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About Me  jiaqian → fangirl. insane. beware. → am a little twisted, and a lot disturbing, but once you look past the insaneness, i'm quite interesting. → this is a mostly a place for me to wax horrible poetry and post cryptic rants that no one will understand but of late it has evolved into yet another angsty diary. but the last time i checked, that's what blogs are for. →also, lots of typos since i'm normally high (on life, not crack!), tipsy or depressed when i write my posts. seriously. → profanity galore. honest raw emotions. are you squirmy when it comes to emotions? → slightly unhinged. dancing on the edge yet in control. perfection is overrated. The likes ♥
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Credits Layout design by Eefennie. edited by mua. | Tuesday, July 28, 2009 last i checked, unity, along with words like patriotism, aren't in my dictionary. and now i have to write a poem about it? part of the the nonsense i just spewed: for unity is strength,took me all night to write this crap. you better thank me, and thank me good. this goes out to you too, wifey D:< i did your part in that oral test. ps. i have the damned urge to dress up in those army outfits soshi sports. cause they're hot. ow :3 epik till the death of me; 11:16 PM Wednesday, July 22, 2009 HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU'RE OLD :D tablo bby lol. sparkly text. epik till the death of me; 6:58 PM Tuesday, July 21, 2009 so i've been attempting to catch up on LIFE after years of just not caring and yeah, hey people who've probably forgotten me, HAI AFTER 4 YEARS. just a short update for the general massses that i haven't spoken to in AGES. ♫ i grew way taller. 166cm now. 172 with heels! me in heels! can you believe it?) ♫ my hair is also way longer :D ♫ korean obsessed, if that wasn't obvious enough. ♫ i also speak the language. like a four year old native speaks it but hey, i can watch shows without subs. ♫ and ooh, this is a 4 year old blog and i've mostly moved to livejournal so it's mostly me crapping here. ♫ i curse more than i really should. but you probably already knew that. ♫ and er, i look like this.in case you don't know who i am.  well that was a crappy picture. MOVING ON. and now, trip down memory lane. i had all these awesome online friends who were the best ever at making me feel good and then we drifted apart and I MISS YOU. so much. all those fangirls that were a few years older than me. the ones that i talked about everything to. they got tied up with college. one got married. they moved on from kpop to you know, real stuff worth obsessing about. like grades. and money. and life. which i probably should be doing. but hey, why throw away the only fun in my life? and god, has it really been 3 years in kpop? its gotten to the point where i know more than the average korean. and fuck, i keep telling myself to stop being so stuck up but idk, they're ASKING for it. is it my fault? ㅠㅠ 다른 사람도 영어 잘 하거둔. 나만이 아니야. why can't i remember that? 유ㅂ유 this has been my first real post in what, a year? *returns to moping in a corner* epik till the death of me; 3:13 PM Monday, July 20, 2009 Hyukjae feels that headphones are like a door, a door that shuts other out. Headphones signify loneliness. Hyukjae watches Donghae staring out of the window at the passing scenery, bobbing his head slightly to the music, music that only one person can hear. Hyukjae wonders what Donghae is listening to, what's going through Donghae's mind. Hyukjae says something about the weather, about their schedules, asking when Donghae will go back to China, when Donghae will leave him. Donghae doesn't answer, just continues staring out of the window. Hyukjae doesn't know whether Donghae can't hear him, of if Donghae is deliberately ignoring him, and he doesn't want to find out. Fishing out headphones of his own, he shuts the world out and closes his eyes. Labels: wordspit. epik till the death of me; 4:07 PM
► how weird that i have more saudi arabian visitors than malaysians. Saudi Arabia 1,371AND LOL SUPERSHOW II. ryeo: i'm gonna do a ballad! chul: shit, that's boring. dance. ryeo. :| no. chul: with sexy girls. ryeo: ... sexy girls? see i totally expected wook to suck because his voice just doesn't suit insommia and ryeowook dancing? but saoidsa OH FUCK. he just flew up my list. and let's not forget the magnae because OMG HEECHUL STOP CORRUPTING THE ONLY SANE ONE IN THE GROUP. kyhyun. in drag. dancing gee. er. and hyuk bby, keep the (hothothot) red hair, lose the eyeliner. epik till the death of me; 3:12 PM Friday, July 17, 2009 a fucking horrible friend i've been, both in rl and in e-space. been feeling really down lately. and lifeless. fidgety. because i'm a restless person and i need constant entertainment. last year i had numerous fangirling events to vent out. you promised me 2pm, jyp D: epik till the death of me; 3:51 PM Sunday, July 12, 2009 when i was a bit younger, i had this idea about 16. seems so cool and all. ell i've been 16 for two days and as always, i realised that its all just media brainwashing xD was a nice birthday :D quiet, but nevertheless nice. i got manga (THANK YOU XD) and 6 fics written for me! i love sharing my birthday with that diva of a heechul :Dbr> 0710 soulmates~ epik till the death of me; 8:03 PM Saturday, July 04, 2009 i was working on this totally epik bodyguard au verse. and then i lost interest xD but the total word count so far is almost 10,000 and i've already posted up around 4000 words in three parts. which reminds me. my wgm!blohyuk is just dying. at least i managed to rope 5 people into writing me birthday fics. now all i need is someone to make me a blohyuk/hyukjae/donghae/2pm userpic. epik till the death of me; 12:51 PM |