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About Me  jiaqian → fangirl. insane. beware. → am a little twisted, and a lot disturbing, but once you look past the insaneness, i'm quite interesting. → this is a mostly a place for me to wax horrible poetry and post cryptic rants that no one will understand but of late it has evolved into yet another angsty diary. but the last time i checked, that's what blogs are for. →also, lots of typos since i'm normally high (on life, not crack!), tipsy or depressed when i write my posts. seriously. → profanity galore. honest raw emotions. are you squirmy when it comes to emotions? → slightly unhinged. dancing on the edge yet in control. perfection is overrated. The likes ♥
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oh no, everyones studying. im not. im screwed TT~TT DONGHAE <3 epik till the death of me; 3:38 PM Wednesday, September 26, 2007 I think i buy albums just for that 5 minute rush and so i can own bragging rights >< The shinhwa cd is displayed proudly on my desk along with se7en's must listen, rain's im coming-repackaged version- and dbsk's christmas gift from tvxq(all listened to only once! ^^) epik till the death of me; 3:20 PM Tuesday, September 25, 2007 Oh god. Attack on the pin-up boys pawns Vacation. WARNING: spoiler alert. I can watch this a million times and not get bored. Btter acting maybe? Better plot. ALL THAT KIHAE? yes, must be the kihae. Detective kihae is so hot. Donghae made me spazz a million times over. I LOVED HIM.Every single scene. I'm like "Oh, donghae jumped on kibum. donghae is so hot with the camera ^^ oh god. donghae is hot dancing. Donghae is hot being serious and detective like. Donghae has this AURA. how hot. donghae found out the attacker. SMART AND HOT." AND LMAO. sungmin on a pink pony. I love how at the end of the movie, everyones going "nugu ya? nugu ya?" which means "whos this?" before ripping off eeteuk's panda head. One thing I REALLY don't like. ryeowook. HE ANNOYS ME SO MUCH. Not just in this movie where he's all flamboyant *flings hair* In the first album he was alright. maybe adorbale and likable, eve. but recently... When i first listened to their 2nd album, all i heard was Donghae, RYEOWOOK, donghae, kyuhyun, RYEOWOOK RYEWOOK. His voice annoys me. He has this japanese boy voice. http://http://lovelysilver19.livejournal.com/19625.html I'm in love with this fanfic epik till the death of me; 10:00 AM
► DIE BLOGGER DIE YOU HATE ME DOn'T YOU? 
Isn't this photo hot? Just the lyrics make me spazz. Happy chuseok day everybody ^^ Wait, is pink easier to read then white? or is peach better? or blue or yellow! or red or green epik till the death of me; 9:13 AM Saturday, September 22, 2007 Concert date confirmed: 24th november. Told you so. Suju's movie out on youtueb with subs. Now go watch it. He plays the violin with so much passion i fell in love with him before seeing his face WQhat i find really interesting is that he DOESN'T know korean. epik till the death of me; 8:35 PM Friday, September 21, 2007 Violin boy? His name is Henry, and he only helps in suju's title track. theres a violin solo in there, quite long too. i quote sungmin Henry who helped us with our title track and ryeowook Kind Henry supporting (us) in Don't Don thank you~ and.. an article has come out saying that henry was a chinese auditioner of the 2006 auditions & that he participated in suju's title track to give him like, exposure (or whatever the correct term is) cos he's preparing to debut. they also say that he has amazing violin playing skills, in addition to singing & dancing.God he sounds so hot. Violin+singing+dancing. PLUS. He got in through toronto auditions.. meaning... he knows ENGLISH? I'm just guessing. Tagged by debbie. Rules 1. The tag victim has to come up with 8 different points about his/her perfect lover. 2. Have to mention the gender of his/her lover. 3. Tag 8 other victims and leave a comment on their blog. 4. If you're tagged the second time, there is no need for you to do this again. 5. Lastly and most importantly, HAVE FUN DOING IT. If i had a choice I'll just describe donghae, but I can't, so *pout* ONE; I want him to be taller than me<. Even if its by 5cm *uh hum Gd, you listening?* TWO; I want him to funny =] THREE; I want him to be intelligent and able to carry on conversation with me. I find this VERY important, because i lose interest in anyone who isn't on the same wavelength with me. Unfortunately, NO ONE i've met sofar is, so say good luck to me on finding one. FOUR; I want him to be romantic. Little notes, dates to parks, flowers on my desk, hidden presents. A small gesture would make me happy all day. -Remember this when we fight ;P- FIVE; being cute wouldn't hurt. Even if you aren't I wouldnt mind. I fall for looks first, but after about a day, i find him boring, so i stop liking him. BUT, if you're interesting enough -see no.3- but not cute I'll start thinking you're cute anyway. And, the crush will last longer SIX; I'll like him to play a musical instrument. If he doesn't it's alright. I can't play either. SEVEN; If he could draw or sing or DANCE or speak a foreign language or have yummy accents, more points for him<3 Again, if he doesn't it's alright. I can't do either. EIGHT; We have to feel comfortable together. I hate it when i speak with a guy and we fall into uncomfortable silences. It all counts on no3, really. So? Do i intimidate you? I'm straight. So yeah, its a guy. Ok, I tag: Well, I don't wanna reveal my list here ^^ You'll know when i tag you. epik till the death of me; 10:24 AM Thursday, September 20, 2007 Don’t don is so much more different than I thought it would be. I thought something along the lines of tictoc or haengbok. DAMN WAS I EVER WRONG. Try O Jungbanhub+Unlock. I listened to the songs this morning and i had to wait till now to post.OH GOD SO HOT. DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN. *screams* DONGHAE, YOU! WHY YOU SO HOT? I am one VERY HAPPY CAMPER! my brain has just died on me. i am unable to form sentences. PHOTOSHOOT!HAWT If you noticed, theres a guy with a violin. WHO IS HE? I wouldnt mind for a new member, though it wouldnt be the same anymore.. I just spent like 20 minutes loading the new pics to af. DAMN! TOO HOT FOR WORDS. Kyuhyuns blond, for one. >CLICK HERE NOW. S MAG PICS. AND I MEAN NOW epik till the death of me; 9:03 PM Tuesday, September 18, 2007 Your date of conception was on or about 17 October 1992 which was a Saturday. -information i'm happy not knowing.. >< - You were born on a Saturday under the astrological sign Cancer. Your Life path number is 3. Life Path Compatibility: You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 3, 6 & 9. You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 2, 5 & 11. You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 4, 7, 8 & 22. -boo. donghae is a 4- As of 9/17/2007 10:24:14 PM EDT You are 14 years old. You are 170 months old. You are 741 weeks old. You are 5,182 days old. You are 124,390 hours old. You are 7,463,424 minutes old. You are 447,805,454 seconds old There are 297 days till your next birthday on which your cake will have 15 candles. Those 15 candles produce 15 BTUs, or 3,780 calories of heat (that's only 3.7800 food Calories!) . You can boil 1.71 US ounces of water with that many candles epik till the death of me; 10:26 AM
► So I'm going around reading profiles and blogs of my online fangirling friends. Why? I'm bored. Its fun. They reveal so much of themselves. Conclusion? we're all screwed, fucked up people. Though, the difference between me and them is that they're TALENTED, INTERESTING screwed up people. I'm just plain bland and screwed. Boo. Why is everyone so interesting. Seriously. Their lives seem so nice. They camwhore with their friends, go various places without parents, buy stuff off the internet. Whens the last time i actually TALKED -really talk- to my friends? I don't know. I can't remember. I'm banned off internet buying, which i can't accomplish without my parents credit crads anyway. I feel so sheltered. One was complaining of the publlic bus and train services. Well, i wouldn't know, since I've NEVER BEEN ON ONE. I've been on those school buses for school trips and those travel buses for travel tours, but public buses? I don't think so. My only excitement in life is the net. How sad epik till the death of me; 10:06 AM
► I bought shinhwa's album because it was discounted. Its.. not that great. Not that i ever found shinhwa albums to be nice. Their solo works though.. I like =) Shinhwa is one of those bands you love for them, not their music. Like suju. I mean, come on, who can tell me, honestly, that you like them for their music, NOT their looks or behaviour. With bigbang and ft, i like them mostly for the music. They're not exactly big dorks on screen >.< But they ARE cute, and i admit, it could contribute to their attractiveness. Who i like purely for music..? SGwannabe. I would say Epikhigh, then i remember im crazy over tablo because he is a. intelligent b. cute -sorta. it takes a while- c. funny d. kick ass sarcstic Is fantastic parasuicides not the best phase in the world? then again, it stars tablo, so what do we expect from the guy who came up with Remapping the Human Soul epik till the death of me; 8:59 AM Sunday, September 16, 2007 I posted this at soompi and af too. I just spoke to Daorae's manager -Daorae is this Korean restaurant chain. They were the official restaurant for Rain in January, when he came for the concert- And he said DBSK's production team confirmed that DBSK was coming to Malaysia, and that the date was set on the 24th of November. Daorae will once again be their official restaurant. My sis asked what they were coming for and he said "To eat at our restaurant, and for concert." We're not fluent in korean, he doesnt know much english, but we understood what he was talking about. I find a few faults in this. For one, if the concert is scheduled in November, shouldn't they be promoting by now? Secondly, its set before the thailand concert, but the dates for the thailand concert has been long released. i think they ARE coming though, because the manager told me they were official restaurant the last time dbsk came. epik till the death of me; 8:41 PM Saturday, September 15, 2007 the things i do for the boys. The boys' hair were leaked, but everyone, respecting the boys decision to keep it quiet, decided not to look at the pics. Which means all the links/pics were deleted. i havent seen it yet myself. I'll find out with the rest of the world on the 20th Though if you want, you can see the preview of 4 boys' hair here at their offcial site, http://www.super-junior.co.kr. epik till the death of me; 9:46 PM Friday, September 14, 2007 
OMMMG WE HAVE REASON TO CELEBRATE. Its released on the 20th. OMG you got me all excited and hoppy. the picture is SO COOL-it blends in with my background nicely-. lets start playing "who's who"! ANd OMG, 13 people. KYUHYUNS IN THERE. the one on the right is shiwon, beside won is sungmin, then someone, and someone, and kyuhyun then heechul? ponytailed eeteuk? We're all guessing, but we all agree on heechul.
The album entitled "ë ë (don't don)"... although it's really pronounced "dohn dohn"... will be released on 9/20. Apparently, very famous mucians participated in making this album. The name of the album is also the first track off the album and it's a play on the words ë which means money and ëë¤ which means to go insane AND is a rock/R&B song. The album contains 14 songs.
And the best part??? They will FINALLY update their official website (www.super-junior.co.kr) and will show off a teaser flash of the new album stuff starting 9/14.
anyway, IM ON A BRIAN JOO CRAZE AGAIN. The boy is hot. He's sex on a stick.
AND, DBSK's SHINE photobook is to die for. They are undoubtly the hottest guys on earth. MICKY YOU ARE KILLING ME.epik till the death of me; 11:15 AM Wednesday, September 12, 2007 
My darling dog Yesha didn't make it. She passed away at 5PM on 9/9/2007.
The next day, my other dog, Kadosh was admitted into the hospital for similar symptons.
My doggie's tummies are too small, so they can't digest anything except specially formulated dog chow. We feed them boiled meat sometimes, and their stomahs couldn't take it and eventually failed. Paired with Yesha's lung infection -she has a weak lung- she didn't have a chance.
Dosh, however is recovering. her stomach is 0.5cm thicker than normal(and normal is 0.5cm) and when her pancreatic juice was examined, she was off the scale. normal dogs are about 500-1000, the machine couldn't even read doshie's. it was too high.
if i typed this about two days ago-and i couldn't. BOTH computers were down- i would've been so damn emotional. how could I not? My dogs are what I love most in the world. More than my friends, more than my family, more than donghae or whatever kpop star i'm into.
life is cruel, isn't it? My grandmother passed away more than a month ago. My other puppy got hit by a car and passed away two months ago. To snatch away thre of my loved ones in a matter of two months. Its been a bad YEAR, really. Both my grandmothers were in and out of hospitals. yesha had been sick on and off. My father's company fired some people and hes now stuck doing THREE people's jobs.
Maybe there'll be a turn for the better. i certainly hope so.epik till the death of me; 10:48 AM Sunday, September 09, 2007 My baby dog's in the hospital for unknown reasons. I'm so exausted but i need a pick-me-upper so i came online. Get well soon, darling. I'm thinking of simply quitting blogging, since my blog has become merely a place for me to fan girl. Convince me otherwise? epik till the death of me; 1:46 PM Friday, September 07, 2007 I sense a HUGE WHATTHEFUCK coming up soon. I'm still reeling THE HAIIIIRRR BOYS, WHAT DID YOU DO TO THE HAIIIIIIIIIIIIRRRRRRR So we all know kangin is now bald. OMG sakdhlakdlkasjdlaskjdlk KANGINNNNNNNNNNNNN HE PULLED A TOP! You're more like your long lost baby brother now! AND HAE HAS A SEMI BUZZ HAIRCUT TT~TT And that hankyung is blond. And theres a 3 coloured hair boy. which everyone thinks is teuk. And sweet ryeowook has fugly stubbles on his face, making him look like minwoo #2. shave, darling, please. i was shocked he was actually a man. i thought he was a new woman cross boy cross puppy hybrid. hey! who knows maybe sungmin will have blue hair now! The pic of hankyung.. doesnt look like hankyung. hankyung has had blond hair that shade before, i thought he''ll go brown i SO dont want a three coloured hair boy. really, kangin looks A LOT more like TOP from bigbang now. except TOPs hair grew back. and TOP IS SO FREAKING HOT NOW. *optimistic* If the boys have new hairstyles now, that means the album is coming out soon! I LOL at this: who's interested in setting up a "buy black hair dye for 13 boys" fundHairstylist nuna, why do you hate them? epik till the death of me; 9:57 AM
► Look how long my reply was to ONE girl in af. now take this,, and multiply it by about 4, and thats how much i type in af per day. Everytime DBSK comes out with a korean, song everyone gets all excited. *i have 100 year love song on repeat now* They keep coming out with japanese songs that sound almost the same. BoA is probably more popular in japan than korea now. she hasn't been doing much in korea. Everytime an artists goes into Japan its "always come back to korea for an award show, fly back to japan. have 20 concerts in korea, 30 in japan." There was a whole discussion about this in i forgot what forum, SJFH i think, and most were against it. As for breaking into china, its hard for them. To fully conquer a market you have to at least speak the language. Japanese sentence structure is similar to korean so learning it is pretty easy. Chinese is one of the hardest language to learn plus the sentence structure is all different. Learning a new language is HARD, i should know TT~TT NO I dont want suju going to chinese variety shows. Those shows violent and pretty stupid. They copy acts from xman and jihwaza, like dangyunhaji and the game where they have to fit through foam cut outs. in xman, dangyunhaji is actually pretty funny, but in the taiwanese version, they just basically bad mouth the other artist, even using rumours and MAKING rumours. i don't think suju can ever beat dbsk's popularity anyway, judging by polls. dbsk is just so much easier to like. with suju, you need to give them a chance. after getting past the "OMG 13 BOYS??? WTH" factor, then you learn their names, and THEN you slowly watch things that make you like them. Liking dbsk is sooo easy. seriously. 5 boys, all who look so different, plus they sing ACAPELLA. and they DANCE SO GOOD. the singing got me first, then the dancing, then the looks. then the dorkiness. to be fair, what they say about their singing ARE right. as much as i love donghae, i must say he cannot sing VERY well live. hos pitch goes off. and kibum's rapping sounds somewhat awkward compared to the other boys. heechul can only sing trot/rock. epik till the death of me; 9:53 AM Sunday, September 02, 2007 Made a list of the fanfics I've written, more for my sake than yours, really >< I wanna know which ones I've posted and which one I haven't. Beauty pagaents Feat: Eunhae Love, lust agony Feat: Eunhae Dear diary Feat: Kihae Tantrums Feat: Kihae, Kangteuk, Hyukjae Compliments Feat: Eunhae Night Time Feat: Eunhae Hamsters III Feat: Donghae+Various suju members Hamsters II Feat: Donghae+Teuk Hamsters Feat: Kihae Sleep Feat: Eunhae -holidays Feat: Eunhae, with a hint of other couples -Kiddie literature rocks Feat: Eunhae -A day off Non-yaoi, feat various suju members -Jealousy Feat: Eunhae and Stephanie of CSJH -Oops Feat: Eunhae -Donghae, grow up! Feat: Eunhae -Love is impossible, isn't it? Feat: Eunhae -Heaven comes in the form of Hyukjae Feat: Eunhae epik till the death of me; 10:52 PM
► Its dark, I turned off all the lights. Kiss the radio and chunji is on, both not viewable though. I'm alone. The setting is just nice for a LOOONG nice post, but.. I can't see the keys on the keyboard>< Its not bright enough. Time for my daily dose of crap ramblings. You're going through a perfectly normal phase where young intellectuals adults start searching for their own identities and purpose in life. It may take years, but once you've figured out who you are, you'll be satisfied.Okay, so that means in those few years, I'll still feel confused and lost? And 'young intellectuals' probably means teens in their 17 or 18s, not innocent little 14 year olds. epik till the death of me; 9:59 PM |