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About Me  jiaqian → fangirl. insane. beware. → am a little twisted, and a lot disturbing, but once you look past the insaneness, i'm quite interesting. → this is a mostly a place for me to wax horrible poetry and post cryptic rants that no one will understand but of late it has evolved into yet another angsty diary. but the last time i checked, that's what blogs are for. →also, lots of typos since i'm normally high (on life, not crack!), tipsy or depressed when i write my posts. seriously. → profanity galore. honest raw emotions. are you squirmy when it comes to emotions? → slightly unhinged. dancing on the edge yet in control. perfection is overrated. The likes ♥
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Credits Layout design by Eefennie. edited by mua. | Wednesday, December 29, 2010 just came back from chengdu, china ^^ it's my second time in china this year (i went to shanghai in june) and i must say, chengdu is so much better than shanghai or beijing, in terms of cleanliness, friendliness and everything else overall. it's a slower paced city and the people are more civilized. you;ll understand what i mean by "civilized" if you've ever been to china. because i have to work early tomorrow, this will be a short one. chengdu is famous for its pandas, so how could we not visit? the baby pandas were particularly adorable because they haven't quite gotten the hang of crawling so they just tumble about the place. the keeper led them on a play chase so the visitors could take pictures and oh, it was the cutest thing ever ♥  
that night we went to watch a traditional chinese show. it had traditional instruments, chinese opera, the famous art of face changing, shadow puppets, fire breathing and a whole lot of other amazing stuff that the chinese excel at xDi can bet that most tourists would not be able to experience this amazing show. this is why you should never ever join a tour when travelling. we also went to qing chen mountain(青城山) and er mei mountain (峨眉山) which had one of the most breathtaking views ever. these two mountains are famous buddhist sacred sites, and we didn't take pictures of most of the temples due to respect. however we took about 12124324 photos of the surroundings because oh, it's beautiful. 
 
this is at du fu's cottage. he's a famous poet in the tang dynasty.
next to the cottage is a famous tourist street that i can't recall the name of.hehe at a place called there was a stall selling malt sugar melted in various animals. spin the wheel and get a random design. i got the dragon shaped one :D 
and now i shall do a mini pic spam of myself haha.you have to understand that i am not a photogenic person, so when i have flattering pictures, i am thrilled.    
... it's late. i have to be at work in 8 hours. messy post as usual, but nyeh what can i do? good night :Depik till the death of me; 11:08 PM Wednesday, December 22, 2010 it was a slow process. in fact, no one noticed it until it became blatantly obvious. the fact that junhyung was talking to himself often didn't strike anyone as abnormal. junhyung was a naturally sensitive kid with plenty of complaints. with no willing ear for his nagging and complaints, they thought junhyung had resorted to mumbling under his breath. they didn't think too much of it when junhyung started distancing himself from the members. the accepted explanation from the man himself was that he had been composing songs lately, and could only crop up the required feelings when he was alone. the other members found nothing unusual in this explanation as they all had their odd quirks when it came to art. gikwang stayed away from beef throughout the process of recording as he thought it interfered with his voice. hyunseung slept and ate in the dance studio when he was choreographing. being alone to compose seemed normal by comparison. the warning bell finally rang when junhyung did something so uncharacteristically junhyung that even gikwang, arguably the most dense among the six, stopped and stared. it was simple, really. junhyung left his half finished bowl of frosted flakes in the sink. this small gesture broke three of his own rules. one, wash all dishes immediately after use. two, finish all food on your plate. three, never ever touch sugared cereal. everyone knew that junhyung was kind of ocd about cleaniness and not wasting food, to the point that it made living with him uncomfortable for the first few months. yoseob peered into the sink and cautiously asked if junhyung was feeling sick. to which junhyung smiled, and proceeded to collapse to the floor._____________________ uh, if you're wondering about what this is about, junhyung has been plagued with voices in his head and has been suffering from insomnia for weeks. i just haven't gotten to that part yet. maybe i'll pick it up again later but most likely it's abandoned. and this is messy, unorganized and horrible because i'm a fucking maniac. this was entirely typed out by mobile. and mind you, my phone is a nokia n86 with a classic 1 to 9 keypad. you try typing for 15 minutes on a tiny keypad. this was really not conveyed the way i would've liked it to but it'll drive me insane until i got it out of mind. Labels: wordspit. epik till the death of me; 10:41 PM Tuesday, December 21, 2010 december 22nd is winter solstice festival, and as usual i'm making a post, except this year there are more pictures :D during the winter solstice festival, or 冬至, some chinese in the southern parts of china and also those who overseas make tangyuan (湯圓) or glutinuous rice balls. every year we make our tangyuan from scratch. the first thing we do is get the natural colouring for the dough. to do this, we use natural plants. for example, we mash pandan leaves to get green. pandan is also used to make the sweet soup that the tangyuan are served in. as you can see, i mashed up the leaves and squeezed the juice out.  red is from beetroot.  and blue is from these blue flowers that i don't know the name of. these flowers give out a very dark dye that DOES. NOT. COME. OFF. /mourns shirt  next, we make the dough. it's just the matter of adding water to the glutinuous rice floor and kneading it until it becomes firm. 
after that, we add the colour.
voila, coloured dough :D
we roll the dough into tiny balls because yuan sounds like reunion in chinese, so it has an auspicious meaning.
once done, the balls are cooked. just throw them into boiling water and scoop em out when they float to the surface.
 for a better texture, dunk the balls in cold water before serving them in the sweet soup. the sweet soup is made by boiling pandan leaves with cane sugar. tada~ 
not many overseas chinese practice this tradition anymore. but it's fun, so i guess it'll live on in my family :DLabels: winter solstice festival epik till the death of me; 10:22 PM Thursday, December 09, 2010 i am not a person who lives in the past. sad memories mean little to me because i tuck them into a little box and shove them into the dusty back alleys of my mind. i do not dwell on negative experiences. i am not a person who lives for the future. to me, the present is the only reality i need. i live in the moment, doing only the least of what is necessary to prep for a comfortable tomorrow. i am not a person to live with regrets. i make split second decisions and when i make up my mind, the decision sticks. i don't mull over it, weight the right and wrongs, the pro and cons. because of that, i don't regret losing what i might have have, what i could have been. i have only two regrets, one of which i offended a complete stranger by making a thoughtless, insensitive comment. but i walked away from that incident feeling so guilty that i never made that mistake again, so i think it is an experience that i should go through. that makes it less of a regret, and more of an unforgettable lesson. the other regret is very small, for it is caused by a decision of mine, and since it was my decision, i accept it. you know how they say destiny is what you make it to be? to me, that's what hardworking, diligent people might say. lazy asses like me waits for destiny to come aknockin at our door. i'll make it big, or i won't. it's all up to what the tea leaves tell me. and if i fail because i don't work hard enough, i can hardly afford to feel regret because it was my choice to be lazy, was it not? besides it'll be all in the past soon :D epik till the death of me; 4:46 PM Monday, December 06, 2010 so this hiatus thing isn't working out very well :| you know how i'm in the middle of my college entrance exams? ... you do? from the time i spend on the internet everyone thinks i'm having my holidays haha. but yeah. me being me, with my messed up priorities, ONCE AGAIN, i chose fangirling over studying. i'm surviving on 3 hours of sleep here, plus having endured 7 hours of exams today, so forgive my mind my incoherency. my friend (sweet darling friend) couldn't go to jay park's hi 5 event so she gave her ticket to me. i just want to say, again, that i love her. it was in the city, at NINE FREAKING AM, but you know the lengths i go for fangirling. when i got there i realised that her ticket was a vip ticket and i was THE FIRST IN LINE wtf. there weren't many girls, due to this being an exclusive event, less than 100. i had probably the best spot among all girls, smack front and center. i was probably a meter away from him. at 9:30AM, jay came in looking like he just rolled out of bed. he seemed pretty out of it the entire time. watch his entrance here. taken with my phone, but the quality is okay. the mc interviewed him a bit, but he was obviously out of it. he had to catch a flight in an hour so everything had to be rushed.   a bunch of fans were yelling out things, and when everyone quieted down, i yelled, "jay, it's my collge exams- my college entrance exams now!" he blinked at me and said, "really? good luck." it was a handshake event, but instead of shaking hands, he held up both his hands in front of his chest so we could grab his hands instead. which is cool by me, because two hands beat one hand, yeah? i was the third girl to go up and when i stood in front of me, my mind went blank, because lol he's my height. and then he smiled and told me, "good luck." i grinned and told him i've been a fan since debut and he nodded his thanks. i was ushered out aside after that and we picked up our signed posters at the side. 
when he left, i was standing right at the door so i got a pretty clear view. the bodyguards suddenly made a turn in my direction and i found myself blocking jay's path.i simply apologized and hopped aside. look at how close i was! 
and now here's the fun part!
my sis told me that kim hyunjoong was having some event in half an hours at pavillion, which was opposite the road.how lucky could we get? my mom was so excited because she really likes hyunjoong, so we went to pavillion. a brief wait later, he arrived, looking like some BAMF at a red carpet event. 
i don't like him so i didn't want to push forward to snap some good pics, but my mom made me.
all in all, a hectic and productive day :Dit was just slightly marred by the fact that i had to rush my studies upon reaching home :| . Labels: fan account epik till the death of me; 5:37 PM Thursday, December 02, 2010 again. with a rapper. again. specifically, this rapper.  he's beenzino, and he's adorable. so, me liking rappers isn't new, but i like him on the same level that i like tablo. it's not like a SIMON D YOUR ACCENT SO SEXY ILU kind of crush, but where the hell do i buy his music kind of thing. i feel myself falling. spiralling in. the funny thing is, i know nothing about this guy. he doesn't release much info about himself. it's frustrating the hell out of me, because i can't buy his songs, and i can't download them either, because no one uploads them. so i know nothing about him. except that he likes young nubile girls /cries forever i feel so down, because he has a SIXTEEN YEAR OLD GIRLFRIEND. i don't mind the stars i fancy having partners, but gdi, not when they're younger than me! 
apparently he's a sick mc, but i don't know hip hop so i can't judge.
a lot of people rated him as their top 10 korean rappers (other names often listed are verbal jint, swings, esens, mc meta, gaeko and p-type. i like swings.)
if anyone happens to google beenzino, you'll find nothing on him, so i'll just write out what i found on him in case anyone chances upon this post.
real name: 임성빈 im seong bini love him so much ♥ i'm going to end this post with this. he's all skin and bones!  epik till the death of me; 7:38 PM |
