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About Me  jiaqian → fangirl. insane. beware. → am a little twisted, and a lot disturbing, but once you look past the insaneness, i'm quite interesting. → this is a mostly a place for me to wax horrible poetry and post cryptic rants that no one will understand but of late it has evolved into yet another angsty diary. but the last time i checked, that's what blogs are for. →also, lots of typos since i'm normally high (on life, not crack!), tipsy or depressed when i write my posts. seriously. → profanity galore. honest raw emotions. are you squirmy when it comes to emotions? → slightly unhinged. dancing on the edge yet in control. perfection is overrated. The likes ♥
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Credits Layout design by Eefennie. edited by mua. | Saturday, July 31, 2010 when everyone says i'm not study i'll just go shut up i am learning history and geography. look, i'm watching hetalia! italy is cute! so are spain and romania! i absolutely think hetalia is the most original and cutest anime/web comic ever. basically countries are manga-fied. it focuses on italy, who's basically one weak whining baby. he becomes allies with germany, a strict no-frills kind of man, and drives him crazy. more and more characters get introduced and ooohhhhhhhhhh so cute ;A; i love it so much T___T italy is the cutest loser in the world <3 sample webstrip: 
and here's one scene from the anime, but in the chibi sections (chibitalia). absolutely adorable. i think i watched the anime up to episode 5 when it was released, and i'm not sure why i never finished watching because CUUUUTE. and now, for your daily decision crisis, should i go to prom? anyone wants to take me? :D epik till the death of me; 11:28 PM Sunday, July 25, 2010 there comes a time in every fangirl's life when she startes being older than the boybands debuting. my time has come. lol i've always been a little bit dramatic. but what i said is true. and when that time comes, you have two choices: stick to your old bias and moan about the inevitable falling apart; or embrace the nuna fangirl way of life and go COME TO NUNA BBY. yes. it's official. i spent the last two days frantically searching teentop on youtube. most vids i've already seen but what the heck it never hurts to rewatch. i can't wait for moonbin to debut! because if debutees can be born in 1995 it's only a matter of time before the 1998s appear! and here's an obligatory picture of moonbin, playing with mini changmin jung chanwoo. chanwoo is also amazingly cute. I WANT THEM TO DEBUT DAMN IT. 
oh yeah, trufax: when i was searching for more on chanhee, aka this kid (also yoochun's kid),
all i found was... CHUNJI.because his real name is chanhee. i swear this is fate haha. epik till the death of me; 12:29 AM Thursday, July 22, 2010  no, not another new obsession. i mean, seriously. FIFTEEN. they should just come with a warning that says for those who don't know, for those who don't know them (and who will?), let me provide names and ages. from left: niel. 1994. lead singer. (basically the ONLY singer) l.joe. 1993. cap. 1992. rapper. (OHYES FINALLY AN OPPA HAHA) ricky. 1995. aka seotaiji boy. chunji. 1993. AKA MYFUCKINGBIAS. but wtf 3 months younger. changjo. 1995. magnae! for those who find ricky cute, THIS IS HIM TWO OR THREE YEARS BACK. so stop in your tracks, pedo nunas!  i actually have almost no interest in this group, especially changjo. lol its like he doesn't exist. but this boy! 
i love cute, pretty boys and if he isn't pretty, what is he?  and look, chunji with l.joe! awwwwww. also, i read on tumblr that "Teen Top stands for (T)eenager (E)moBoys (E)moticon (N)ext Generation (T)alent (O)bject (P)raise." you're not fucking kidding? but lol, who believes the things they read on tumblr? epik till the death of me; 9:20 PM Sunday, July 18, 2010 haven't posted in a week. which is rare, but increasingly often these few months. why? i'm trying to buck up and hit the books. but we'll get to that later. first, an important announcement: I got chosen for National Service!ain't i just absolutely lucky. 3 months of amped up summer camp? the joy. i am the chosen one! the special half of the youth that will learn about patriotism and promote unity! fuck yeah 1malaysia! i actually really considered going because hell, great experience, no?but i really didn't want to postpone my enrolment for college. i'll rather have a headstart on my further education, thanks. . and now, back to the studying part. i've decided to loosen up on myself, to stop caring that much about my grades when the ones that i am failing are the ones that i care nothing about and the ones that will not help me in my future career. just because i fail in spm does not mean i fail in life. i will still study, much more than i did previously, but que sera sera. some might say it reflects badly on my character- i am a lazy person, i'm a quitter, i give up too easily. i am finding excuses for my own inability to buckle down and do. but god, ever since i decided to let loose, it's like a load has been lifted off my shoulders. i've always wondered, what does the average joe do? the students who do not get sparkling good grades, the students who do not excel in every fucking thing, the students who would gladly give extra classes a miss to check out the new game hitting the internet world. i've always been grouped with the "smart" kids, so i've always, always wondered. well, now i shall find out. i may regret it now, i may regret it later. i may regret it soon, i may regret it never. but i'm really happy now, isn't that all that matters? epik till the death of me; 12:12 PM Saturday, July 10, 2010 brian is the best aight? i got a hug, a birthday wish, an autograph, a group photo and a hug! he really dishes out fanservice, trying to interact with his fans. he said so many funny things that he commented this was turning into a comedy show. so we start from the beginning yeah? at 1120 we were brought to a room at the rooftop and waited for 2 hours in that stuffy room with no seats :( this is my press conference pass :D 
at 1 something, brian walked in. right where we stood.
he was gracious, answering questions the best he could. he said it was his first solo showcase ever, which made me think why malaysia?. it was obvious the media weren't interested. he answered the basic questions about the weather (hot!), the girls (pretty and sweet) and how he got to sing in my head (jason saw his videos on youtube and universal contacted brian to remake it). i've got a bunch of vids i might upload on youtube.video and audio quality killed by youtube and converters. check the video description for the question.  
after about 10-15 minutes, it was time for 1 on 1 interviews by the media and the three of us fans were ushered out.
i went down to collect my ticket and to my surprise, when i handed the lady my confirmation letter, she went, "oh, miss gan ah!" turns out i was the first one on the list, meaning the first one who booked xD then she wished me happy birthday! hahaha and due to a previous mix up (which i was informed of 3 days ago) my ticket wasn't there. so the lady called to another one and that lady said, "gan jia qian? her ticket is in that bag!" after handing me my ticket, she added, "happy birthday!" that's so cool, the staff remembering my name without me telling them and my birthday too!
waited in the air conditioned lobby for a while then went in.brian came out, sang in my head korean version and then introduced himself. he's such a genuinely nice guy. he even sang Kajima 가지마 and MY FAVOURITE SONG EVER Kaseum Apado 가슴 아파도. aside from that, he practically sang the whole album - Dreaming, 내 여자 (My Girl), Bullet, Do it, 친구의 여자를 사랑했네 (A Friend's Girl I Fell With), Tears Run Dry and the english version of In My Head. in between, there was a lot of ment and a part where he dished out fanservice to 4 lucky girls. and man, did he go all out. two girls were hugged, one girl got a sexy dance and one girl got aegyo. aegyo and sexy dancing? brian's expertise! his cute antics made the security guy beside me laugh and shake his head. after the showcase, the host announced that the winners of 8tv's nitelive contest could take pictures with brian. yiwei won it and technically only one should go, but i went as well. those kids who paid 248 and above got a group picture with 10 but hah! we got a group picture with 4. AND i stood next to brian. i said, "um hi, it's my birthday today, so could i get a hug later? he replied something along the lines of, "really? that's awesome! sure! happy birthday!" after we took the picture, he gave me a hella tight hug and even kinda rubbed/tapped my back, as per proper hugging etiquette (lol i googled it!). i even hugged back tightly haha. then i told him, "you're really friendly!" and he said, "thanks for the compliment!" this is the autographed poster!  Labels: fan account epik till the death of me; 6:42 PM Wednesday, July 07, 2010 OKAY SO LIKE UM BRIAN IS NOW MY FAVOURITE ARTIST EVER? i won a pass to the brian joo press conference!!!!!! did not expect to win at all since i misunderstood the rules and actually went over the word limit xD but heeeey i knew playing the "it's my birthday!" card would work! i'm so excited. /sobbing/ can you believe i actually SHOOK when i read the news? now. what shall i wear? :D epik till the death of me; 10:45 PM Saturday, July 03, 2010 just finished the last of the vengeance trilogy, sympathy for lady vengeance! 
[mild spoilers for the trilogy]a lot of people listed this as their favourite, but idk, to me it's the weakest one. still, keep in mind that by weak, i only mean between the three. it is still mindblowing and the ending is just. wow. but it can't compare to old boy. (of course it can't compare to old boy. nothing can compare to old boy) i mean, yeah well getting a couple of parents to murder their children's kidnapper is gruesome, but it can't beat carving out someone's kidney while they're alive or plucking teeth off one by one as a form of torture. plus, there aren't many questions in this film. the intent was clear from the start. unlike in old boy, where it was so tightly wound, the whole thing finally unfurls, it hits you in the stomach like a well placed punch. such a simple reason led to so many years of imprisonment. it's scary, how well planned that movie was. the theme of revenge is also the most straight forward in this one. a mother taking revenge after losing her child. hohum? compare that to say, revenge after someone stole your kidney, or revenge for keeping you locked up in a room for 15 years... bit weak, no? and with mr vengeance, you can tell that the main character is really a softie at heart, a softie driven to make bad choices by less than stellar influences. you actually feel for him and take a liking for that poor old mute. in lady vengeance though, i feel nothing for geumja. she is stone cold, perhaps hardened by prison and misguided faith. i wouldn't blame her for becoming this way; she did lose her child after all, but i feel like there's something lacking in her. nevertheless, no one does mindfuck like director park does, and i think i'm going to watch thrist and paju now. epik till the death of me; 10:16 PM
► 너 같은 사람 또 없어~~~~~ so um, sick like fuck and i really need the rest right now but nooo. because obviously, watching donghae and sungmin with kids is more important than my own general health.  every single fibre in me is screaming make that man your baby daddy! they'll make such good dads, srsly ;A; plus, my babies will be pretty! xD i love kids and any man that can be that great with kids gets my approval *thumbs up* haha i'm probably scaring away all potential boyfriends right now, talking about kids. i can't help it ;A; when i see kids i go all *grabby hands* ___________ now, about 너 같은 사람 또 없어/no other! now this is the suju i know and love! the casual clothes, the obviously relaxed smiles on all their faces and how they're enjoying themselves so much more. no complicated dance moves and no straining their vocals. my face when i watch no other is :DDDDDDDDDDDDD ah, i miss the old suju :( epik till the death of me; 5:53 PM |