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About Me  jiaqian → fangirl. insane. beware. → am a little twisted, and a lot disturbing, but once you look past the insaneness, i'm quite interesting. → this is a mostly a place for me to wax horrible poetry and post cryptic rants that no one will understand but of late it has evolved into yet another angsty diary. but the last time i checked, that's what blogs are for. →also, lots of typos since i'm normally high (on life, not crack!), tipsy or depressed when i write my posts. seriously. → profanity galore. honest raw emotions. are you squirmy when it comes to emotions? → slightly unhinged. dancing on the edge yet in control. perfection is overrated. The likes ♥
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Credits Layout design by Eefennie. edited by mua. | Wednesday, June 22, 2011 today i have to pack for my one week trip to australia. ... which is tomorrow haha. nothing says seasoned traveller like last minute packing! or maybe the only thing it says is, YOU'RE A LAZY ASS PROCRASTINATOR. still, lazy ass me says, one day is plenty enough to pack! even if my trip requires a whole different set of clothing since it's winter there and forever summer here. even if there's only 2 hours left to "today". uh. heh. *pulls at collar* i'll be staying at my sis' place in the UNSW (university of new south wales) village, and at her best friend's place in melbourne later. unfortunately, domestic flights in sydney have been cancelled due to the serious haze. bad news because i'll be flying to melbourne in a few days. oh well. we can only hope for the best. on a brighter note, our mufy results were released today and FUCK YEAH I HAVE AN AVERAGE OF 85%. this calls for celebration n_____n epik till the death of me; 9:32 PM Tuesday, June 14, 2011 i'm sorry i'm not as girly as she is. i'm sorry i don't come out looking perfect in every single picture. i'm sorry that i curse so much, instead of letting out giggles and dotting my i with hearts. i'm sorry that the only makeup i put on is chapstick, and that i barely bother to dress in the frilliest little dresses. i'm sorry that i have an attitude, that i dare to speak my mind and there will be a well-placed kick to your crotch if you mistreat me. i'm sorry that i didn't live up to your pre-formed expectations of me, that i wasn't the girl you thought i would be, that you're disappointed because i am who i am and not who you want me to be. but hey. i like me. it's tiring to be someone else. so, huh, i guess i'm not sorry. i'm just curious as to how someone could live a barbie-like life like that. good luck finding her. epik till the death of me; 11:35 PM Monday, June 13, 2011 i've been feeling so uneasy lately. that aside. → i should have a less fucked up sleep schedule. i used to say that with a laugh, but it's taking a toll on me. my mood swings are scaring myself. → when i was young my sister and i shared a room. we would turn our bedroom into a "nightclub"-no i think back then we were too young to know a nightclub. we turned it into a disco. we turn off the lights and each grabbed a flashlight. i'm sure everyone has done this before. i almost miss it. my childhood. → i just heard of the news- david oh and risae on wgm. i watched birth of a great star and i'm not sure if they can survive a reality tv show :| to be quite honest, the show, birth of a great star, is a joke in itself. none of the contestants can actually sing. compare it to the first season of superstar k, where even singers that wowed me were turned away. the contestants didn't have stage presence, and it still puzzles me as to WHY some of them made it to the finals. but david is extremely charming because he's cute in that shy way, and risae is likable. it'll be awkward like hell, but fun, i guess. two kyopos. → hi ♥  epik till the death of me; 9:17 PM Tuesday, June 07, 2011 i have not been sleeping much lately, and when i don't get enough sleep, i usually become distant and reserved. this is the time when my mind works itself up into a frenzy and will not freaking shut up. most of the time i find myself wishing for a pen and notebook, or a real keyboard-equiped technological notebook- anything to pen down these thoughts because they'll haunt me until i do. today my mom dragged me to KLCC. it was my third trip on public transportation this week (it's only tuesday, gdi, so you can imagine... how did i go from "never been on public transportation" early this year to 3 times in a week?), so yeah, crowded trains + lack of sleep = me not in the best of my moods. to cheer myself up, i went to Kinokuniya because bookstores calm me down. my preferred form of retail therapy doesn't actually involve clothings of any sort, but paper. pages and pages of it. the book gods must be taking pity on me as there was a SALE and i bought 3 books. instantly, my mind went into zen mode and i found myself fingering the RM99.90 moleskins because i needed a pretty notebook to spill my thoughts in. i want pretty notebooks so bad :(with my mind tucked away in zen mode, i became so distracted throughout the day that i wandered up 5 floors in the mall without even noticing it. how dangerous. i find that this happens a lot when i drive. i simply cannot focus on the road. my mind drifts away and the itch gets at me. that itch. how should i explain it. do you know the feeling where thoughts plague you until they are expressed, and no amount of distractions can shake them away? well, it's at once the most annoying and most contemplative feeling in the world. it simply sucks, because while i may be more thoughtful, i also become hostile to everyone else and i'll get irritated at anyone that tries to snap me out of my moody moods. wow this post did not make sense. it's all over the place. huh, i guess i should sleep. epik till the death of me; 10:35 PM Thursday, June 02, 2011 since i have A LOT of free time, i'm watching basically every other drama that's been on air lately. right now i'm watching can you hear my heart, lie to me, baby faced beauty, romance town, best love, miss ripley and city hunter. fuck that's a lot of dramas xD → i started 49 days on the same day as can you hear my heart, but that ended a few weeks ago. 49 days was a nice, satisfying drama but the ending... well, i guess it's a nice ending. at least it differs from the usual set? i didn't think much of 49 days at first but i'm glad i started watching it. the characters are lovable and UNF jung ilwoo. best grim reaper, uh i mean, scheduler ever. the plot is original, if we ignore the lawsuit where it supposingly plagarised a fanfic. what? watch this. nice, fun and tear-jerking. all elements of a good drama. if you're thinking of watching any of these, let me tell you which will make you anticipate the day it airs, and which will make you mourn the loss of drama budget. → i don't care if you're swamped with assignments or busy with exams, watch best love. no, you should watch best love ESPECIALLY if you're stressed and busy. i didn't want to watch this because the actors didn't draw my attention. come on guys, it's written by the HONG SISTERS? when have they failed to provide us with the fluffiest, funniest scenes that make our fingers curl and our mouths ache from smiling? never. best love is absolutely asLNMSIOASJOIASJ. WATCH IT, DAMN IT. → out of the monday/tuesday line up, i prefer lie to me. the fake marriage plot might have been overused, but it undeniably works, and that's why it's so popular. yoon eunhye's acting gets a bit tedious sometimes. there's a few scenes where her character, ahjung, sings, and i'm thankful that she switched from singing to acting. i mean, her acting isn't all that great, but her acting is the lesser of two evils. still, she's a lovable girl and whatever she does, we'll still love her for it. there's also sanghee (sangjun), my bby model who i love, who plays 's little brother tha a carefree man who's just a little on the lovesick side. on the other hand, i want to wring the second female lead, yunju's neck. really, i do. lie to me offers the right amount of fluff and sweetness, only to wrench it away with a few frustrating moments. we're only at episode 8, the halfway point, so there's still much to see. this drama is the one to watch for. →baby faced beauty has an interesting premise, but it doesn't offer anything that would grab someone's attention. jang nara plays 34 year old lee soyoung who is so baby faced that everyone mistakes her for someone way younger. due to certain complications, she ends up impersonating her 25 year old sister for a clothes fitting gig and ends up working for the firm as a designer. jinwook (daniel choi) is her work senior who thinks he's a great oppa, but doesn't know that he's really younger than her. there's also the hot 35 year old boss with a precocious little daughter and a gorgeous love rival who just happens to be soyoung's team director. yup. typical drama fare there. worth a watch, but don't expect any surprises. → romance town could have been fabulous, but falls just short. i mean, you have SUNG YURI playing the lead, sungeum. and there could be a sizzling romance between the maid and the employer. could be, but no. i've watched 7 episodes and so far there hasn't been any moments that made me smile or seethe or... well, feel anything actually. there's one part that simply DOESN'T MAKE SENSE. as this contains spoilers, highlight to see. after striking it rich, sungeum buys an expensive dress and does a makeover. strangely enough, NO ONE recognises her, not her boss (geonwoo) nor her best friends -the other maids in the neighbourhood. she even goes as far as to strike up a budding romance with geonwoo, pretending to be a rich heiress. how does this work, i ask you. you can put on eyeliner, change your hairstyle and wear a ten thousand dollar dress, but you can't change your features or your voice. she was stuck in the damned lift with her friends and none of them recognised her. i think you need better friends, sweetie. and from episode 7 she loses all of her spunk and becomes weirdly cutesy. i don't get it. don't watch this one unless you're bored out of your mind. → i don't know much about miss ripley, as it's only just aired 2 episodes, but it's a melodrama and i'm not too fond of those. it starts off depressing and serious, and the mood continues on for much of the episode. i never liked lee dahae... except i must say, that red slinky dress that she wore in the first scene, i have the exact same thing except in black and oh okay, now i see how slutty it looks lol. but eeee yoochun. arguably the reason why 70% of the audience is tuning in, and he doesn't disappoint. looks-wise, i mean. they threw in a bit of yoochun-with-kids, and yoochun-the-honest-man, and also yoochun-speaking-multiple-languages to hook us fangirls in. he's too qt so i'm too distracted by the cute to judge his acting skills. the second episode quieted down, but hyejung has a more prominent role. oh my, i hope hyejung and yoochun end up together (they won't), so i can see wife of my bias kiss my other bias. interesting so far, as the plot hasn't unfolded much. → as for city hunter. no comment. the first episode was action packed, and a lot of money went into it. i'm someone who hates violence and action movies, so i'm dropping this drama. perhaps if you liked athena or iris, you'll like this. epik till the death of me; 10:16 PM Wednesday, June 01, 2011 i have a fever now. i am delirious, but being confined to bed is boring, hence this._ superjunior m had a free concert in putrajaya on the 29th and with nothing better to do (ONE MONTH HOLIDAYS FUCK YEAH), i went. we had to listen to the prime minister talk crap, a few performances from artists i didn't know, and wait for a REALLY LONG TIME, but it was worth it, yeah? the concert started at 10pm. wtf? thankfully there were no delays and they kicked off the concert with 太完美. the sound system was really good, as were the cameras and the screens. i was close enough to see their features but the huge ass screen had such clear pictures of their faces that i found myself watching the screen for half the time. they had a brief interview where the boys were absolute QTs. i LOVE listening to kyuhyun speak mandarin, js. zhoumi introduced himself in cantonese. for some reason, they had fanservice time. why. WHY? 5 girls and 1 guy were ushered onto stage to ask the boys questions. the level of their english and chinese... so so so embarassing. one girl asked hyukjae, "do you still steal the other members' underwear?" hyukjae seemed flustered, but not his great group mates, no. his loyal friends stood up for him... zhoumi asked, "HOW DID YOU KNOW!" and kyuhyun chimed in, "(他) 怪怪的. (he's weird)" before hiding behind zhoumi. and sungmin, always the spoilsport, ACTUALLY defended hyukjae by waving no. hyukjae denied it of course. he then attempted to defend himself in ENGLISH. "this is mine. if you want, i will show you?" and sungmin chipped in by saying that hyukjae WASN'T wearing any underwear. okay, sungmin. you're forgiven. they concluded the interview with 到了明天 . followed by the solos. first henry sang his solo, 表白 (Off My Mind), from the perfection album. i absolutely love this song, okay. and we're so so lucky to be able to hear it live kekekekeke. then zhoumi sang z-chen's 凌晨三點鐘 because he says that he's his good friend. then kyuhyun sang ah mei's 如果你也听说. ryeowook had his moment with teresa teng's 我只在乎你 . finally, hyukjae came out with his solo, wearing earphones. he pretended to be listening to baby, then love the way you lie, and finally MJ's beat it. at that, he launched into a slick MJ-inspired dance routine to beat it and dangerous. baby is sexy, okay. really hot zomg. his hipthrusts, moonwalking and that evil little smirk was just enough to drive me mad. sungmin didn't have a solo, probably because he couldn't sing in chinese. they closed with 命運線 and did an encore performance with supergirl. _ oh my god i am so hungry now. can't type without eating. and fuck you meds. i can't eat without feeling nauseous. 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