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About Me  jiaqian → fangirl. insane. beware. → am a little twisted, and a lot disturbing, but once you look past the insaneness, i'm quite interesting. → this is a mostly a place for me to wax horrible poetry and post cryptic rants that no one will understand but of late it has evolved into yet another angsty diary. but the last time i checked, that's what blogs are for. →also, lots of typos since i'm normally high (on life, not crack!), tipsy or depressed when i write my posts. seriously. → profanity galore. honest raw emotions. are you squirmy when it comes to emotions? → slightly unhinged. dancing on the edge yet in control. perfection is overrated. The likes ♥
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Credits Layout design by Eefennie. edited by mua. | Thursday, December 31, 2009 2006 2007 2008 2009 and now 2010. that'll be five years in the blogosphere. thats an awfully long time D: ♥ well. good luck to next year. and of course, HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! and look! cupcakes!   epik till the death of me; 1:31 PM Wednesday, December 30, 2009 I AM A VERY HAPPY GIRL, YA HEAR? i didn't want to post again, but the 2009 sbs gayo daejun is just too amazing to pass up. so prepare for some spazziness. i'll number it for neatness xD 1. FIRST OF ALL, OMG JUNHO/DOOJOON IN SIGN. i ship dooho so badly you wouldn't even believe. 2. key belongs in a girl group. seriously. the boy does muzik waaaay too well. that headphones dance? NAILED IT. 3. omgomgomgomg "bopeep bopeep bopeep GURL~ ♥" junho is the cutest thing ever sajlkdls I WANNA SQUISH HIM. if one of those boys ever did the bopeep dance in front of me i would just push him to the ground and do... stuff xD SO PRECIOUS. 4. heechul in two ponytails during gee. how disturbing is that? taemin in a wig? ㅇㅅㅇ and the worst thing is, i thought eeteuk was one of the girl dancers. 5. "I SAY HEE YOU SAY SICA. HEE. SICA." LOL. 6. leejoon and jinwoon's hair. bleh. everyone else's hair, LOOOVE the ponytails ♥ i have this thing for a coconut-like ponytail on top of fluffy hair. it kills me so. 7. YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL PARODY. BEST EVER. i mean, a wooyoung/junho kiss? no matter how crappy it is, i love it cause i'll take anything! lucky narsha ♥ nickhun being angry is just so precious. 8. K.Will+jonghyun+junsu+kimtaewoo - 거짓말 lies+촛불 하나 one candle! these are two of my favourite songs~ but maybe its because there are too many talented singers. its like an adlib competition. too many vocal techniques. 9. 2PM+소녀시대 snsd- Be Without You+DuranDuran. really now, wooyoung, three girls? you lucky duck :D 10. also, i see you, always keep the faith sign~ i'm done :D so its almost 3am now. should sleep. nite sweeties~ epik till the death of me; 1:15 AM Tuesday, December 29, 2009 i have another place for freewrite so entries labelled wordspit has slowed. ♫ he goes into that room, confident that his vocals is all he needs (you have the most breathtaking voice, wooyoung says one night when junho sings a lullaby to help him fall asleep) and comes out, broken, sad and confused. but mostly confused. (you have a nice voice and nice moves and a fairly nice face, they tell him, but you don't have what it takes to be a star.) he doesn't quite get it, really. wooyoung awaits him when he gets home, all hopeful smiles and shining eyes. junho gives a sad shake of his head and the smile on wooyoung's face disappears and for a moment, junho feels almost guilty. he'll give anything for that smile to return. wooyoung wraps him into a hug and murmurs comforting words (there's always next time, he says with fierce determination, and you'll get in) and junho thinks, huh, it doesn't quite hurt as much anymore. Labels: wordspit. epik till the death of me; 1:54 AM Saturday, December 26, 2009 hey bbys, did you have a nice christmas? i hope you did. even if it wasn't that great, things will become better soon :D to quote one of my favourites, if you're reading this, you're alive. if thats not something to smile about, i don't know what is.especially all of you stalkers. i think there are many of you? i'm not sure. i miss you guys :) i was about to give a shoutout to all of you but a stalker left a message on my cbox. *huggles* it really cheers me up ♥ oh, i've been watching unstoppable high kick. its 22/23 minutes per episode and so far i'm at episode 51. i started two days ago xD but here's a confession: the only reason i can watch so fast is because i skip all the parts that doesn't have yoonshiyoon or daniel choi or gikwang or julian kang. and the really really cute girl thats shiyoon's tutor. i need my own shiyoon. and daniel choi. they're so hot i spazz every time i watch :D i claw at the screen and everything xD idk, they're so amazing ♥ i'm dying to know who ends up with who. sigh, i miss spazzfests. epik till the death of me; 10:48 PM Thursday, December 24, 2009 MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY ♥ its been a noisy evening with family and lots of alcohol. good times, good times :D epik till the death of me; 10:17 PM Tuesday, December 22, 2009 happy winter solstice day or whatever you call it! this is what i spent all morning doing! 
anyway, we're selling all three of our cars! dad's company requires him to drive the company car so we decided to change all three cars! xD
right now we have a mercedes c200, a bmw 218 and a crappy malaysian car. we're changing it into a mercedes c180, i-can't-remember-what from the 2009 bmw 5 series and a crappy malaysian car.
there's actually a very good reason. the other two cars are kinda wonky and if we don't sell them by new years, the value will drop. but hey, three new cars in a span of two weeks. not bad, eh? :DLabels: winter solstice festival epik till the death of me; 1:08 PM Monday, December 21, 2009 so my bro is back. first step into the house in a year and he's more concerned about the christmas tree. or rather, the fact that we have one. he's such an atheist xD oh right. i should mention, he's back for GOOD. graduated from drake uni and decided that there are no jobs left in the US. so he's hanging around here for a few months before jetting off to somewhere for work. probably hongkong or shanghai, since thats where the goldmines are. epik till the death of me; 6:09 PM
► i hear christmas. i'm so fucking sick. COUGH BE GONE! D: decorated the christmas tree!  we don't celebrate christmas. i just like the sparkly lights. and bought a new top as my christmas present.  epik till the death of me; 12:20 AM Thursday, December 17, 2009 back from japan. recovered from a bought of h1n1 before i even realised i got it :D too lazy to repost so go over to my livejournal to read my entry edit_ mini pic spam! kotone-chan 
jr high school!  me in a a yukata.  me writing shuji  nagoya castle.  in another yukata before bed.  at the train station. group pic!  my host family <3  epik till the death of me; 9:23 PM Saturday, December 05, 2009 lol just a note for myself so i remember. gwak minjung (kinda looks like hongki) kim hyesung (the actor. boy meets boy ftw son jungin (cyworld here lee sangjun (i LOVE this kid)> park sangil (kinda looks like hyunjoong) lee chung (cuuuuute.) lee jihoo (this. so fucking much) i haven't stalked uhljjangs since nichkhun and hyde... (hyde was in mkmf 06!) (and uh, obviously nichkhun debuted) i think i liked mikki for a while there. she's so infamous. there's this other guy i loved. but i can't for the life of me recall his name. its been two years, after all. Labels: note to self epik till the death of me; 12:13 PM
► english. i tell people that chinese is my mother language. and its true. it is my mother language. they're always amazed that i can speak english so well. and here's the part that i'm not quite honest about. even though chinese is my mother language, i've been better at english all my life. the truth is, even though i grew up in a chinese speaking family, hung out with chinese speaking friends and attended a chinese primary school, my chinese kinda sucks. aure, i can get As in exams and of course i understand everything you say. but sometimes i make up phrases by randomly mashing words together and everyone else just laughs at me. and i always have difficulty remembering how to write harder words. my chinese teacher finds me weird. she says mine is a truly special case because i literally never spoke or even used english until i hit 13 and entered secondary school. there was no need to. everyone around me spoke chinese. the only times i came in contact with english was when i read or watched tv. with conditions like mine, by right, i would be better at chinese. but no. i think in english. everything goes through a translation in my mind. and i'm obviously much better at writing in english. but honestly, i don't even know the rules of english. i follow my heart. if it sounds right, it is right. i hardly make mistakes. the few mistakes that i do make are done when i think so fast my hand doesn't quite cooperate. i have no idea what adjectives or pronouns are. yet somehow, i'm still better at english than 70% of my peers. i still get tongue tied speaking english sometimes. my mind moves much faster than my mouth does and since i truly started speaking english only a few years back, the words feel foreign on my tongue. ... and now i have no idea what i'm talking about anymore. Labels: rant. epik till the death of me; 12:57 AM Thursday, December 03, 2009 drunken tiger aka tiger jk actually replied to my tweet! 
its what i've been trying to et him to do ever since he started becoming twiddicted.
i guess i was the only malaysian who bothered replying to his question of "where y'll at?"
but gah this just made my day.
i'm gonna try tasha next! (she is so pretty and amazing and badass omg ;A;)Labels: fangirlism epik till the death of me; 8:55 PM Wednesday, December 02, 2009 i have one thing on my christmas wish list. just one. any book by Jonathan Safran Foer. please. /want very much oh god, i've seen quotes of his writing and it just makes me drool i am in love with his writing, and i haven't even read a single book of his. this is my absolute favourite quote ever. This is love, isn't it? When you notice someone's absence and hate that absence more than anything? More, even, than you love his presence?the only other quote i've seen that comes close is this. When I was 5 years old, my mom always told me that happiness was the key to life. When I went to school, they asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. I wrote down “happy.” They told me I didn’t understand the assignment and I told them they didn’t understand life. -l'Eco di Bru epik till the death of me; 4:21 AM |