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About Me  jiaqian → fangirl. insane. beware. → am a little twisted, and a lot disturbing, but once you look past the insaneness, i'm quite interesting. → this is a mostly a place for me to wax horrible poetry and post cryptic rants that no one will understand but of late it has evolved into yet another angsty diary. but the last time i checked, that's what blogs are for. →also, lots of typos since i'm normally high (on life, not crack!), tipsy or depressed when i write my posts. seriously. → profanity galore. honest raw emotions. are you squirmy when it comes to emotions? → slightly unhinged. dancing on the edge yet in control. perfection is overrated. The likes ♥
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Credits Layout design by Eefennie. edited by mua. | Tuesday, October 30, 2007 kkjashlaSLJLKLAK! fhskhdsdlkjls? hdlasdlkasdj! Oh, I'm sorry, I forgot that not all people speak the fine art of keyboard mash. Let me provide a translation: My mind is full of crack! Whats better than kihae fanfics? eunhae fanfics! Pkay, I have been unserious for too long. I'll be serious now. OH YAYS I got better marks on my exams than i expected to. Never mind the three 60 somethings, I got 97 for English! You know how impossible it is to get high marks if there's essays. *throws confetti in air and participates in underage drinking* heard Bigbang's new songs? I find them funny. i sh*t you not Oh TOP you're so funny XD XD XD epik till the death of me; 10:57 PM Sunday, October 28, 2007 1. Yunnie~ Get well soon! 2. SUJU~ come to msia in the first half of the year! YOU PROMISED! 3. I have my first fanfic PM list! 4. Would you marry me? 나의 모든 날을 함께 해줄래? $%&*%&*^& YES EETEUK YES! 5. friendster now accpets hangul. 6. BIGBANG IS GREAT! Gdragon. seungRi. taEyang. dAesung. Top 7. Kihae wins at life. We ALL know that. We also know the reason I'm alive is so i can fangirl kihae and eunhae 8. YAY im BOUNCY. all because of donghae. oh noes. i be sitting here for 4 hours already. mommy will get mad >:( me no care ^^ 7. I missed lunch. RAWR but no hungry. Im going to DAORAE LATER!!! because theres a hella hot pic of junsu on the door next to hothothot group pic. I'll steal that pic. You see. 8. OHNOESOHNOES. sendspace not working! epik till the death of me; 11:55 AM Friday, October 19, 2007 So, who else is just stumbling blindlt through the days, wasting their life away like me? I stared out the open window, the earphones in my ears, feeling the slight cool breeze brush past my face. I watched a couple of little fireflies flit around, dancing in what I assumed to be a love dance. Their movements were beautiful and graceful, and they had me enthralled. One landed on my hand. Carefully, I cupped the tiny little insect in my hand. It fluttered its wings slightly, confused, searching for a way out. Its lighted glowed softly through the cracks between my fingers. I opened my hands and let the firefly free for I was afraid I would accidentally harm it. It flew higher and higher, grateful to be free, until it finally disappeared from my sight. I couldn't hurt it anymore, but it was a cruel world out there, filled with predators that were out looking for a bite sized meal. Every day, every flutter of its wings could be its last. In a way, the firefly was like the words in my heart. The words were inside me, desperate to be released, and kept inside, I could be hurt. After setting the words free, I would feel happier, but I wasn't completely safe from being hurt. In fact, I was more vulnerable to it. If any one of us decided that all this was a mistake, I didn't just risk losing a lover, I risked losing a best friend.-Love, lust, agony madelyn93 epik till the death of me; 9:49 AM Wednesday, October 17, 2007 OMG i saw DBSK! And i touched Micky's hand twice! I went to stalk them at the airport today. When DBSk came out, everyone started screaming like mad. I ran like crazy of course. I reached just as Junsu exited the arrival area. He was wearing sunglasses and looking really hot. He didn't smile, as usual. I saw Yunho smiling kinda awkwardly. I ran blindly and was pushed towards the security guards. I almost stumbled and instinctively reached out for the nearest arm. It took me a split second to realise. OMFG this is MICKY's hand i'm touching! so i touched him, again. In the car, Yunho waved! *dies* Later, at the sunway hotel, everyone was waiting for dbsk to come out. i think we waited for two hours? they were supposed to come out from the elevators. then i noticed cameras at the other side of the room. cameras=dbsk. I saw junsu -he was wearing a black and white shirt, kinda stood out. plus jaejoong's hair colour is NOT natural- clearly, so I said kinda loudly, "So thats where they are!" I quickly realised my mistake. I caused an uproar >w< Everyone turned to that direction to see and take pictures. i was one of the only ones who saw them. And OMG changmin is just pure hotness. I'm a lucky person. They made four appearances throughout, each just a few seconds long. I was lucky to get a glimpse of them all 4 times. I kept seeing Junsu, not much changmin and jaejong though. junsu's my fav, so im not complaining Labels: fan account epik till the death of me; 10:59 PM Monday, October 15, 2007 Ah.. what the fuck am i doing? i spent the night watching the ft island show. I'm wasting the days. If you go to the forums, you'll see that I'm online everyday. I think i'll crash this test. Don't give me the "im sure you won't" crap, because I'm pretty much sick of it, and it just piles on the pressure. I've basically cut myself off from communication with my friends. the only people i socialise with are the girls online and my family. I'm feeling.. fragile again. I've been surrounding myself with suju love lately so i wouldn't have to think about the upcoming exams. I'm just waiting for the exams to be over. I have so many things i want to do. Jiaqian hwaiting! epik till the death of me; 11:11 PM
► Happy birthday fishy sweetheart ! ah~This is the second year i've wished him. hopefully i'll get to wish him next year I could write an entire essay on him, but its one am now and my mom thinks i went upstairs an hour ago. epik till the death of me; 12:26 AM Monday, October 08, 2007 HOMG. So i googled my username, madelyn93. I found various sites that took the things i've posted up and credited me! Like one thai bigbang site, they get all their news from af, meaning they copy, just directly copy-my comments on the pics and all-, all my posts and paste it there I compiled and translated a few of suju's thankyou messages and they actually got posted on imeem superjunior groups! I even was on af's top 20 posters list once! epik till the death of me; 9:06 AM Sunday, October 07, 2007 I went to sunway for the night. I realised i forgotten to take my books out of my parents' room and they were downstairs shopping. So I went for a nice long bubble bath instead. i put my MP4 on loudspeaker. After that, i watched a korean movie that happened to be on. I went down for a cup of starbucks later. I love ice blended drinks. Then me and my sis turned all the lights off and watched NHk, a japanese channel, till about 2 before falling asleep. Thats how i spent the weekend before my final exams. How did you? -------------------- I've been feeling down lately, and I did what cheered me up best: write more fanfics. I think I wrote about ten fics in the last week. And now, I shall randomly read fanfics and comment on them. epik till the death of me; 12:27 PM Friday, October 05, 2007 YAY~ they're finally promoting TVXQ's concert. I was randomly scrolling through my friend list in Friendster and clicking on random profiles. then i actually found my friend from korean class. she was my friend all along and i didn't notice! epik till the death of me; 9:57 AM Thursday, October 04, 2007 Oh yay! Essay time!Okay, so its "confirmeD' there'll be SJC. Korean ELF made a website just protesting this. http://kt1171.ivyro.net/13/ There's english if you wanna read and give your opinion. sm doesnt understand the meaning of a subgroup. to be in the sub group, you actually have to be in the actual group in the first place. sm won't be so stupid right? they want to earn money, and if around 90% of fans reject the idea, it'll be cancelled. Then again, if they DO make a group, we'll still learn to accept it and love them We have super junior china now. Lets wait for, say, two years and soon there'll be superjunior france! superjunior us! superjunior egypt even! superjunior will take over the world! everyone will have to bow down to princess heechul! everyone will have to greet each other with "yo touch man!" i pity henry. he's the biggest victim here. I'll be very hurt if i was henry. Sure, his talents will be wasted in suju, and as a solo artists, i dont think he can make it. And he doesnt even speak chinee, so WHATS THE POINT? But its not like he WANTS to be public enemy number 1. Poor guy epik till the death of me; 11:49 AM Wednesday, October 03, 2007 Apparently SM announced yesterday that there is going to be a new SuJu unit at the beginning of next year called "Super Junior China" with Hankyung and Henry as members to do some activities in China, rerecording SuJu songs into Chinese. The rest of the members will be revealed near the time of the start of the activities. a new subgroup, fine, i'm okay with that. but.. with HENRY? i want just superjunior. no offense to henry. a few people in soompi are saying that maybe sm just leaked the news to test reactions and make decisions based on that. i certainly hope so. so basically, now the reactions scream no. to tell the truth, suju is perfect the way they are and they don't need another subgroup. are they not already conquering the chinese market? you can see how much those chinese fans idolize hankyung, its almost scary epik till the death of me; 3:32 PM Tuesday, October 02, 2007 friendster has a stupid virus going around, a virus that i am infected with. it sends testimonials to everyone in my friend list. And its stupid pictures like a picture of a puppy photoshopped onto a baby's face or a grandpa grinning stupidly with his eyes photoshopped really close together. I would never send these because: One, I find these really distasteful. I'm the sort of person who refuses to do anything stupid and what i deem to be distasteful. Frankly, sending these messages doesn't suit whatever image I'm trying to potray. second, I DON'T EVEN KNOW YOU. If i do, I barely speak to you. I will not talk to random strangers unless said stranger is a kpop fan. epik till the death of me; 9:08 AM Monday, October 01, 2007 OH GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD does anyone share the opinion that fishie seems more kid like with the new hair?  CLICK IT. ITS HUGE AND BEAUTIFUL. OH AND THIS IS JUST *NOSEBLEEDS* my boxer radars going crazy. Me=worlds biggest pervert. i watched this about 40times. WHY MUST YOU BE SO INSANELY SMEXY? epik till the death of me; 11:24 AM |