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About Me  jiaqian → fangirl. insane. beware. → am a little twisted, and a lot disturbing, but once you look past the insaneness, i'm quite interesting. → this is a mostly a place for me to wax horrible poetry and post cryptic rants that no one will understand but of late it has evolved into yet another angsty diary. but the last time i checked, that's what blogs are for. →also, lots of typos since i'm normally high (on life, not crack!), tipsy or depressed when i write my posts. seriously. → profanity galore. honest raw emotions. are you squirmy when it comes to emotions? → slightly unhinged. dancing on the edge yet in control. perfection is overrated. The likes ♥
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Credits Layout design by Eefennie. edited by mua. | Saturday, May 29, 2010 we adopted a dog from the pound :D  her name is muddy, so called because of the state she was in when she first arrived at the pound. i'm going to give her a new name, because she's not going to be dirty anymore now xD i'm thinking of either mirae (future) or miso (smile). anyway, we went to the pound with the intention of getting a puppy that could watch over our house. there she was in the corner, looking every bit as pitiful. the volunteer there told us that she was abused by her ex-owners and bullied by the other dogs. upon hearing that, we HAD to give her a good home. she's two years old and extremely timid, which is the opposite of what we were looking for in the first place. she's been in the shelter since oct 08 and i guess, if you want to be all technical about it, you could say she's past her "sell-by date". then they told us we couldn't have her because malaysian rules state that each household can only have 2 dogs, which we already do. without even knowing it, i was crying haha. i was bawling over a dog i just met 5 minutes ago and i think they realised that if we didn't adopt her, she'll never get a caring home. so here we are. we've already fed her, bathed her and deticked her and i think she's starting to trust us a little more. my two dogs are going ballistic though :D epik till the death of me; 5:54 PM Sunday, May 23, 2010 pop star by day, superhero by night. it all seemed ridiculous to nichkhun. shouldn't he have chosen a more discreet cover? but no, the people who casted him on the streets were persistent, even after he made it clear that he couldn't sing or dance or even act. apparently it didn't matter; all he needed to do was smile. it wasn't until later, when he had joined the company, that he realised it wasn't all that it seems. and really, he could have refused, but he was enticed by the cash and the fame. (at least that was what he said when anyone asked him why he joined this superficial industry when he had a near perfect gpa. in reality, he stayed for the small, awkward boy with the puffy cheeks) but he supposed, what they said about the most dangerous place being the safest place applied to a situation like this. who would have thought that a seemingly normal looking company that churns out pretty idols like dolls also produced a batch of highly trained undercover agents that protect the city of seoul from the dangers of the night? and so, 17 and confused, nichkhun found himself learning how to paralyze a person with one blow and also how to pose for the cameras. Labels: wordspit. epik till the death of me; 12:23 AM Tuesday, May 18, 2010 why is my chatbox so quiettttttttttttt. no one i know in real life comes here /sobs/ so i get most of my hits from google. (where is Bhutan? or Aruba. Or Nicaragua.) and i can see the keywords used to find my blog. it's slightly worrying. haha korean boys wearing boxersso, it's either underwear, yaoi fanfiction or children. but really, the three of these words in one sentence are a cause of concern. haha. eunhae will be the death of me lately. donghae is the best thing to happen to twitter since twitter itself! :D here, have some gorgeousness courtesy of twitter.  and also, say hi to park jaehyun. uljjang.  he's kind of a airhead, but that's alright. his pretty face makes up for it. but he's not really my type. i actually like some brains on my boys :D epik till the death of me; 6:36 PM Saturday, May 15, 2010 DONGHAE IS SO PRESH why is he so perfect what is this nichkhun you are nothing compared to him. I AM SO EXCITED AIGHT? YOU CANNOT BELIEVE HOW HAPPY I AM. THIS IS LIKE WATCHING THE CONCERT LIVE, EXCEPT WITH LESS SWEAT. AND I'M IN PYJAMAS. i've kinda forgotten how much i love them and then they come along and do THIS. what is THIS? THIS comprises of a lot of things. mainly, synchronised hipthrusting on hyukjae and donghae's part. WHATISTHIS i'm anaemic as it is boys. seriously, every drop of blood is precious so stop making me nosebleeeeed. and there's the hyukmin message, where sungmin sounds so freaking adorable that i just want to glomp him so damn bad. his voice is UGH. when he goes "웃기네~" i was just all SQUEAAAAAAAAAAALLLLLLL. and also, the shirtlessness of it all! eeteuk and eunhyuk and whoo~ even donghae! that's right i'm not quite sane right now. replaying the bonamana comeback stage so many times xD seriously, superjunior makes me excited like no other not even tvxq, not even 2pm, not even epik high can make my fingers and toes curl up like this. i go all crazy and lol you wouldn't want to encounter me in those kind of moods. SUPERJUNIOR NEEDS TO FILM A REALITY SHOW WITH ALL 10 MEMBERS NAO. maybe it can replace EHB as my favourite tv show :D kibu epik till the death of me; 3:45 PM Tuesday, May 11, 2010 → i changed my twitter username to blohyuk :DDDD because i have no life like that. but now i can never reply to tablo's tweets /sobs → honestly, when it comes to internet stalking, i don't think anyone can beat me. because lol i don't just do google, i yahoo ping baidu naver and even daum. yeah, be afraid be very afraid. short of your password, i can dig out every little thing about you haha. → i think my left cheek is going to bear a hole soon. people keep poking my dimple. seriously, what is this i don't even. some people don't know their own strength and it fucking hurts, alright, when you jab my cheek with your finger. secondly, i feel really uncomfortable when you're inspecting my dimple. that's just really weird, you staring at my face. i get self conscious alright? and third, it doesn't even come out all the time. sounds weird, but it's true. i never even noticed i had a dimple until people felt compelled to leave crescent shaped fingernail marks on my cheeks. → i was actually looking forward to the english essay test today. god, do i like to write that much? epik till the death of me; 10:53 PM Wednesday, May 05, 2010 deb was talking about kidnapping yoogeun (why do i always get propositioned with plans that include kidnapping?) and i mentioned inhwan, which lead to moonbin. and before i knew it, i was trawling the internet for the boy. what can i say? he's HAWWWT. ... i'm stalking kids way younger than me. so, what's new? but it's all good! he's not THAT young. he's... TWELVE. and he is seriously fucking hot. (did i just say that about a 12 year old :|) why the hell does he even have FANMEETINGS. i am just WAITING for the day he's upgraded from a "child uljjang" to a full blown uljjang. then i can stalk his cyworld without feeling guilty. this is a pretty old picture of him, when he was even jailbait-ier. 
new pictures can only be found on his daum fansite (?! FANSITE. it's lovemoonbin btw) and cannot be taken out unless i'm a
member. screencapping is much too LQ to give justice to this boy.
if you're not taken in, watch this. it's from 2007. he was... T_T 9.this is moonbin (yunho's kid in balloons) and chanhee (yoochun's kid in balloons. equally cute.) playing some video game. his voice kills me. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH /explodes from the cuteness. i swear, if these two kids were in front of me, i would. uh no. i would not. should not. TWELVE. no, i'm not crazy. i mean, the kid has looks that would make any girl melt. he's a heartbreaker. you can just tell. girls everywhere will be attracted to him like moths to a light, only to be eletrocuted to death or something. you get the point. people this pretty are dangerous. poisonous. drugs. and oh, oh! moonbin trivia #214: moonbin shares the same birthday with jaejoong. jaejoong's fake birthday anyway. the boy was born on the 26th of january 1998. anyway, kids an aspiring actor too (who isn't?) he was in boys over flowers as mini kimbum.  because i'm kind of a stalker, he appears in episode 17. if you're watching in parts of 10 minutes, it's approximately 5 minutes into part 5. basically, he gets more action than kimbum does haha. oh, and he's also in episode 3, along with 3 other kids. (one of those kids is now acting in happiness in the wind :D)rawr. epik till the death of me; 10:32 PM Monday, May 03, 2010 yeah you read right. seven-oh-oh. 5 years, bby. yes, i have no life. why do you ask? so you guys probably know by now, tablo's a baby daddy. TABLO'S A BABY DADDY. that means i'm not only lusting after a married man, i'm slightly in love with a married man with a child. and did i mention, i ship this man, who's 13 years older than me, with another man (boy?). that's not awkward at all. nosireee. if i ever meet tablo in person, i probably wouldn't even be able to look him in the eye. that is, if i manage to get over the hyperventilating and jizzing in my pants. by then, he's probably trying to avoid me and wondering why this girl's vocabulary only consisted of "hy-hyuk-hyuk-tab-hyukblo?". sigh. still. baby daddy. epik till the death of me; 9:20 PM Saturday, May 01, 2010 first off, 2pm flash clock. slash it or leave it? okay. on to post. ♥ sigh. bbys, why don't you ever listen to me. when people find out that i'm a "kpop freak" (... i'm not, really. really. and oh~ freak is such a strong word), for some weird reason, they insist on borrowing my phone (here's a tip: it's not borrowing when you wrangle it out of my hands) so they can check out my music playlist. i keep telling them, no no don't bother. you wouldn't know any of these songs. because frankly, these kids' knowledge about kpop only extend to superjunior. (hence the popular opinion that sorry sorry is the best. song. ever. if i ever hear that song again, i will strangle someone. i'm fucking serious) but of course they act all offended and give me their own versions of 날 무시해? (jaebum quote 101: are you looking down on me?). so i surrender my phone. ... and watch their faces turn from :D to :) to ? to :|. then they ask me questions like, don't you have abracadabra in your phone? or do you have snsd's new songs? um, abracadabra was released in july 2009 and snsd dropped their album 3 months ago. the music is my phone is heavily rotated, more so for mainstream autotuned shit. i don't have really indie stuff in my phone, i think. it's all pretty mainstream music. out of 200 over songs, 28 are sg wannabe songs (because i love jinhoooooo ♥), 14 from brown eyed soul and 13 from 4men. and of course, a small percentage made out of the top 40 bubblegum kpop: 2pm, rain, hyori, fcuz, ze;a (they can actually kinda sing live! never noticed before because i was distracted by the unfortunate song choice) the rest is just g.o.d (why the hell do i have so many god songs..? D:), 1tym, evan, soulstar, epikhigh, mate, brown eyes and lucid fall. ... wait, how old am i? now that i've looked at my song choice, haha, sometimes i wonder myself. i apologize for my rant. have some handmade eyeballs.  (for our haunted house last saturday!) epik till the death of me; 11:54 PM |