNGHOON the guitarist, right? But i don't like him. SO, yeah. epik till the death of me; 9:48 PM
► i only live to fangirl and fangirl to live next time my teacher asks the class "any favourite quotes?" I am so going to say that. My english teacher is a total bitch who can't even pronounce my name right and loves to send me on stupid errands for her. In fact, my english is even better than her. I used to correct her about twice a day but eventually I gave up. Its kinda sad since she's chinese and she doesnt know chinese and can't even speak english well. I think her malay sucks as well. How did she pass whatever test teachers have to take to be teachers? She teaches completely from the useless textbook.  This photo just screams I'm not gay, right? mmhmm. epik till the death of me; 8:40 PM
► After reading close to 100 comments on Eeteuk's incident -he lied about it- I no longer have an opinion about it. Or rather, I have an opinion, but I do not want to think about it, much less voice it out. But I will say one thing. Blame the fans, blame Eeteuk, blame Mnet. Is there any difference? They're all at fault. I do not like to dwell on the unhappy so i shall forget about it now! Teukie, hwaiting! 
Baby panda and daddy panda =D  and a random yesung, just because i uploaded it for af epik till the death of me; 11:00 AM Wednesday, August 01, 2007 VOTE PEOPLE, VOTE! For Jaejoong, mind you, not random japanese boys. JJ has the best chance of winning so, please? PS. You can vote countless times. I voted like 50 times already. epik till the death of me; 8:23 AM |